[Transcript from 1990s typewritten version, corrected to match manuscript. Spelling, punctuation and grammar not corrected] [Editor's note: The author tends not to capitalize a number of words which traditionally are capitalized. These include God, Bible, Baptist, Presbyterian. In order to keep from filling the text with [sic] notations we have left the original as is. Further, she tends not to include a period after Mr or Mrs. We have left that as it is. She also often leaves out an apostrophe in contractions: cant and dont. We have left these as she wrote them. Finally, she spells certain words incorrectly, such as: untill, carr and excelent. In addition she used "come" where we might use "came": "Ma come over to supper." For example. She also will write that someone "set with me." These are marked with a [sic].] From July the 24th 1866 to October the 24th 1868 1866 July the 24th A remarkable warm day, had a thunder shower this afternoon but very little rain, Mrs Yarborough here this morning, several gentlemen called a traveler here tonight, read in First Corinthians, Been busy packing up all day again, another disappointment the negro that is weav­ing my carpet has ruined it, its of no use to me, a great disappointment but I must bear it bravely, will not sink under trials & difficulties for all things do indeed work together for good. Wednesday the 25th Another hot dry day & another thunder cloud but only a sprinkle of rain. We are really suffering very much for rain & no prospect at present for it. I have been very busy all day & have not slept any, so feel very much fatigued; Florrence Frierson came this Morning; the boys invited company intending to have a dance tonight as I have taken everything out of the parlor indeed nearly everything out of every room, so they prevailed on me to let them have a dance, but no ladies come [sic], the neighbors are attending a Revival meeting about five miles off, & most of the town girls went to my house in town thinking it was there so a sad disappointment to the boys, also to me as I could have packed up many more things if I had not been fixing for company to­night, but it goes in ones life time, some eight or ten boys come they had one cotillion; D. Mitchell & R. Lumpkin will remain all night. Read in First Corinthians. Thursday 26th A fair day & a thunder cloud after night, but not rain, several called, Miss Frierson, Mr Lumpkin & Mr Mitchell left this morning; been busy all day again packing up & fixing this house for Stump & Ed, think I shall get off tomorrow if nothing happens, hope so any how for nothing is fixed in town & all must be done this week if possible, I do dread it so much. I went with the boys to the station to church tonight, quite an excite­ment there & many mourners, now after eleven o'clock & I have not slept any, feel very much wearied. Read in 1st Corinthians; 2 1866 Thursday August the 9th I have had no Blank book & could get none since the 23rd of last month untill [sic] today, wrote three days on loose paper, & drew it off this morning, I came up here, Athens, the 27th of July, it was heartrending to leave such a home as I have so many comforts & conveniences to come to such a place as this, I cried like a child all the way & to make it worse came by to see one of my former slaves who is quite sick, true it was a great pleasure to see him & find him so thankful to see me but O, I cant [sic] think, cant[sic] look back, than put my hand to the plough & must not faulter [sic], must look ahead all the time, I was very busy, really worked very hard for a week after I came here, but I had decided it was best to come & with me to decide as all I have been perfectly satisfied, slept well, & considering all things have been contented, am determined to make myself happy as possible, & will not faulter [sic] or grieve if I can help it; but surely I should be satisfied for a great many of my friends have called on me. only been here thirteen days & 70 ladies have called on me, that is to me cheering for if anything can reconcile me to the change it will be to have my friends around me & I am delighted with the neighbours [sic] all so pleasant. I have only four rooms for boarders, three are filled, one I reserve for 4 students hope I shall succeed in getting them, have applications every day for lady boarders, but will not take any more. Dr Sneed his wife & children & Miss Whitehead of Savanah are boarding with me, I am all the time fearing I shall not please them, since I have been here I have finished reading first Corinthians, read through Second Corinthians & Gallatians [sic] & Commenced Ephesians have recieved [sic] several letters, & wrote several Received & wrote very many notes, have been to church several times & made several calls upon the whole I have spent my time rather pleasantly & do sin­cerely hope I may only do right myself that is the great secret of happiness, 3 1866 Be pleased O my Father to be with me & bless me, grant me a good & perfect heart let the words of my mouth & the meditations of every heart be acceptable to thee, let me grow in grace & in favour [sic] with God & man, let me be kind & ob­liging to all, a good neighbour [sic] & above all, a true & devoted Christian & O Be pleased to root out every spark of vanity & self-love, indeed every evil passion & be thou guide & protect me, be my rod, & my staff, my stay & support, & grant that not a day may pass that I donot do some good to some individual & without a selfish motive & be pleased to Bless my darling boy at home & keep him from every evil & make him a true Christian. Mr T. M. Daniel, & a lady wishing to engage board called this morning, Mrs M. Franklin called early & while she was here Mrs Martha Billups of Tuskegee come [sic] to me very unexpected, have not seen her for some years, Mrs Henderson & the Dr called this evening but I was at Mrs Mayes' so did not see them; Ed M Manaman come in this morning & brought me some vegetables & pillars [sic] I was pleased to see him & hear all were well at home; wrote a note or two & commenced a letter, Mr T. Moore called this afternoon & no one has called that I felt so pleased to see, he is an old man & been suffering for years with paralisis [sic]. Read in Ephesiaus; Mr & Mrs N.L. Barnard called at the door say they will dine with me tomorrow. "O for a heart submissive meek My dear Redeemer's throne, Where only Christ is heard to speak And Jesus Reigns alone;" Friday the 10th A fair day, Mrs Baxter called on me & Mrs H. C. Billups on Miss Whitehead this morning. Mr & Mrs N.L. Barnard spent the day here; Mrs A. Crawford & Miss Linton here this afternoon; wrote to F. Kohlheim, & several notes, Read in Philippians; I got up this morning took my coffee & went to the market coming home sometime before breakfast. Saturday 11th A fair day & very dusty we are suffering very much for rain. Wrote to Col L. J. Deupree; wrote and received several notes, Miss George Shaw called this morning so did Mr T.M. Daniel; Ed & Rough came 4 1866 this morning before breakfast, so did Miss T. Frierson all eat [sic] with us, they say all are well at home; I am glad to hear it I went to the market this evening & called to see Mrs Broadenase found her up & better then I expected; while I was gone two ladies called I think from Kitty's description it was Mrs M. Bradford & her daughter, regret not being here, read in Philippians. It will be a week tomorrow since I saw Stump I do want to see him so bad, but he has been pollicking [sic] all the week, I fear they are not doing much out there; Miss L. Frierson came & went to the market with me, Florrence Frierson is here now, & Mrs F. here since tea. Sunday 12th A fair day, Stump came soon after breakfast, so glad to see him & find him well & cheerful, he only remained an hour or so & returned as Ed was alone & requested him to return early; Mrs L. Ruse called on her way to church; Miss T. Frierson left after dinner. Miss L. Frierson here this afternoon. Read through Colassians [sic] & 1st Thessalonians. I have suffered so much today in mind my cook cant or wont make bread we can eat, cooks meat just as well as I wish her to but we cant eat her bread, what must I do I am in so much trouble, bless me O my father & help me. Monday 13th Another dry hot day, Stump came in early this morning & says my corn is entirely gone, & the garden past all hopes, so I am distressed at that, what am I to do, no garden here & none there; & dont know any one to get them to bring me any vegetables or fruit & then the negroes have been steal­ing out there again, even taken the keys & have taken a great many things the last week, can't see what we are to do surely something must be done or we can't live so. Miss S.E. Frierson here this morning; Read through Thessa­lonians. Tuesday 14th Another hot dry morning, Ed came in this morning before breakfast, another fuss over there with Mr Bone & one with Mr Drake, do hope they may be able to drive both off for they are certainly both rogues; & of no use anyway. Mrs Ford & Mr Cohen came early this morning to eye over a room for Mr C____ who came to dinner, he is the only student I have yet, seems to be very pleasant indeed, Miss S.E. 5 1866 Frierson came here before breakfast, Mrs Pope called this morning several ladies called this afternoon, some this evening. Wrote several notes, Read in First Timothy; I called on Mrs H.C. Billups and Mrs Savage this evening. Wednesday 15th A fair day, had a severe wind today with cloud but no rain; then after nine o 'clock had a rain at least now raining at 10 o'clock; Rough, Ed & Mr Holman came up early this morning, were surprised to find Stump gone to Watkinsville, I walked over a few minutes to see Mrs A. Crawford found her too unwell to receive company; Miss A. Billups, & Miss F. Frierson here this morning, then Mr Thompson & Mr Grimes called, then Mr Grimes came again after dinner also Mr T.M. Daniel & his brother, Miss M. Wright, Miss L. Brittian & her cousin, & after tea Mrs Nesbit & Miss Hardeman came & left after ten. I spent an hour at Mr Mayes' this evening to see Mrs R. Hughes, I have been busy all day, had company all day, & yet have enjoyed the day very much with one exception, a gentleman called I know to have a some private conversation with me & I had so much company he could not, & I am glad but still I fear he will come again, still its not my fault, I cant help company coming in, & surely he saw it, & knows that I could not help it. Read in first Timothy, wrote several notes. Thursday 16th Another warm dry day, did not have rain enough to make it pleasant, Ed, Rough & Mr Holman came early this morning, brought me some milk &vegetables, another fuss on the farm can't see how I am to get on, every time they come they have had something unpleasant to occur; Several ladies called this morning, Mr T.M. Daniel also called; wrote several notes, several called during the afternoon, & after tea some 12 or 15 ladies & gentlemen came & left after ten oclock [sic], Stump played on the violin & Banjo & several ladies played on the piano, they also had the dining room cleared & had a dance, all seemed to enjoy it very much, I hope they did at least, Read in First Timothy; I have not slept today & feel wearied. I walked down to the stores this evening. Friday 17th A cloudy morning had a very good rain this afternoon I do indeed feel so thankful hope we had as much at my plantation 6 1866 Neither of the boys came in this morning. Sam came with a load of wood all well out there, but one of the young ladies that Stump was with in Oglethorpe last week dancing & as gay & lively as any was buried yesterday, another warning to all old & young; Mr T.M. Daniel, four Misses Frierson, & Miss Hutcherson here during the day, Miss L. Frierson here tonight. Read in First Timothy; wrote & received several notes. Saturday 18th A fair day. Rough came up soon this morning & staid untill [sic] after supper; Mrs Y.L.G. Harris & Miss Williams called this morning, also Mr & Mrs Barnard they left just as we set down to dinner; soon after dinner get our supper & breakfast fixed up every thing & Florrence, Stump & myself went to my house (to Chalky Level) to see one of my former slaves married the first negro marriage I ever witnessed, the father of the bride was my foreman an extraordinary good negro, he was anxious for me to see it & the mother was my nurse when I was an infant both seemed very much gratified that I witnessed it & set the table. I also shook hands with them & congratulated them on the occasion, we took supper with the boys, they or rather Ed McManaman seemed almost crazy, he was so pleased to see us, had the horse, yard & road swept, every thing put in complete order, even a rocking chair set for me in the same place I had it when there, he surely is one of the best boys I ever saw, so kind & good, so sober & upright & I do believe loves me like a mother & I know he feels like a son to me, do hope God will bless & protect him for his great kindness to me & mine; we came home after eleven o'clock found all awake & expecting as all had passed off well during our absence. Wilbur Anglin called & left a note for me from his sister, & Mrs Ware sent me a saucer of ice cream for supper, I do indeed regret being absent as I love it so much; Read a chapter in Second Timothy; Sunday 19th A cloudy morning, two Misses