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Paris Jany [January] 12th 1867
My dear wife,
After I mailed your letter yesterday I received my brothers of the 16th Decb. [December] enclosing Genl. [General] Smiths letter of the 17th Decb. [December] referring to a letter from the A.D.C. [aide-de-camp] of Genl. [General] Grant . This looked very encouraging, & again Threw me in doubt whether I should proceed at once to Canada or to Cuba. I should not hesitate one moment to decline coming home for the present if it were not that The letter of Grants aid, that of Genl [General] Smith & of my brother were all written before the recent events in the United States under which Johnson has dissolved his court marshalls & seems to have his hands full of his own work with the radicals, but even as it is, I am perplexed in the extreme, if you were only with me I should know what to do -- I should not leave Europe until spring but as it is, I have determined to go to one place or the other. Unless I hear something to morrow [tomorrow] I shall start in the "New World"
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for Havanna & N.O. [New Orleans] on Tuesday night My cold has Troubled me a good deal for the last week [deleted text: [illegible text] ] kept me the greater part of the Time in my room but it seems gradually improving & I doubt not but that a Tropical voyage would soon make it all right. By writing immediately on the receipt of this letter [deleted text: I m] (by way of N. [New] York) I may meet your letter at Havanna, and unless I get some Thing [something] to stop me at Havanna I shall Take the chance and go on to N. [New] Orleans. The worse that can happen to me is a prison & I dont [don't] see much To choose between my present position & any decent fort. I am now much worse than nothing, spending what little money we have left and without enjoyment & without benefit to my Self or any body [anybody] else, Therefore I can not [cannot] be much [unclear text: worsted] what ever [whatever] fate may befall me. I will therefore try to get quietly home & if I find I can not [cannot] stay There Then I will Try for Canada. I feel so anxious about you & the children
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that it makes me very wretched, I want To be with you at least long enough for us To see what arrangements can be made [deleted text: with] for Them. If Johnsons impeachment should continue I do not see how he will escape conviction, & then I suppose the whole south will be put under military law again & I will not be safe a single moment -- Johnson has no other chance that I can see at this distance, than to disavow congress & defend himself by force & it does not appear to me That is preparing for that contingency, Therefore I would not be surprised to hear of his [unclear text: departure] when I get to Havanna I have no news to write you. we go about as usual when you were here except Julia & Mrs B. [Burt] are both[deleted text: gayer] gayer & seem to be enjoying themselves Tho' [Though] at a [illegible text] gate. Genl [General] & Mr. Breckenridge are here, & speak of remaining in Paris until the lst of February. Mrs. Lawton is also still here & speaks of leaving her children & going home on a visit to her husband! And I should be suprised
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if she did -- She says She is impressed with the idea that she should do so, & you that is enough for her. They are all well, & the girls seem very cheerfull [cheerful]. I will keep This letter open until The last moment & continue to add whatever may occur -- Farewell for today!
January 14th
Dear Julia,
I have nothing to add but to day [today] that my preparations are all complete & I leave to morrow [tomorrow] in the Neuveau [Nouveau] Monde" for Havanna & N. [New] Orleans via Martinique, avoiding St. Thomas, tho [though] it costs me Two or three days more Time & makes me take a French instead of an English ship -- My cold is improving, but fully well, but my Throat, & general health is excellent. I shall have a long & lonesome voyage, with not much else to cheer me but That I shall find you & our dear little ones at the end of my journey, if I am permitted to see you & find you all well, I shall be compensated for its fatigues & dangers. I wrote my brother Today sending him some valuable papers.
Farewell to night [tonight]. I keep this letter open until to morrow [tomorrow] when I start for St. [unclear text: Nazaire] . Good night!