Frierson staid all night left this morning. I went to the Baptist Church heard Mr Thornton 7 1866 preach from the latter clause of the 17th verse of the 4th chapter of 1st Peter; Mr Holman & Stump came up this afternoon. Mr H. only staid [sic] a few minutes. Stump will remain with me. Mr & Mrs Pappy & others called, read through Second Timothy & Titus; I feel very much refreshed tonight but my back pains me very much. Monday 20th A bright morning. Mr Holman and Rough came in before break­fast. Mr Holman left this morning for Ky.; hope he will have a pleasant trip he is a kind hearted young man; Several called this morning, & many gentleman & ladies this afternoon & after supper some 12 or 15 ladies and gentlemen came in & we had music and dancing, now eleven o'clock all have just left. I have been unwell all day but feel better tonight, our stove was out of fix tonight made supper late, Robert Dougherty is here tonight with Stump and Col J. Billups came this morning and introduced Mr Rembert a distant relative of mine. He came this afternoon to board with us, seems to be a pleasant well bred young man: hope he will be pleased & that he will get on well and happily. Read through Philemon; wrote several notes. Tuesday 21st A fair cool day for the season: Ed came in this morning: Col J. Billups here soon after breakfast, several ladies and gentlemen called this afternoon; Judge Law and his wife and daughters here tonight; read in He­brews; I feel much better tonight, & very much pleased with Mr Rembert. Wednesday 22nd A cloudy day with several light showers. Rough here today they have had another fuss with the negroes and a horse they think will die, what will become of us? Poor me it seems like something to annoy me all the time, but Mr Hughes called this morning; many ladies called during the day but I think more to see me; read in Hebrews; I have felt well enough today & have not felt the fatigue so much, perhaps more accustomed to it. I like Mr Rembert more every day, he is certainly a kind hearted boy, & seems to have an affectionate disposition feel like I shall love him very much indeed already love him; & sincerely hope he will love us & feel at home with us; so far from his parents he needs some one to love and call on; Bless me Our father and grant me a good and perfect heart. Let me grow in grace & in love with God. 8 1866 Thursday 23rd A cloudy day several sprinkles of rain, Miss Lou Frierson & myself called on Mrs Lamar Cobb, on Mrs Sue Phinizy, on Mrs Frierson & home to dinner, Dr D. Richardson came with Stump & took dinner with us. Miss Mary Franklin called this morning; Miss Frierson and myself called on Mrs Brown, on Mrs Harden & on Mrs Adams this afternoon. After supper Miss J. Reese and her brother & Mrs Clarke & her daughter & Mrs Stone and Ed Newton came & all left after nine o'clock indeed some of them after ten. Read in Hebrews; I feel very sad tonight. Friday 24th A fair day, Mrs Joe Morton called this morning so glad to see her looked like home to see her here, was in hopes she would come tonight but am disappointed, Mr Daniel & others gentlemen called. Miss H. Newton called, & many ladies, Mr and Mrs Pappy here just at night, wrote several notes Read in Hebrews. I called on Mrs Bradford and Mrs Clayton, then on Mrs King, then on Mrs [Samney?] then on Mrs Dr Hull and home before eleven o'clock have not been well today and very unhappy. Cant see how I am to get on, bless me O my father & help me for Christ's sake help to get through safe. Saturday 25th A fair cool day; Mr T.M. Daniel & Mr E. McM came early this morning. Mr H. Morton called, several ladies here during the day; Mr V. Harris came soon after dinner and left just before sundown. Mrs Morton and Mrs Frierson here after supper. Read in Hebrews, received several notes. Sunday 26th A cool windy morning, clouded up before dinner & still so think we shall have rain very soon; Miss L. Frierson called this morning, & went with us to the Methodist church heard Bishop Pierce a most excellent sermon from the 6th and 7th verses of the 34th chapter of Exodus. The first time I ever heard him, cant say that I ever asked or heard particularly about his style or manner but I expected to hear him preach a flowery sermon to us. High falutin words, great poetry and all those extras, so was agreeably disappointed. He preached a plain common sense sermon that all could understand, I did indeed enjoy the sermon, intend going again tonight hope 9 1866 he will preach again, I have written before night as I expect to go to church and be up late, then I see so badly that I rather write some before dark. Florrence Frierson, Stump & myself went to the Methodist church heard Mr Mercherson of S.C. preach a pretty good sermon from "My Grace is sufficient for thee;" had some little excitement, some ten or fifteen mourners, they think of preaching every night this week. Read in Hebrews; I feel pretty well as to health but very sad, cant see how I am to get on; Bless us Our father & help us, thou & thou only art able to save us. Monday 27th Commenced raining about 12 o'clock last night & still raining hard some very hard showers do hope its a general rain for we have not sowed turnips yet, it may hurt the cotton some but will do the potatoes & peas great good; Read in Hebrews; several gentlemen called during the day; I have been very much troubled today really I dont know what to do, I am so grieved that I ever came here & more than grieved I am almost crazed to think I ever took ladies if I can get forgiveness for this I think I have took [sic] the last lady boarder I ever will take, & I do hope & pray that I will be able at Christmas to go home & quit this horrid town & forever be free from boarders, if I could only get good servants. O my father be pleased to bless & help me for I am almost broken down, my heart is so sad & so heavy. O help me for all my help must come from thee; Wrote to Mr W. Dougherty; Tuesday 28 Another rainy day; several called; Ed came up this morning, all well at home, & no fuss for once, hope they will get on now without any more trouble; My dining room servant left last night he is or was of no use to me, very idle & knows nothing in the world about the house, & too lazy to do any thing; I have one now I think will do better but O the trouble & anxiety I have every day & every hour; Read in Hebrews: wrote & received several notes. Wednesday the 29th A cloudy morning, a bright afternoon. Dr Moon & others here today, wrote to Cobb & Barrow, Read in James. Miss Lou Frierson & myself called on Miss V. Hutcherson; on Mrs Goulding & at Mr Hampton's store; I have felt very sad today indeed almost wretched, dont know what to do or think; 10 1866 Thursday 30th A fair day & pretty warm, Rough came up early this morning all getting on pretty well. Mr W. Rutherford called to see me this morning. Miss L. Frierson & myself called on Mrs J. Orr & on Mrs Hoover came home before twelve oclock [sic]. I then called on Mrs Dr Ware & Mrs Frierson this afternoon several ladies & gentlemen called today; read in James, received a letter from Mr W. Dougherty that is rather cheering, received one from Cobbs Barrow not pleasant, so our lives are a mixture of good & evil, I have often thought the good so far overbalanced the evil that we should not repine but of late it seems to me that evil predominates with me; Bless me O my father & help me to do Right only be my guide my staff my support dont let me faulter [sic] or faint "O for a heart submissive meek, My dear Redeemer's throne, Where only Christ is heard to speak, And Jesus reigns alone:" Friday 31st A cloudy morning; bright afternoon; Ed came up early this morning, had another fuss out there last night, I dont know what to do, my mind is divided, cant be there & here both & they cant get on at either place without me; it seems to me I am of no use & yet I am all the time wearied. O for a change for the better, Bless me O my father & grant me every good & every blessing thou, seest I need, not according to my will but according to thy will & pleasure, & make me to feel thy will be done: Mrs Brown & Mrs L. Thomas called on me this evening; several gentlemen & ladies called during the day: Read in first Peter; wrote to Mrs Hoover; the boarders & Stump asked me at the supper table to let them have a dance here tonight, I finally consented for them to meet after the congregation dispersed as there was preaching at the Methodist church; about half after nine oclock [sic] some twelve or fifteen came in, danced & enjoyed the evening & I felt pleased to see them happy, feel wearied now & sleepy; 11 1866 September 1st A fair day. Rough came up soon this morning. Stump went home with him to stay untill [sic] Monday, tonight just as we were going in to supper Stump, Rough & Mr Y. Williams came & have just left at half after ten; had some good music tonight D. E. Newton Miss Thomas, Mr Mc Sernan & others here with us; Mrs Hilyer, Miss [ ] & others called, Read in Second Peter: I feel very much dejected, really unhappy but I cant help it all things do actually work togather [sic] for good to them that love God & I hope I do, as Stump was not here had to go to market, & called to see Mrs T. Crawford, found her & Mrs Hayes well & pleased to see me: Sunday 2nd A fair hot day, I went to the Baptist church heard Mr Ivy preach a most excelent [sic] sermon from the 16th verse of the 3rd chapter of 2nd Timothy; he has improved very much since I heard him, if he always preaches as he did today I would never care to hear a better; Read in second Peter; I have been Quite sick ever since I came from church, feel better now & hope I shall feel well tomorrow as I wish to go to Watkinsville on business; Monday 3rd A cloudy day, some little rain, I went to Watkinsville called on Mr Mitchell expecting him to go with me, found him sick in bed, so came back & took Stump with me, made us rather late, got there after ten oclock [sic], went to the office but could do nothing as Mr Jones did not come dined & spent the afternoon at Mr Richardson's called at Mr Lucas' & home about sundown. Read in second Peter. I feel better but very much fatigued; Tuesday 4th A fair day. Mr McManaman came up early this morning all well at home, Mr Alexander called on me this morning & several ladies, Mrs Bradford & Miss Clayton, Mrs Vincent & Mrs Barnard this afternoon; wrote & received several notes. Read in first John; I have not been well all day, but not to unwell as I have for the two past days; wrote a letter for one of Mr Dougherty's former slaves; Wednesday 5th A fair day had a thunder shower just at night but very little rain; Rough came up this morning, Mrs F. Lucas & Mrs L. Hicks & Mr Harvey Towns here this morning. Mr Hill & others here this afternoon, received a letter from Miss L. Dougherty answered it, read first John, have been very much troubled today; 12 1866 Thursday 6th A fair hot day; Miss Lou Frierson & myself called to see Mrs Vincent, then Mrs Scudder then Mrs Newton then Mrs Pope then Mrs Holt & home by twelve oclock [sic], Mrs Hull called on me while I was absent, Ed came while we were at dinner, finished my letter to Miss L. Dougherty & wrote to Mr W. Dougherty. Read through 2nd & 3rd John; I feel very much wearied but think I shall go & stay an hour at Gen. Frierson's before I go to bed as I feel like I want to see them; Friday 7th A Rainy day, had one very hard shower. Stump came up early this morning telling of another fuss some one has broken in the dwelling house & stole some wheat, poor me what on earth is to become of me, Read through Jude, Received a letter from Mrs Allen answered it. Mrs Sneed one of my boarders was confined. I am truly pleased to think she is so well; Bless us all & help us. Rough came this afternoon & Mr Rembert went home with him; if they have good wea­ther I think he will enjoy the visit; Saturday 8th A fair day. Several gentlemen & ladies called. Rough & Mr Rembert come in early this afternoon. Mr McLarran went home with him to­night, Miss Thomas spent the evening here. Read in Revelation; I feel very sad would give a great deal I had not come here, but will try it a short time longer: Sunday 9th A cloudy day but no rain untill [sic] near dark. I went to the Baptist church this morning heard Mr Ivy preach a most excelent [sic] sermon from the 1st verse of the 5th chapter of Romans, Justification by faith, then at 5 oclock [sic] went to hear Dr Lipscomb Lecture that of course was good as he is always interesting. Read in Revelations, wrote to Ed McManaman; I feel pretty well today but still sad; Monday 10th A dark rainy day, had several hard rains. Stump came in early this morning I am & always have been & expect ever to be glad to see him; poor fellow if he only had an education, but I must not complain he is a good boy & that's more than wealth or anything else to me. Received and answered several notes. Read in Revelation; Bless me O my father & help me to feel & act right, Let come what, good or evil, Joy or sorrow, wealth or poverty, health or sickness, life or death Let me only trust in thee & all will be right; 1866 13 Tuesday 11th Another cloudy day had one hard rain. Rough & Mr G.W. Williams came up early this morning. Mr W. took breakfast, dinner & supper with us; Dr Moon & others called: Read in Revelation; wrote & received several notes; Wednesday 12th A cloudy day or rather more clouds than sun, but more clear & a little cool, Miss Whitehead & myself went out home this morning intending to return to dinner but found it so warm we took dinner with Ed & came home about 4 oclock [sic], found all well out there & glad to see us. I felt very much like I was at home, like I would rather stay there than come back, but I must be sat­isfied to do as I can not as I wish. Read in Revelation. Stump & Mr Williams made us some excelent [sic] music tonight several ladies & gentlemen came in so we had company & sit up untill [sic] twelve oclock [sic]. I feel very much wearied not having rested today or slept; Thursday 13th A fair day. Mrs Dr Ware, Mr Daniel, & others called, Dr W.H. Morton, Mr G. Williams & Dow Fergerson & Miss F. Frierson dined here. I called on Mr & Mrs Ivy this afternoon found them very pleasant. Read in Revelations, wrote & received several notes; I hear so many unpleasant things from home that I am all the time in trouble I do wish I had staid [sic] at home & perished for I fear it will come to that at last. I consented to let the young people have a dance here tonight. Friday 14th A fair day. Mr J.H. Daniel & others called this morning. Mrs Hoover & Mrs Barnard called this afternoon, several called to take leave of Miss Whitehead as she leaves tomorrow I called on Mrs Ware, Mrs Savage, & Mrs Frierson this morning & went to the methodist church after supper heard a young man preach from, "Why will ye die O house of Israel?" a revival sermon had some excitement the meeting to continue during next week; Read in Lamentations I slept very little last night consequently feel unwell today, they had quite a pleasant party last night all seemed to enjoy it very much broke up after one oclock [sic]. Saturday 15th A fair morning had a rain about 5 oclock [sic] & still raining at 11 oclock [sic], several called. Read in Revelations; Sunday 16th A cold Rainy day, equinoctial gale I think, only Mr Daniel & Mr Boykin called today. Read in Revelations; I feel sad but better than yesterday, & very much relieved to think Miss Whitehead is gone. 1866 14 Monday 17th A cloudy day, no sun & very little rain; several called; I went to the Methodist church tonight heard Mr Jefferson Pierce preach or rather exhort explain the best revival discourse I ever heard, from the 51st Psalm read & explained the whole Psalm, some little excitement about twenty mourners. Read in Revelations; Tuesday 18th A cloudy morning, bright afternoon. I went to the Methodist church this morning heard Bishop Andrews preach a good sermon from "Be careful for nothing" good advice he is an old man & very feeble; Read in Revelations Mrs J.H. Newton, Mrs Stanly, Miss Huggins & Mr & Mrs Ivy called today. I mailed my letter to Mrs L. Lanier; &wrote to Mr Daniels. Wednesday 19th A fair day Mr T.M. Daniel, Col J. Billups, Mrs Pope & others called; Read in Revelations. Received a letter from R.L. Thomas; Ed came in this morning & seems to think he is doing pretty well now, & that he will do better next year. I hope so; Two students came here this morning to board I wish I had taken the three that came last week, both of those are named Hill (Cousins) I think very nice young men; but rather have three than two; Thursday 20th A bright morning had a thunder shower about 4 oclock [sic] a good rain, several ladies called during the day, wrote & received several notes, Read in Revelations, Friday 21st A rainy morning had one hard shower, a bright cool windy afternoon. Mr Daniel & others called, several girls called this afternoon, commenced a letter to R.L.Thomas. Read in Revelations. I feel sad & dont know what to do. Dr Sneed does not treat me right & I dont know how to tell him. I think any man that will act towards a lady as he does towards me is not a gentleman, really him [sic] & his wife both do wrong; Saturday 22nd A fair cold day. Dr Sneed left this morning & I do wish his family had gone with him I am entirely worn out with them they are so much trouble & neither of them honest or upright do not act like honest people. Mr Rembert went to Lexington this morning & Mr Cohen to Chalky Level this afternoon. Mrs Frierson took supper with me, Miss L. Frierson here tonight; wrote to Robert Thomas; also a note to Stump, Read in Revelations; Mrs Bradford here this afternoon; 1866 15 Sunday 23rd A cloudy cool day. I have had some headache all day & feel quite unwell now, yet I went to the Baptist church this morning heard Mr Ivy preach a most excelent [sic] sermon from "The harvest is past, the summer is ended & we are not saved," then after supper went to the Methodist church & heard Dr Lipscomb preach from "The men of Nineveh shall rise in Judgement with this generation, & shall condemn it: because they repented at the preaching of Jonas; & behold a greater than Jonas is here;" I think I never heard Dr Lipscomb preach with so little interest, made almost a failure, there was some excitement at least 75 persons went to the alter, Read in Revelations; all my boarders went up to the alter & I had a conversation with them since our return; Monday 24th A fair day Miss E. Mitchell & Miss Walker called this morning. Mrs J. Long this afternoon, Miss F. & M.A. Frierson called several times. Read one chapter in First Kings; we all went to the Methodist church since supper heard Mr Burkhead preach from "I stand at the door & knock, if any man hear me & will open unto me I will go in & sup with him & him with me;" I never saw more feeling & so little excitement, I think fully one hundred went to the alter, three of my boarders went up tonight, one seemed to feel a great deal, sincerely hope all may be converted & that Stump & Rough may; Be pleased O my father to bless me & mine, & now while so many are being blessed, be pleased O be pleased to bless my darling boy, grant that he may become a Christian & live to thy glory; Tuesday 25 A fair day, some warmer, & now cloudy at ten oclock [sic], Mrs Smythe and others called this morning &Mrs Mrs J. Phinizy & others since dinner; I called on Mrs Henderson & Mrs Hilyer this afternoon & to the Methodist church after supper, heard Mr Key preach from the 11 last verses of the 10th chapter of Mark, very appropriate & rather good for the occasion I suppose over a hundred person went to the alter, more excitement tonight than last night but much feeling all seemed to feel deeply but more particularly the young men; Read in Genesis; I feel very sad & really donot know what or how to do. Bless me O my father & grant me a good & a perfect heart, let me love & serve thee & thank thee allways [sic] & forever . 1866 16 Wednesday 26th A cloudy day. Mrs J. Morton, Mrs J. Phinizy & others called; Mrs Phinizy came for me to go & spend the day with her as Mrs Morton was there, I really spent a pleasant day its been a long time since I have been much with her & we talked over old times; I called to see Mrs Harris & Mrs Nesbit; when I came home I found Judge Law & his wife here; Mrs Sneed took them in without my permission or knowledge; she is certainly a strange woman: I read in Jeremiah this morning, have not laid down to day so feel very much wearied tonight; therefore did not go to church, about ten oclock [sic] a negro one of the greatest curiostities [sic] I ever met come [sic] here & played & sang rather sang & played on the banjo he mimiced [sic] almost every bird I ever heard, frogs, pigs, ducks, french horn, Brass instruments & many other things; he seems from his face to have but little sense but I think he could be made a ventri­loquist. [Likely, this refers to an entertainer known as "Blind Tom"] Thursday 27th A fair day, windy & cool; Miss Frierson & myself started to see Mr Mitchell this morning met him & as I had but little business with him. transacted it in the street as we were out we called on Mrs Hampton, came home before twelve oclock [sic]. Mrs Hodgson called during my absence, Mrs Barnard, Mrs Billups & Mrs Wray called this afternoon; Read one chapter in Proverbs. I feel some better tonight, not quite so sad: the Revival continues to increase in interest, many have joined the church & many very many mourners: sincerely hope all may become true & devoted Christians; Friday 28th A cool windy day. Mrs Barnard spent the day here Mrs Gov Lumpkin & others called; Read in Proverbs, I feel very sad & very much fatigued tonight; Saturday 29th A cloudy dark day. Several ladies & gentlemen called. Ed McManaman & P. Hodgson dined here. Read in Genesis. The meeting still continues. I heard several were expected to join different churches tomorrow. I do hope & prey they may all be true & sincere, may continue through life; I must confess I have not much faith in revivals, but if only one should be truly converted it will be worth all the excitement, & I know many very many have been converted at revivals & continued through life. 1866 17 Sunday 30th A cloudy morning. The streets so muddy & looked so much like rain & I felt so very unwell I did not go to church, Mrs Ware & others called this morning; I went to hear Dr Lipscomb's lecture, I thought a most excelent [sic] lecture; then after supper went t o the Baptist church heard Dr Mell preach from the 24th verse of the 3rd chapter of Romans a very good &appropriate dis­course; several gentlemen called this afternoon & evening; Read in Genesis; October the 1st A cloudy --damp --cool morning. Mr Mitchell & myself went to Watkinsville on business could not prevail on him to stay all day so we only staid [sic] there 11/2 hours came home at three oclock [sic] found all pretty well but I dont think I ever felt more fatigued in my life; Mrs Hoover called, Mrs, Barnard & her husband took supper here, another boarder came in tonight, have not yet heard his name as Stump talked to him; Received a letter from Miss Sue Dougherty, feel happy to hear they are all well. Read one Psalm; Tuesday 2nd A cloudy day. Ed came in this morning & left after dinner; I called on Mrs L. Reese, on Mrs Thomas & her daughter & on Mrs Hoover came home before one oclock [sic], after dinner Miss M. Lumpkin & myself called on Miss A. Billups & on Mrs Franklin then on Gov. Lumpkin & got home at dusk. Many ladies called on me today, regret being absent Read in Genesis; Wednesday 3rd A bright day Miss F. Frierson called this morning. I called on Mrs Mitchell & her daughter (Emma), then on Mrs Barnard, then on Mrs J. Long, then called here & took Mrs Sneed to the Hotel. Called on Miss J. Reese, on Mrs Delony & home to dinner, after dinner called on Mrs Dent on Mrs Harris & her daughters on Mrs Y.L.G. Harris on Mrs Clancy & home at dusk. I have now paid all my calls that are too far to walk only Mr Brittain & Dr Liton's. I feel wearied but so happy to think Mrs Sneed is gone, she surely is a strange woman & a very selfish ungenerous penurious woman, like her less than any one I know, yet she is of good birth & been well raised. I think but for her Dr Sneed would do pretty well (but she must & will rub where ever she is) she has given me a lesson I shall never forget, Old as I am I did not think there was such a woman living; Read in Genesis; Thursday 4th A cool cloudy day; Mrs Frierson, Mrs E. Clayton, Miss E. Clancy & others called. I went to Mrs Bradford's at 8 oclock [sic] came home after ten spent the time very pleasantly, read in Genesis, many others called; 1866 18 Friday 5th A cold cloudy day. I was very anxious to go to the Episcopal Church this morning to see sixteen persons confirmed as I have never seen it, but it was too cold for me, then tonight as the wind was not so high I thought I would go & see it as there were ten more but the boys all went off so I could not go alone & have been at home & enjoyed it very much writing to Luckin Dougherty. Ed came in this morning all getting on pretty well at home. Mrs Frierson & her daughter & other ladies called. Read in Genesis. I do indeed feel sad to think the remainder of my life is to be spent in slavery, a slave to the yankees & then to have to work for my daily bread, but its all right & as it should be, for I do from my heart feel that all things work to­gether for good to them that love God & I hope I do I know I am but a poor lukwarm [sic] weak minded doubting Christian if a Christian at all but I do really feel that all things do work for good, more than that, I feel that whatever is, is right & what is to be will be; "Why art thou cast down O my soul? & why art thou disquieted in me? hope thou in God, for I shall yet praise him for the help of his countenance;" Saturday the 6th A cool fair day at least more sunshine than cloud; Mr Daniel & others called this morning. Mrs Nesbit & others this afternoon. Irwin came after supper & set untill [sic] bedtime; Read in Genesis; I feel pretty well tonight but cant do right. Bless me O my father & make me do ac­cording to thy will & keep me from every evil; Read a letter from Miss M.B. Anglin; Sunday 7th A cloudy day not so cool as yesterday. I went to the Baptist church this morning heard Mr Ivy a most excelent [sic] sermon from the woman who was a sinner & washed the Savior's feet with her tears & wiped them with her hair (have forgotten the chapter) then went after supper & heard him preach a better one I think from the five foolish virgins that neglected to take oil; two ladies & two gentlemen baptized this afternoon one of my boarders among them; Read in Genesis, heard Ed was sick & sent Stump down to stay with him hope he will soon be well; Monday 8th A cloudy day. Mrs Mayes & others called this morning. Miss H. Clancy & Miss M.A. Frierson dined here, Mr McClaran 1866 19 & Miss Thomas & others cal­led this afternoon. Mr Rembert (Castle Rembert & brother) called after supper. Read in Genesis, another trouble, the negro boy I hired last wore one of the young men's shirts yesterday, & we think stole a hat from them, had some trouble about it but did not get it, so dismissed him; O me when will all this trouble cease. Bless us O my father & grant us rest & peace; I called on Mrs D. Joe Carlton this afternoon. Tuesday 9th A rainy morning, a bright afternoon; Ed McM. came in this morning, Lieut Irwin & others called; I called on Mrs McQuerter & on Mrs McClusky this afternoon; Read in Genesis, wrote to Miss M.B. Anglin; I feel very unwell tonight have cold & cough considerably; all gone to church but me. I feel very quiet, so much bustle & stir all day that when I can be quiet its very pleasant; Wednesday 10th A rainy morning, cloud & sunshine all day; Lieut. Irwin called this morning to say goodby; several ladies called; I called on Mrs . Crane & Mrs Camache this afternoon; Read in Genesis, wrote & received several notes; Sunday 14th I went out home to Chalky Level Thursday morning & remained untill [sic] tonight. I called at Mr M. Thompson's as I went on (arrived at home at eleven) went in the garden & had some flowers taken up & cut for Mr Holman of Ky. & for Mrs Clayton of this place, had two gentlemen to dine with us was out again in the afternoon about the flowers Miss Emma Thompson spent the night with me. Friday morning I called on Mrs Graham & on Mrs Dean, came home at one oclock [sic], Mrs Yarborough & Miss Comuel spent the afternoon with me. Saturday I spent the morning & dined with Mrs J. Morton came home before 4 oclock [sic] I was at work with the flowers cutting & setting out & taking in my green house plants, the pit is not ready for them & they must be kept in the house untill [sic] I can put them up. I also fixed two pieces of cloth to weave I was busy all the time I was there, yet I enjoyed every thing even the fatigue of the flowers, had nice sweet milk & vegetables, then Ed was so kind & clever to me, he seems to be going on with the farm well & every thing seems to be doing well, last night he went from home & I was left alone the only time I was alone, the servant was asleep & I sat & though over former days of happiness & sorrow I shed my tears & as I was thinking of _________ it caused to lay awake untill [sic] 1866 20 late at night. I love to think over former days of happiness & indeed its sometimes a sad pleasure to think of my sorrows & troubles, for I have had many pleasures & many sorrows, I read in Genesis every day & one or two days in Psalms. I concluded this morning to go to Beaverdam to an association so sent up here for a dress & went, did not enjoy it much as I met with very few I knew. Come here from the church as the carriage & horses had to go home tonight. Stump went out with them, will remain some days. I fixed & sent up some boquettes [sic] to the boys they seemed to be very much pleased with them & very much obliged to me for them; I feel pleased to meet with them again & really feel I am needed here, my gracious I cant see what we are to do cant turn round without having something stolen I am almost worn out with watching free negroes. Monday 15th A fair day. Dr Sneed, Mrs Winstead & Miss called. Mrs Barnard took dinner with us; several called since dinner; I called on Mrs Frierson & Mrs Crawford this afternoon; Read in Genesis; Commenced a letter to R.L. Thomas. Received a note from Stump answered it; Tuesday 16th A cool fair day. Ed came this morning & left after dinner: I called on Mrs Vincent, on Mrs Benton, on Mrs Lumpkin, on Mrs Clarke; while I was absent Mrs Bradford, Mrs Clayton & others called here, after supper I spent an hour or two at Mr Clayton's very pleasantly. Read in Genesis. Wednesday 17th A fair day & quite cool. Mrs J. Hampton & others called this morning. Mrs Benton & two Misses Frierson this afternoon. Mrs E.P. Clayton came after dark &remained untill [sic] bedtime. Received a note from Stump answered it read in Exodus I have been & am now quite sick with cold. Thursday 18th A fair pleasant day; Mrs Winstead called this morning. I went with her to Col Hardeman's, spent a pleasant hour. Mrs W. dined with me; Just after dinner Ed & Mr Mobley came they staid untill [sic] after 4 oclock [sic] so I have not slept today, called on Mrs Pope & Miss Huggins this afternoon, wrote to Stump Received an answer. Read in Exodus. Friday 19th A fair day. Several called this morning. I called on Mrs, 1866 21 Stephens Thomas, on Mrs T. Cobb, on Mrs Hicks & on Mrs Adams came home about 12 oclock [sic]. Mrs Barret, Miss Ware & two Misses Frierson & Miss Clancy here this afternoon. I went to Col H.C. Billups after tea & remained untill [sic] near ten oclock [sic] have enjoyed the day very much indeed, feel so better of my cold but still cough. Read in Exodus; Saturday 20th A fair day. Ed came in this morning. The young were all went out & spent the day but Mr Worthen, he seem [sic] to have enjoyed this day very much indeed, all come back before sundown I think I never saw five better boys all sober steady boys, Col J. Billups, Mr T.M. Daniel two Misses Frierson & others called this morning. Mrs Bradford, Mrs King & several young ladies called this afternoon, & after supper about 12 or 15 ladies & as many gentlemen came in & set [sic] untill [sic] 10 oclock [sic] seemed to enjoy the evening very much. Mr Hugh Saxon & Mr A. Crawford also came after supper & spent on hour or so. Mr Saxon is I think the best violinist I ever heard; Read in Exodus I regret exceedingly that Stump was not here; Sunday 21st A cloudy day very little sun; I went to the Baptist church heard Mr Ivy preach a good & instructive sermon from the 24th 25th & 26th verses of the 11 chapter of Luke; I wanted to go to the River to see Mrs Ivy baptized but was too unwell to walk there, & afraid to stand on the wet ground. I started to see Mrs Crane this afternoon as I heard her husband died yesterday in Atlanta; but called at Mrs Clarke's heard she was so nervous the phisician [sic] was not willing for her to receive company; so came home; Read in Exodus. Received a note from Stump wrote to him; my cold is very little better & my throat now sore; do hope I will be well in the morning & that I will be prudent & careful & keep well: Monday 22nd I was quite sick this morning & should not have set up, but it being Mr Rembert's birthday I concluded to have a nice dinner, & sent for Mr & Mrs Ivy, they came after 12 oclock [sic] & dined with us. I was so unwell I had lay down before dinner, then again after dinner, & after they left I went to bed & slept untill [sic] sundown felt much better when I got up & spent two hours at Mrs Clayton's after supper. Still feel very unwell. Read in Exodus, wrote to Stump have not seen him for eight days, little wretch think he might come up & see how I get on. The boys all seemed pleased with my dinner today & of course I was. 1866 22 Tuesday 23rd A fair windy day & quite cool; Miss L. Hodgson Miss L & M.A. Frierson & others called this morning. Mrs Grady Mrs Nickolson & Miss Shaw this afternoon. I went shopping this afternoon the first time I have been in a store or shop in more than two months; Stump came in this morning so glad to see him its been 9 days since he left me: Read in Exodus, wrote to Stump & Ed; Wednesday 24th A fair cool day & now I think quite cold, fear we will have a severe frost tonight & fear the boys will not think to take in my oranges & lemons & if they donot I am sure the fruit will fall off; but I cant be every where at one time. Bless us & protect us O my father & make us thankful for every good we enjoy & every evil we escape; Mr Hagues from Augusta came up tonight have been expecting him some weeks think him a good looking young man seems pleasant & agreeable. I am truly thankful that I have as many as I have, hope I may yet fill another room & some that will remain all winter. Read in Exodus; Ed came up this morning, all well at home. I called on Mrs Clark this morning & on Mrs Crane, & since supper called on Mrs Clark again; Mrs H.C. Billups & Miss Frierson here this afternoon; Thursday 25th A fair day & quite cold for the season, a white frost this morning think every thing is injured the cotton will not grow any more. Miss Maggie Adams, Miss M.A. Frierson, Miss M.A. Rutherford, Miss ____ & others called this morning. Miss E. Mitchell & Miss L. Thomas this afternoon; I went shopping this morning & called to see Dr Moon & his bride & Mrs Harris & Nesbit, then took supper with Mrs Mr Bradford come [sic] home at ten oclock [sic], have spent the day very pleasantly & still been very unwell, think I take fresh cold every day; Read in Exodus, wrote to Miss E. Thompson, to Mrs Graham, to Mrs Dean & to Mrs Morton also to Ed, received a note from Ed. Friday 26th A cloudy day. Miss A. Billups, Mrs F. Barnard, Mrs Brumby & her daughter & others called. Miss Lou Frierson Rough & myself went to Mr E. Hodgson's, then Mrs Hodgson & myself called on old Mrs Hodgson, so I have spent a very pleasant 1866 23 day & evening, though I have been quite unwell all day, cant rest day or night for coughing & have some headache, wrote a note to Ed, received one from him, read one Psalm; Saturday 27th A fair day not so cold or so windy as the three past days, but pretty weather for the season; Ed came in this morning all well at home but another fuss with the negroes. God bless the poor creatures I do wish they were better off; Read in Exodus. I have been quite sick all day, in bed nearly all the time; Sent for Lou Frierson this morning, she came & staid [sic] untill [sic] sundown, she is a good girl & so kind to everyone; the whole family are kind & obliging; Mrs Winstead, Mrs Wilson & her daughter & Col Hardeman called to see me; I told Ed to send Stump up & feel very much disappointed that he has not come, its so bad to be all alone when I am sick, no one to be in the room or even to call a servant when I want one & then if I were at home & had all my own servants around me as I think I ought to be & have; I could get on so much better sick or well, but God knows best I have not really suffered yet, but have lived very different to what I was accustomed to; "O for a heart submissive meek, My dear Redeemer's throne, Where only Christ is heard to speak, And Jesus reigns alone;" Sunday 28th A fair morning, cloudy afternoon sprinkled of rain since dark, Mrs Frierson & Lou, & Mrs Nesbit called; I have been in bed nearly all day again but feel better tonight; Read in Exodus. Stump come just before dinner so I can rest more; I have been alone for two days, & have thought of my affairs & it makes me feel so very sad to think of my troubles & trials. O my father help me through all my difficulties, grant that I may get through. soon; Monday 29th A rainy day, had one hard rain; Miss F. Frierson here this afternoon. Read in Exodus, wrote several notes; I have been up all day & having things straightened as every thing was out of gear & feel fatigued tonight, but much better than I did yesterday; Tuesday 30th A fair cold windy day; Col J. Billups & others called this morning. Mrs Vetch & Mrs Bradford this afternoon, & Mrs Frierson took supper & set till bedtime; I have been up all day but not well, still cough, cant get over a cold. Read in Exodus. Bless me O my father & grant me every good & keep me from evil; Wednesday 31st A fair cold day & considerable wind. Mr M. Davis 1866 24 & Miss E. Thompson came this morning Just as we were setting [sic] down to breakfast, both dined with us, Miss Thompson left about sundown, Mr D. still here; Dr Moon & his bride called this afternoon seemed very pleasant. I do indeed hope they may enjoy long life & continued happiness for I am sure I love & respect Dr Moon as much as any one. Read in Exodus l feel much better but still not well; November 1st A fair cool day, more pleasant than the two last days. Several called. Read in Exodus. I feel better but still very unwell; Friday 2nd A fair day more pleasant & less wind today; I called to see Mrs Scudder & Mrs Mayes this morning; Miss L. Frierson & Mrs Barnard called during my absence; Mrs B. came again just as we finished dinner. Miss Frierson, Miss L. Crawford & others this afternoon; soon after supper Mrs H.C. Billups & Miss A. Billups called & spent half an hour, after they left Mrs Clancy, her two daughters, Miss M.A. Frierson & Miss E. Hutcherson & about twenty gentlemen came & left at eleven oclock [sic], so I feel wearied as I am not well & feeble; Read in Exodus. Saturday 3rd A fair day & very pleasant. Several ladies & gentlemen called. Mrs H.C. Billups called this afternoon & took me to ride I enjoyed it very much being the first ride I have had since I lived here. After supper I walked down to Gov. Frierson's & set [sic] till half after nine oclock [sic]. Read in Exodus. Stump & Mr McLarran went out home this morning. Mr Wortham & myself went to the Baptist church this morning hear Mr Ivy. Sunday 4th A fair warm day: I went to the Baptist church heard Mr Ivy preach a most excelent [sic] sermon, Rather a doctrinal sermon, from the 6th verse of the 1st chapter of Philippians, went home with Mrs H. L. Brittian dined & spent the afternoon came home about four oclock. Mrs B. sent me home in her carriage. I feel under obligations to her, as I could not walk there after supper I went to the Methodist church hear Dr Pierce preach a good & instructive sermon from the 17th verse of the 13 chapter of Hebrews, exhorting the church to obey & be subject to the pastor, recommending work to be engaged all the time in the service of God. 1866 25 Received a note from Ed, was disappointed that Stump did not come up this evening. Read in Exodus wrote a note to Ed; have enjoyed the day very much indeed particularly the sermons; Monday 5th A cloudy day, cool & windy. Stump come up this morning but as Col Hardeman was not at home I sent him back to help Ed about the crop. Ed came up at night several called during the day; Peyton Moon & his daughter (Kate) called after supper; wrote a note to Ed & Stump. Read in Exodus; Tuesday 6th A fair cold day. I think last night was the coldest night we have had & this the coldest morning Col J. Billups & others called this morning. Mrs Pope here this afternoon. Mr McLarran spent an hour or so after supper he & myself played four games of Backgamon [sic]. I only winning one game. Read in Exodus, wrote to Stump; feel very sad tonight & undecided, make up my mind whether its best to remain here or go to the farm I rather think I can make something here next year but fear I shall lose more there than I will make here. Bless me O my father & direct me for I am poor & needy a poor weak creature dont know what is best, & have no one to help me plan. Be pleased to guide me & help me, & grant that I may feel that all things work together for good to them that love thee; my head says so, but this hard rebell­ious heart, "Search me &know my heart, try me & know my thoughts," Wednesday 7th A fair cool day but not so much wind so more pleasant. Stump came up this morning only staid an hour or so, all well out there & getting on better; several gentlemen called, Mr Haynes left this afternoon, said the tele­graph operater [sic] had left & he being in charge of the office had to be there all the time, so left here; Read in Leviticus wrote & received several notes, called on Mrs Goulding & Misses Crawford this afternoon; & after supper set two hours with Mrs H. C. Billups. I have spent the day pleasantly but some very unpleasant things have occured [sic] to distress me. O that I could do better, be better, & feel better, Bless me O my father & grant me relief once more there has been with me in six troubles donot forsake me in vain[?] 1866 26 Thursday 8th A fair beautiful day, ice this morning but a pleasant day, Stump came in early, he & Col J. Billups went to see Col Hardeman about renting this house they could not agree. Col Hardeman came here this afternoon & we still came to no conclusion; I will not give 400.00 for it, & Sometimes I think it would be best for me to go home any how I fear I'm losing more there than I shall make here; called on Mrs Vetch she went with me to see Mrs J. Turner & Mrs Ware; after supper Mrs Frierson &myself called on Mrs Childs & Mrs Nickolson; came home after nine oclock [sic], wrote to Ed & Stump twice. I have spent the day pleasantly but still very sad. I say & do so many things I should not. Bless & protect me O my father & keep me from every evil. Read in Leviticus; Friday 9th A fair day & pleasant, but I have been quite unwell all day, so have not enjoyed the pleasant day. Miss M. Huggins & Miss M.A. McClusky cal­led this Miss M.A. Frierson & others here during the day. Read in Leviticus wrote & received several notes, after or about eight oclock [sic] Mr Warthen Mr Cohen, Mr W. Hill & myself went to Judge Hutcherson's. I left half after ten & left the party enjoying themselves very much. I feel as well as I did when I left home but quite unwell; Saturday 10th A fair pleasant day. Ed came up before breakfast all well down there. Miss Lizzie Hodgson & others called. Last night about 2 oclock [sic] we were alarmed but the ringing of bells & hollering quite a stir. Mr Chum store was burnt he saved very little I was up & feeling very bad untill [sic] they thought the danger was over many persons ladies & gentlemen were there I did not go or dress but sit up & think it made my cold worse, cough more today than I have for several days. Read in Leviticus; Mr Haynes & Mr Jones dined with us; Sunday 11th A rainy day, rained some early this morning & commenced hard raining about 12 oclock [sic] & still raining very steady at 10 oclock [sic] P.M.; Stump came up &dined with us, 1866 27 left when I was asleep in a hard rain; Miss Lou Frierson called in from church as it was raining so hard & Mrs Hoover sent for her about 5 oclock [sic] that she was very sick, hope not dangerous, heard today of the death of Madam Govain a french [sic] woman I have known many years. She surely was the oldest person I know, also of the death of Mrs L.K.L. Jennings of Lexington, a Baptist preacher's wife; Read in Leviticus; I could not go to church as it sprinkled several times before ten oclock [sic]; Monday 12th A fair cool day, & now quite cold; Mr McLaran, Mrs Frierson, Miss Frierson, Col Billups & others called during the day; wrote a note to Stump. I have felt better today but not well; thought of going from home tonight but its too cold for me to be out; Read in Leviticus; Tuesday 13th A fair morning, a cloudy afternoon. Stump came this morning & left after dinner. Mrs McDonough & Mrs Dawson here this morning. Miss L. Frierson, Mrs Ware, Mrs Bacon, J. Thompson & others here this after­noon; Read in Leviticus; I feel better but still cough, do hope I shall improve in health & behavior for I do so many things every day that I regret; Wednesday 14th A cold cloudy day. Castles Rembert left this morning I felt grieved to see him leave, he was the life of the house so cheerful & gay; & then he should have remained in school, poor boy he has been spoilt; Ed came up this morning all well there & I hope getting on better; Mrs Bacon, Miss Sparks & two Misses Frierson called; Read in Leviticus; this is Mr Greer's birthday have thought of it so often during the day, so many nice dinners I have prepared for this day; & so often had company; But every thing must pass away & change, it seems to me I have lived two or three generations, surely no one person could see & feel more than I have; Bless me & mine O my father & grant me a good &perfect heart let me feel thy will be done; Thursday 15th A rainy morning, a cold fair afternoon. Ed came in this morning, Dr Moore & others called. Read in Numbers, wrote several notes, cant see why Dick dont write, have rather expected him to come, but he dont come or write, well let it be, I will try to be satisfied any & every way, my days of peace are over, never expect any more pleasure; 1866 28 Friday 16th A fair day. Col J. Billups, Miss F. Harris, Miss Bell Hardeman, Miss M. & L. Frierson, Mr Noble & his wife & others called; Read in Numbers; wrote & received several notes. Went to the fair at the Town Hall tonight, went to the of Miss Harris & Miss Hardeman & told fortunes & sold some cakes for them; enjoyed it very much; feel wearied. Saturday 17th A fair day & not so cold as yesterday. Miss Scudder, Miss Lucas, Miss White, Mrs Frierson & her daughters & Miss Long here this morning. several called this afternoon. Read in Numbers, received a note from Ed answered it; I went to Mrs Bradford's since supper came home about ten oclock [sic]. Sunday 18th A cloudy day & warmer, went to the Baptist church heard Dr Lipscomb preach a most excelent [sic] sermon from the 7th verse of the 12th chapter of second Corinthians, went to see Mrs Savage about 5 oclock [sic], came home to supper & went to the Presbyterian church after supper heard Mr Burkhead preach from "Search the scriptures for in them ye think ye have eternal life & they are they which testify of me;" think it the best sermon I have heard him preach. Read in Psalms ; I feel better today but not well. Monday 19th A rainy day. Stump came soon after breakfast and left after 4 oclock [sic]. I don't know what to do, I fear they are not getting on as they should out there. I heard so much tonight about it I feel very unhappy it seems to me I have more to encounter with then any poor old woman in the world. Bless me O my father & watch over, protect & direct me, "Why art thou cast down O my soul & why art thou disquited [sic] within me trust thou in God, 11 O that I could trust implicitly in thee, that I could take as thought or care, but trust. Ms. Daniel & others called. Read in Numbers wrote a long note is perhaps directions for Stump to take home for him & Ed for they can't manage without me it seems, sometimes I think of going home then again I think if I remain here Stump will feel to be head of the farm & will learn more, then again I think it would be better for me to be there. 1866 29 Tuesday 20th A fair, cool, windy day. Stump came up this morning left after dinner. I called on Mrs Dr Holt, Miss Huggins & Mrs Pope after five oclock [sic]; then after supper spent about two hours with Mrs Frierson, Miss M.A. Frierson came home with me, I wrote a note or directions for Ed & Stump given it to Stump to take home he lost it & sent up just at night for me to write it again. So had to write all over again or as near as I could remember. Read in Numbers. I am trying to decide whether I will remain in Athens or go home. Rather think it will be best to go home again; Wednesday 21st A fair cold day; Stump & Ed came up this morning both seeming very happy & lively & all things going on well at home, so I feel better than I have for some days, slept soundly & sweetly this afternoon; do hope all things will now work well here & at home but I have not heard from Col Hardeman yet, so dont know whether I will take this house another year; wish I did know; wrote to Stump, Read in Numbers; Mr Daniel & other gentlemen called; Thursday 22nd A fair cold windy day. Dr Moore, Mss. Franklin, Mrs Frierson, Mrs Nesbit, two Misses Clancy & others called this morning. Received a note from Ed & Stump answered it, wrote to Mr W. Dougherty. Read in Numbers; this was the day appointed by the Gov. as fast day, then preaching in our church only. I did not go & did not fast, I have been very much distressed the last few days & felt very unlike going anywhere. My troubles increase daily. Bless us O my Father & grant us good & perfect hearts let us not wander or transgress, make us to know & do thy will. Friday 23rd A fair cold day; Mrs J. Thomas & several little girls & Miss Spaks here today . Received & wrote several notes. Read in Numbers; Col Hardeman called to see me about the house I feel very much like remaining here another year; feel better satisfied today but may be cast down tomorrow poor me so many many t rials & troubles to encounter; "O for a heart to praise my God, A heart from Sin set free, A heart that's sprinkled with the blood So Freely shed from me;" 1866 30 Saturday 24th A fair cold day. Several ladies & gentlemen called today. After supper Mrs E.P. Clayton her little son round for me. I went & returned after ten oclock [sic]. Ed called there to see me he is quite unwell & said he would call & see the Doctor, Read one Psalm; Sunday 25th A fair cold day & some wind; Stump come up this morning & said he would only remain a short time so I had so much to talk to him about I concluded to remain at home, we talked until dinner was ready, we then heard James McClusky was to preach in the Methodist Church tonight, he is a young man has been a wild disipated [sic] young man & a school mate of Stump's he therefore determined to remain & hear him tonight. I was anxious to go but Stump thought it too cold for me. Read in Numbers, wrote to Mrs C.E. Copper; Mrs Frierson & others called; Monday 26th Stump left this morning, its been cloudy & cold all day. Several ladies & gentlemen called. Wrote & received several notes; Read in Numbers; I went over to Mr Mayes' after supper & set untill [sic] after ten oclock [sic]; spent the time very pleasantly; like that in living in town find to so very pleasant to visit & receive company after dark. Tuesday 27th A cloudy day not so cold as yesterday, I was quite sick last night & didn't get up until after breakfast, but have felt pretty well all day. Col J. Billups called this morning before he left. Miss V. & Miss E. Tuck called, they formerly lived in my neighborhood. I felt pleased to see them, Ed came soon after dinner so I had to talk to him & did not lay down until 3 oclock [sic]. Then just as I lay down Mr Ivy came, so I have not slept or rested today & felt fati­gued. I received or Stump did and I broke the seal, a letter from Tom Frierson saying he would take my mother's place for next year. I have sent for his father to come up & see me tonight as he sends a message to him; so must sit up until he comes. Read in Numbers. Received a letter from Miss L. E. Frierson, made a cake this afternoon, ice it since supper but don't like the icing do hope it will look better in the morning I feel some better reconciled tonight hope I sleep better & do hope everything will be right, for I am sure I have my share of troubles and trials. Wednesday 28th A rainy day. Miss M.A. Frierson and Ed here today. Read in 1866 31 Deuteronomy. I have been quite unwell all day & have considerable headache now, tried to ice a cake yesterday & today but failed both times in making the icing can't see how it is suppose its been so long since I made any I have for­gotten how, feel very much disappointed, wanted to make it very pretty, but like everything of late I am unfortunate. But I must not look back, but forward, we can't control or enjoy the present, No man can the future, only the past is ours we can look back & enjoy past pleasures even past sorrows & misfortunes are sad pleasures sober realities & we often enjoy the past more than the bright anticipations of the future. Wrote several notes & a letter to Miss T.E. Frier­son. Thursday 29th A rainy day. Mrs Frierson here this morning, Ed here this afternoon all getting on well at home, I feel better about out there. I tried again today & succeeded in making icing, feel wearied from standing so-much & bending over the cake but better satisfied. Read in Deuteronomy, wrote & received several notes. Bless us O my father & grant us every good, O that I could only get through with all my difficulties; yet I have never really suffered, & many many poor creatures are now suffering for bread, I know I have & have had many trials and troubles to encounter, still I must admit that I have had more good than evil, & so much more good than I deserve; & more good than many others: often ask: "Are these thy mercies day by day To me above the rest? Then let me love thou more than they, And try to serve thee best;" Friday 30th A fair day, cold & windy. Stump come up this morning & left after 3 oclock [sic]: everything seems to be getting on pretty well out there. Miss E. Thompson, Miss M.A. Frierson & Miss Sparks here this morning: Mrs L. Thomas here this afternoon; I spent an hour at Gov . Frierson's this afternoon & sit untill [sic] after ten oclock [sic] at Col Hardeman's. Read in Deuteronomy; feel unwell tonight; Saturday December the 1st A cold fair day; Ed came in this morning. Mr T.M. Daniel & others called this morning; Miss L. Brittian & Miss L. Frierson here this afternoon; I have had the headache all day & feel wearied & distressed. I spent over four hundred dollars for provisions to make a crop this year. I have sold all the cotton I made 63.00 then had to pay the labourers, so I have lost fully five hundred dollars this year on my farm. I came here 1866 32 to try to make a support, have more than paid for the provisions I bought but had to buy a stove, crockery & glass ware & some bed clothes so cannot come out even here, & what am I to do, I have & do, do my best to do right & to make a support & yet I can't, it seems to me there is no help for me I must suffer. Bless me O my father & help me, O that I could see some chance to sell my land in & around Brunswick, then I could get even with the world & if I were only even did not owe a cent to any one, I would be so happy. I have so often prayed to be out of debt, & thought of every plan I could to make money but it seems to be a poor lonely old woman can do but little towards making a fortune & yet I do try to be reconciled to my lot, "all things do work together for good to them that love God;" & I do hope I love & fear him as I ought, but my heart is so vile so rebellious that I often fear I think too much of my troubles, & trust too little. O that I could trust always, never try to think for myself but leave all with God, for I do know he cares for me; wrote several notes, Read in Deuteronomy. Sunday 2nd A fair cold day. Mrs Frierson & her children called this morning; I went to the Baptist Church heard Mr Ivy preach from, "This do in Remembrance of me;" I did not enjoy the sermon, some gentlemen raised the window sash & it caused the wind to blow on me making me very cold; I met Lieut. Irwin there, he called on me soon after dinner & I forgot to ask him to eat some cake & wine, regret it exceedingly; Mr Warthen is intending leaving in a day or two indeed expected to leave tomorrow. So I had a nice dinner today & eleven young gentlemen dined here. I called on Mrs Crane this afternoon as she is sick & in trouble, found her up & quite cheer­ful. Read in Deuteronomy; wrote a note to Stump, was anxious for him to be here today, but he has not. O my troubles it seems to me I have more to en­counter with than any one I know. Monday 3rd A cloudy morning, rainy afternoon. I called to see Ms. Ivy this morning found her able to be up & at work, Mrs . C. Lysle called here this morning. Wrote and read several notes, received a letter from Mrs T.E. Lessions, she thinks her mother has a cancer. I feel grieved to 1866 33 to ["to" is repeated] hear it. Commenced a letter to her; Rec'd one from Mr W Dougherty; his letter about my land in the low country homeport favorable some not so, I feel very much disappointed at some part of his information, but like anything else I must learn to submit, to bear and forbear, O that I could only sell enough of that land to get out of debt, and surely its not wrong to pray to get out of debt that must be honest and right Bless us O, my father & grant us every good thou sees we need, Read in Deuteronomy; Tuesday 4th A fair day, not cold, Mrs Frierson dined here, Mrs Savage here this afternoon, Ed and other gentlemen here during the day; all well at home & I hope doing pretty well; I spent an hour or so at Mrs Bradford's since supper very pleasantly, Rec'd a letter from Rough, wrote one to Mrs L. E. Sessions, read in Deuteronomy; Wednesday 5th A fair day, Stump came up this morning and no one came in, I had a very pleasant morning with his; Mrs H. C. Billups, Miss L Frierson and Mrs Heylyear called this afternoon, Read in Deuternomy, I feel better as to health today that I have, but still very much depressed Bless me oh my father & teach me submission; Thursday 6th A cloudy day often sprinkled or rather a mist during the day, wrote a letter to Miss E. Bradford & sent her an [ ? ] I composed on her name, wrote and rec'd other notes; called on Mrs T. Lumpkin, Mrs Brown, Mrs Hearden & Mrs Adams, this morning, Miss M.A. Frierson and Miss : Sparks here this afternoon, Read in Deuteronomy Friday 7th A cloudy day, Mrs Vetch & Mrs H. C. Billups called this morning to see the Show company pass, Stump came soon after they did & we all went downtown and saw the horses, the chariot, the band wagon the lion sitting on the waggon [sic] by the keeper & the ladies and gentlemen in fall dress; I think every man nearly in town & surely every negro and child went, but very few grown ladies, as I hear, did not attend myself, but Really wanted to go to see the feats of activity, the good horsemanship & hear the music, but would not as no others or but few of my acquaintances went, I don't look on it as some do, I think we must all young & old have some amusement, & really we are so much oppressed, have so much trouble, are so badly treated by the yankees that if we could spend one hour & have a hearty laugh I do think it would help us; J. Thompson, & W. Dean dined & took supper with us, Capt Dean & Miss M. A. and L. Frierson called; read in Deuteronomy; O, that I could only see some way to get through with my difficulties, but not my will, let thine be done; 1866 34 Saturday 8th A beautiful fair day; Col J. Billups & W.H. Morton here this morning while at dinner Mrs Vetch & Mrs Bradford called & Ed here this afternoon. Miss L. Frierson came about sundown & left after nine oclock [sic]. Read in Deuteronomy. I feel very sad indeed tonight fear I will not collect the money expected to next week & if I dont what am I to do? O my father help me to do right & support & comfort me; Sunday 9th A fair cold day & too much wind to be pleasant; went to the Baptist church hear Mr Ivy preach a most excellent sermon seldom ever heard a better, from "Grow in grace & in the knowledge of our Lord, Jesus Christ" I wanted to go to see a sick neighbour [sic] but it was so cold I was afraid to turn out, & too cold again tonight for me; Read in Deuteronomy, wrote a note to Stump & commenced a letter to Rough. Mrs Frierson, Mrs Franklin & other ladies called during the day; Monday 10th A fair day, cold & windy_by far the coldest day we have had. Ed came up this morning all well at home & the hogs all killed, hope they salted them up tonight, Mrs Stanly here this afternoon, read in Deuteronomy. Just finished my letter to Rough; & wrote several notes, I still feel very sad, some­times unhappy; but do hope God will bless me & help me through this great & heavy trial. Tuesday 11th A fair cool day not so much wind as yesterday but very cold; Ed came in this morning left after dinner. Mrs Frierson, Miss Lou & Miss Florence Frierson & Miss Gilleard here. Florence here tonight. Read in Deuteronomy. Wednesday 12th A cold windy day; Stump came in early this morning. Miss Scudder & Miss Lucas were here when he came. I have been trying all the week to go to Mrs Franklin's, & was ready to start when they came, it was so cold I was disposed to give it out, but as he was here there in the buggie & come for me again in the afternoon I determined to go. It was so very cold, but I am glad its over & hope it will not make me sick after I came home I called on Mrs Gus King, Mrs D. Smith & Mrs Sarmy, only found Mrs Childs at home. Read in Deuteronomy. I do indeed feel sad, Mrs Franklin and her daughter are doing all their own work, its really a shame to think to what the southern people are reduced I don't know what on earth I am to do. O my father help me once more help me. 1866 35 Thursday 13th A cold day but more pleasant than the last five days. Ed came in this morning. Mr D. Linton called this afternoon, & since dark we had a very interesting prayer meeting here; about twenty persons; read in Deuteronomy, I have been very sick all day, I have not sat up untill [sic] dark took a cup of tea & felt well enough to set [sic] up untill [sic] bed time But still quite unwell and feeble, have not eat [sic] anything today & suffered severely all day; hope I will be well tomorrow; Friday 14th A cloudy day and not so cold; Mrs Franklin and others called during the day, after night Miss Huthcherson, Miss Frierson & Miss Sparks, came and sit [sic] till eleven oclock [sic], Some 6 or 8 young gentlemen were also here, its now raining; Stump came up tonight will not leave until tomorrow, wrote to Mr J. B. Warthen read in Deuteronomy, If my first child had lived she would have been forty years old today; but providence has willed that I should have but two left of fifteen, my fourth child a son has three children one 13 years old, Saturday 15th A cold day, high winds all day and sleeting occasionally through the day, think it still colder tonight & the wind higher Mr [?] & Mr W. Hill left this morning, I did indeed regret their departure I have enjoyed their company very much & think they have spent this time pleasantly here; Mr T. Hill went out with Stump this morning, came in this afternoon, Stump and Ed came in with him & spent an hour or so, Mr Hill is now out making a call, so I have been alone all day, rec'd a letter from Rough, he is not at all pleasant, sorry to think he is dissatisfied, Read in Deuteronomy; Sunday 16th A rainy day, everything covered with sleet this morning & commenced melting before twelve, though it has been raining and snowing often through the day; clear and the wind very high & still very cold, I do miss the barometer so much, have been accustomed to it so long, if I were only able to get one but no use grieving I shall never be able to live as I have Read in Joshua; Mr T. A. Hill did not return last night so I have been entirely alone untill [sic] near sundown, [ ? ] came in and said he has decided to remain untill [sic] Wednesday Monday 17th A fair cold day, the ice not entirely melted but the streets very wet and unpleasant, Mrs Frierson, Miss L. Frierson & Mr J. Hayes [Keyes] here this morning; Several called this afternoon; 1866 36 I spent an hour or so with Mrs Bradford this afternoon very pleasantly always enjoy a visit to her & Ella very much indeed, called to see Col Hardeman & agreed to take this house another year, Really do not know whether it's right or wrong but I must do something to support myself; Ed came up tonight to stay all with me thinking I was alone, but as Mr T. Hill did not leave this evening he went home after supper, I think him very much for his kindness toward me, indeed I do thank all my friends for attention attention for I am not worthy of so much kindness. Read in Joshua; Received a note from Col Hardeman. Tuesday 18th A cold cloudy day; Ed came up early this morning left before twelve oclock [sic], several called. L. McClusky dined with us; Read in Joshua; wrote to Miss M. Huggins; Mr T. Hill is not at home tonight. I am alone & another new trouble, I sent for meal & salt, (half bushel of meal & 25 cts worth of salt.) & the boy came back without it, said Mr Turner said he did not have it, the boy may have gone to the wrong store but if he went to the right one, its the first time I was ever refused credit for anything in my life, the clerk came round this afternoon with his bill I told him he need not even trouble to call for I would send it just as soon as I got it & as I got it. Surely, surely my troubles will never end, what can be the next. I have now it seems to me gone through everything I can nearly. Surely my cup is now full, Bless us 0 my father and grant me some help only help me through this one more difficulty ­& bless me. Just as I wrote the above Miss Matthew Huggins came over & set [sic] until bedtime. I enjoyed it very much indeed, hope she did & that she will come over often. Wednesday 19th A cloudy day. Mr T.H. Daniel, Miss Frierson, & Miss E. Hutcherson called this morning. Mrs J.C. Billups, Mrs L. Wray, Mrs Ware & L. Frierson called this afternoon. Stump & Miss A.E. Potter came at night, & Mr & Mrs A. Crawford set with us until bedtime. I have had the headache all day & now very severe, fear I shall be in bed all day tomorrow. Read one Psalm. My head aches so I can't write. Mr T. Hill left this morning, I regret his departure. I do indeed love all the boys & miss them very much indeed, & feel sure they respect me. 1866 37 Thursday 20th A pretty fair day. Miss E. Mitchell, Mr Daniel & others called this morning. Mrs Savage, Mrs ___, Col J. Billups, Ed, & others called this afternoon. I went to Judge Heglyer's after supper to a prayer meeting, came home about 8 oclock [sic]. Read one chapter in Proverbs. I have not been well today but much better than yesterday. My mother would have been 75 years old today. Friday 21st A fair cold, windy day. Miss Rutherford & Miss E. & Miss K. Hilyer called this morning. Miss M. & Miss L. Frierson & Miss N. Vincent this afternoon; Ed was here today & we concluded to go home tomorrow & stay a few days & have some Christmas out there. Read one Psalm. I feel better but very sad. Saturday 22nd A cold cloudy day. The rockaway came in early this morning. Miss Pottle, Stump & myself came out to dinner, as usual I had to cry several times during day; I do indeed love the place & everything about it, & do wish I could come home & stay all the time, perhaps it would be best but I have not made any thing so far & feel like I will have more boarders & do better next year; & then we have not enough to live on here another year & nothing to buy it with & perhaps I can at least make enough to live on but no place will ever be half so dear to me as this. Read one Psalm; Received a letter from Miss M.B. Anglin, wrote to Miss M. Frierson Bless me O my father & grant that I may live to get through with all my difficulties & come home & live many many happy years here; Stump, Miss Pottle, & myself went up to Mr Thompson's at eight oclock [sic] & came home at ten, had quite a pleasant visit; Sunday 23rd A cloudy day, commenced raining about 10 oclock [sic] at night; now eleven; no one has called here today, something very uncommon; Read in Joshua; yesterday as I come [sic] home I droped [sic] my watch key, was regretting it, & after supper Miss Pottle missed her earring, in looking for the ring we found the key, I then lost my cuff pin & in looking for that we found the ring, Miss P. then lost her net & in looking for that we found the pin; so we have had some amusement today; & consider it rather singular; I have been thinking tonight of giving up the town house & coming home, I think I can do so much to help Stump here, & live more quietly, but fear I will not be so well satisfied as I have been. 1866 38 Monday 24th A fair pleasant day; Rained some last night. Mr J. Morton, R. Dougherty & others called during the day. Mr Morton dined here Read in Joshua; Miss Pottle, Ed, Stump & myself went to Capt Dean's after supper & returned about eleven oclock [sic]; spent the time very pleasantly & had an egg-nog; Tuesday 25th A fair day. W.H. Morton & others called; Read one Psalm; wrote a note to Col Hardeman & one to Miss M.A. Frierson, the boys concluded to have a dance or play or both here tonight, went round & invited the young people 44 gentlemen came but no ladies; so quite a disappointment; they left about eleven oclock, its now one & quite cool & clear. I have had several little presents today, all from Ed; many thanks for his kindness its a rare thing for me to get a present so of course I prize them very highly; Wednesday 26th A cloudy day, commenced raining before dark & rained untill [sic] after ten oclock [sic], several called during the day. Stump, Miss Pottle & myself went to Mr R. Baily's after supper came home at eleven oclock, had an egg-nog & spent the evening rather pleasantly only uneasy about Ed, he went to town this afternoon & has not yet returned fear something is the matter as he had a fuss there this morning; Read in Joshua, wrote a note to Mrs Bradford; Thursday 27th A fair cold windy day; Parks & Henry Morton, W. Dean & others called during the day; Stump went to town this morning & give up the house to Col Hardeman; so I am now compelled to stay here; Stump went to Dr Morton's tonight to see if they needed him to set up as they heard he had a fight & was very badly hurt; Read one Psalm; Friday 28th A cloudy cold day; Jake Fesler called twice. Stump came home about eleven oclock [sic] says Dr Macon is much better does not apprehend any danger; Read in Joshua; Recieved [sic] a note from Miss Lou Frierson regretting my absence & leaving Athens next year; I do indeed feel sad when I think of leaving my friends there & staying here next year all alone. I fear I shall do badly but I dont know what is best & no one to help me, bless me O my father & direct me; 1866 39 Saturday 29th A cold day, snowing all day, suppose its two inches deep, pretty soft snow; G. Moore & Mr Biggers here this afternoon with the negro that whistles like a mocking bird; Read in Joshua; I feel very sad today, Stump, Miss Pottle & Ed been frollicking [sic] all day, but I feel very little like it. O to [sic] much to trouble & distress me. Bless me O my father & grant me every good. Sunday 30th A cold cloudy day, snowing often during the day. Some of the largest flakes I ever saw fall; suppose its now 3 or 4 inches; still cloudy & cold. W.H. Morton here this morning. Read several Psalms. Ed came home this morning about ten oclock [sic] with his head & face cut & bruised, thinks a negro threw a brick bat at him & shot him. I hope its not very bad & will be well in a few days. Monday 31st A cloudy day, snowed some this morning, & now looks like it. Several called, Ms. Bone set with us till nine oclock. Read in Joshua. This is my birthday 56 years old today, & surely I never have had half so much trouble in one year as I have the last, it seems to me I never shall see any more happi­ness or even peace again as long as I live, yet its all right, I have had many trials & troubles but I have had many pleasures, my hours & even days of happi­ness should be remembered, for I have had more good than evil & I do indeed thank God for the many blessings I have enjoyed, for when I think I have been spared to see this day, while so many younger & better have been taken I know I am thankful, & then my children have been spared to me while so many were taken during the war; yet mine are with me; & then I do hope I have many friends, so many more than I deserve, for I am a poor ignorant old woman & not able to help anyone, & really fear I shall suffer another year yet I feel willing to trust, "all things do in­deed work together for good to them that love God," But I sometimes fear I am too sinfu1 to claim a promise, Bless me O my father & forgive me all my sins & transgressions. 1867 40 January 1st Another cloudy day but I think no rain or snow. Mr J. Fes­ler and Mr Bone here. Read one Psalm, have not done a stitch of work, can't remember ever to have passed a new year's day so before if I were able to work, & now with the beginning of the year I begin another year of my life. Be pleased O my father to forgive me all my past sins & transgressions, I feel they are many & very heavy, "against Thee the only have I sinned". My troubles & trials the past year have been great, yet I acknowledge I have had more good than evil & so much more good than I deserve. I have tried the past two years to make a crop, I have failed both years, have tried to make something keeping boarding house, did not lose by that, & think as I have things arranged now I could make considerable this year; but since I have been here I see they cannot do without me; I believe I will save more by staying here than I could make there, then I think they will make a better crop if I stay here, & that is the principle thing if we fail in a crop this year we may as well give up. I must confess I regret leaving Athens, have many friends there that I love very much indeed & think some of them will regret my leaving, but I think it will take us both to keep things half right here. Sometimes I feel almost ready to give up everything & suffer for the necessaries of life, I know I have never really suffered for food but I have lived very badly & yet better than I deserved. Sometimes I fear I don't feel right, can't say indeed do not murmur; but sometimes sit up all night nearly groaning & crying, then laugh & talk all day. I do sometimes feel "How long Lord, will thou hide thyself forever? Shall thy work burn like fire?: but I do know & feel that all things do actually work together for good. Bless me O my father & watch over & protect me, & for Christ's sake keep me from every evil &grant me my daily bread for I do indeed fear I shall suffer this year. 1867 41 Wednesday 2nd A cloudy, cold day rained a little several times, Several gentlemen called during the day. I have had the negroes all day scouring and cleaning up the house; the boys have been so careless that I have had the joists & walls scoured as well as the floors. O its so much trouble, had the house in town cleaned every where now must have this one cleaned from top to bottom; & in such terrible weather. I have felt very sad all day; can't sleep or eat, feel like I am trying to pass through another year of trouble & perhaps suffering. I am old and very feeble, if I only had the health & strength of some women. I would not fear. I have energy but no strength; there I am trust­ing or rather depending on myself & why is it? I know "It is not in man that walks to direct his ways," God & God alone orders, directs or permits all things; & all is right then "Why art thou cast down O my soul & why art thou disquited [sic] within me & trust there in God." O that I could at all times feel the truth of that sentence. We are having early supper expecting to go to a party tonight at Ms. Simmons'. I don't feel like going but feel it to be a duty & must go, don't think I shall enjoy it at all, wish I could shut myself up in a room by myself for about three days not see a single human being during that time I could then feel better, always like to be alone when in trouble, get over it sooner. Read one Psalm. We went to the party returned about 2 oclock [sic], the young people seemed to enjoy themselves very much. I feel very much fatigued my feet were very cold fear it will make me sick. Thursday 3rd A cold snowy day, part of the day snowed very fast. the trees more bent than they were Monday, still cloudy & looks like falling weather; Ed & myself went to Athens this morning intending to stay all night but so much snow fell, it was so cold, & hearing Mrs J.M. Phinizy had rented the house I concluded I would come home & take a better day, as I know Mrs P. will not require me to move in a hurry, we however brought somethings home; got here about dark. I felt so unwell & so fatigued I could not eat, then we called one the blessed freedmen in the house to make fires & attend to us, her father refused to 1867 42 let her come say­ing he had no money to pay doctor bills. We however got one to come; I donot know what to do or how to act, but I shall certainly have all their things put out in the snow & they may move & try some one else for I can't and won't be run over by them. I will do my own cooking before I will run over by negroes. Miss M. & Miss L. Mathews, Miss Molly Thompson &Mr J. Mathews & Mr Wilson & others called. Read one Psalm. Received a note from Miss L. Frierson answered it. Stump com­plaining of cold, do hope he will not be sick much. Bless us O my father & help us for we are poor & needy, grant us every blessing. Friday 4th A cloudy day some little rain, the snow not, all melted & yet it has melted some every day & no sun I never saw snow melt as fast & no sun. Several called today some 10 or 12 ladies & gentlemen here tonight played & enjoyed them­selves till now 2 oclock [sic], I feel very much wearied & sleepy. Read two Psalms. Saturday 5th A cloudy day or at least more cloud a great deal than sunshine, the sun shined after 3 oclock [sic]. The first sun we have had for ten days. Several called during the day. Read in Joshua; the snow is not all gone yet. The negroes cut up yesterday morning & nearly all left, some come back today, the cook left this afternoon. I thought once I would not get any one to get supper for us, but finally did, what on earth are we to do? Surely there ought to be some­thing done, we can't get on so. 0 for help to live. Sunday 6th A fair day. J. Thompson spent the day here. Read in Joshua, feel very sad today, can't feel satisfied & can't see how I am to live this year. Bless me O my father & grant me my daily bread, only be pleased to grant me usual health & sufficient rainment [sic]. Last year I did not send for the doctor at all, if we can be well & have enough to eat I must not complain, & hope I will be happy & contented. Monday 7th A fair day. Mr J. Fesler called today. Read one Psalm. Had two loads moved down today, been busy piecing my carpet & putting it down. 0 for peace & plenty. 1867 43 Tuesday 8th A cloudy morning, bright afternoon indeed cleared up before ten oclock [sic], rained some last night. Ed & myself went to town this morning packed up & sent home three loads of household plunder, had some dinner cooked & Mrs Phinizy & her son dined with us; came home early. Read one Psalm. I feel more sad than usual today as I am moving again. O for peace & quiet. Wednesday 9th A cloudy day. Col J. Billups, W.H. Morton & others called, received a note from Mrs J. Phinizy, wrote one to her & one to Mrs Walker. Read one chapter in Job. I have been busy moving and fixing up my things & O the heart rending trouble I expect to see this year. Tonight I feel more sad, more distressed & troubled than I have since the war ended. Stump my last and only prop the only real comfort I have a right to claim came home tonight under the influence of spirits. O if he could only see my heart, could feel & know how I feel, surely he would never do so again. I have so often thought & so often remarked to my friends & acquaintances that he was my greatest comfort, that he was sober & steady, now I must never say so again & do humbly beg pardon for telling an untruth. O my father bless me & bless him & grant that I may never see either of my children drinking again and if I can never see them without seeing them disqiused [sic] with spirits I do sincerely pray that I may never see them. Thursday 10th A cold windy day more cloud than sunshine. Col J. Billups, Mr Hemphill &others called. Read two Psalms. We are nearly done moving from town but nothing fixed up everything scattered all over the house. I do dread getting things arranged & sometimes I think I have done wrong in coming back. O, if only I had someone to advise me, & to fix up for me, but everything must go through my hands & brain, I am so worried in body & mindset I hope it's all right & for the best, but I have almost given up, think its impossible for me to make a support; Friday 11th A cloudy cold day; Mr Bone and others called, Read one Psalm; been busy all day about moving & fixing up I do dread the next ten or 15 days, but must hold up; 1867 44 Saturday 12th A cloudy day, raining occasionally through the day; Mr J Fesler and others called, Read one chapter in Proverbs; I have been packing up some [ ? ] crockery and glass today & since I have been here the negroes have stolen three silver spoons, what on earth am I to do? Surely, surely it beats anything I ever heard of Bless me O father and grant I may find them, I have been very lucky so far in finding such things though I have lost many that I never found; but it seems to me that of late everything works against me, I do hope I will find them in the morning. Sunday 13th A cloudy day some little rain, several called, Read in Judges I feel very unhappy; yet I am willing & I think do trust; Bless me O my father & grant me every good & every blessing, "Cares are comforts such by heaven designed, He that has none must make them or be wretched." If so, I think surely I have enough; it seems to me my life has been a constant trial, not a year, not a day even that I have not had any cares & trials; it's all right & hope I am willing to bear it; but it seems now my cup is almost full, everything I had in the world taken from me; & now in old agent a single comfort left, all all must go through my head & hands; But I do feel that all will be well; Monday 14th A cloudy day some little rain; Mr Nunn & others here today; Read in Judges; had a new cook to come today fear she knows nothing about it, O me the trouble I must see the remainder of my life, & no one to help me, no one to sympathize with me, am all alone; "Why art thou cast down O my soul & why are thou disquieted pithing me, I trust there in God." Tuesday 15th A fair day, several called; Mr J. Mathews & G Fesler came after supper & set [sic] untill [sic] bedtime; enjoyed their company as we were alone; Read in Judges; I have something every day to add to my troubles; still I hope all will be well, I know I am a sinner & deserve punishment, do not murmur or repine, but O my father only bless and help me through with my troubles once more, for Christs's sake help me; 1867 45 Wednesday 16th A fair day, warm for the season; several called; Read in Judges; Surely surely we must exercise patience at least help a dozen grown women on the lot & not one would come in & help me put up a bedstead this afternoon; Can it be right? I feel sure I would do most any thing I could do for any one & to be treated unkindly by any one is surely not right at least it seems to me so but God knows best, & I will try to bear all things, 0 for patience & forbearance; I will not faint or even weary if I can help it, for God knows best what is for my good; I have been at work all my life, been waiting on the sick white & black & have tried & have often prayed I might every day do some good to some individual & that without a selfish motive & sometimes I feel that every friend every acquaintance even is indebted to me; for I feel sure I have done more for each than they have for me; I donot mean to say they ought to pay me in any way, but I feel like a return of kindness is certainly right; yet I have more good than evil in all my troubles & trials I can see & feel like God is my friend & does watch over & protect me; & that is a blessing. I thank God for giving me a heart to feel thankful & do now today feel that I will some day be in better circumstances, get through all my troubles & be contented & satisfied in my old age; Received a letter from Rough. Thursday 17th A fair day. Col J. Billups called. Mr Ivy dined here; Received several notes; Read in Judges; I have been trying to feel reconciled to every thing & hope I am; Just forty one years today since I was married. O the times & changes, I think really seven times & seven changes have passed over me; no cook yet; Friday 18th A fair day. I think no one has called today. Read in Judges; the house girl complaining of toothache & not another woman on the lot will come in to make a fire in my room & Miss Pottle's, a negro boy is now in there making the fire; can it be right must I live so the remainder of my life? can we all live together so? I think we cannot, we certainly can't get on so; Help us O my father & grant us better things, let us live better & do better all of us; 1867 46 Saturday 19th A cloudy day, still very cold; Mr Goolsby & Capt Stanly called indeed Mr G. took dinner with me; Several called since dinner; Read in Judges; twenty five years (I think) today since my oldest child died; we have been busy trying to get up something to sell all day, must try & sell something to buy meat & bread for the year if possible; O that I could do right, then I have today missed a dress that I prize very highly, what must I do? O my father bless me & grant I may get it; Sunday 20th a rainy day, still cloudy & some rain falling; I think no one has called today. Read in Judges. I have been very unwell all day, cold & headache; & very sad indeed; Bless me O my father & grant me every blessing thou seest I need & keep me from every evil; Monday 21st A cloudy day. J.M. Dean called this afternoon. Wrote several notes. Read in Nehemiah. I have been looking over my clothes find many many things missing hope they are not lost Bless me O my father & grant I may find them, surely surely I have lost enough, without losing again. Tuesday 22nd A fair day. Several called. Received a note from Mr England. Read in Judges. I have been getting up things to sell, & seeing so many old things makes me feel sad, things that I prize yet of little or no use to me, still if things were as they have been I would not sell them, but if I let them remain here they will everyone be stolen in three months, everything nearly I left here is gone. Left five good wheels now can't find but one, not even the bench or rim, not a spoke surely no one has lost half so much as I have, but its all right. God knows best what is for my good & I will try to bear it the best I can, only be pleased O my father to be with me & bless me, grant that I may get through this difficulty, do not forsake me now. Jake Fesler here since supper. Ed went with him to a party. Wednesday 23rd A cloudy. Several called during the day. Mr, A. Goolsby came after supper to be here early in the morning about the sale as he will the crier 1867 47 Wrote & received several notes. Read in Ruth. Bless us O my father & grant us every good, be pleased to be with us tomorrow & grant that our property may sell for its full value & every thing pass off well & without any trouble or difficulty. Thursday 24th A fair day. Had a sale & many here, several gentlemen called in the house, & Mrs Luis spent the day here, Mr A. Goolsby left this afternoon; the things sold low, people had no money & the carriage & rockaway was not sold at all, & I had the sale on that account wanted to sell them, but could not. I must try to sell them yet if I possibly can; for I must do something to get some money. Read in Ruth. Saturday 26th A fair cold day windy & unpleasant, as it rained some yesterday. Several called yesterday, Mr G. Williams came here last night to stay some days. I don't know how it is, or what could have been the cause but I entirely forgot to read or write last night, surely I must be losing my mind, really I sometimes fear I am, its the first time I neglected it in nineteen years; but I do really have so much trouble & so many things to think of that shall go crazy, can't enjoy any thing or any company. W. H. Morton & others called today. Read in Ruth. Wrote to Rough. Bless me O my father & help me once more. Just help me now. Sunday 27th A fair cold windy day. Stump Ed & Miss Pottle went to the station to church. W. Dean & others called Read one chapter in First Samuel. I have enjoyed the day talking to Mr Williams he is a man of fine sense & education, & although I have neither I like to converse with intelligent persons; Monday 28th A fair day, windy & cold, Ed & myself went to Athens called at Mr J. Turner's, at Mr Homer's at Mr England's, stores, I then called on Mrs Bradford, on Mrs Pope, & dined with Mrs Frierson, Met F. Frierson & his bride there. Read one Psalm; feel very much fatigued, felt like crying when I looked at my old house today; do wish I could live there this year Just as I would like to; but my days of pleasure are over, received a letter from Mr J.C. Cohen, poor fellow he 1867 48 writes to say he will be with me this year he will be so much disappointed when he hears I will not be there I cant bear the thought of writing to him; Tuesday 29th A fair day; Col J. Billups & others called; Read in First Samuel; Stump gone to Athens & not returned now eleven oclock[sic], poor boy thinks & cares so little about his business, he cant make a crop so; Wednesday 30th A beautiful warm day. Several gentlemen called three Misses Thompson here this afternoon. Read in first Samuel; wrote a letter to Mr J. Cohen, the Misses Thompson left about 8 oclock [sic]; Thursday 31st Another beautiful day; Ed & myself went to Athens called to see Mr Mitchell on business. I called a few minutes on Mrs T. Lumpkin, then went in Mrs Vonderleiths' shop, then Mr Lumpkin's, then Billups' drugg [sic] store then Mr Bishop's then at Homer's, then at Mr England's & home at 2 oclock [sic], went out & sowed some garden peas & plants, then went up to Mr Thompson's with Stump & Miss Pottle took supper & come home after eight oclock [sic] found Mr M. Dairs & Mr Carter here. Col J. Billups &others called during the day; Read one Psalm; I feel very much wearied indeed have set [sic] up all day for a week or more & it does not agree with me I need rest, cant bear fatigue wrote a letter to Miss L. Hodgson; Received a letter from Mr W. Dougherty; February 1st A cloudy day, some little rain, Several called Read one Psalm; wrote a letter to Miss M. B. Anglin & a note to Miss M. A. Frierson, Miss E. Thompson & her brother called & Miss Pottle went with them to see Mrs Yerkum; Miss P. has been in bed nearly all day, but up tonight still seems sick, fear she will be sick for some time; Commenced a letter to Mr W. Dougherty, Saturday 2nd A cloudy day, some little rain; the sun shone some today so suppose we will have snow again this winter; Mrs J. Morton & her son W. H. Morton here this afternoon, Jake Fesler here to supper left about 8 oclock [sic]; Read in Samuel Sunday 3rd A fair windy day, not very cold J. Thompson, J. Fesler W. Dean and others called; a man 74 years old came here to stay all night, poor old man never married has no family 1867 49 is walking begging his way to Ala to try to find some of his friends there, now if ha had married young & raised a family surely some of them would take care of him, I find a man or woman left alone in this world has many trials in old age, Read in First Samuel; finished my letter to Me Dougherty, wrote a note to Mr W. L. Mitchel, rec'd an answer; Bless me O my father & grant me bread and meat for this year, only help me through this year again I got through last year some way, grant that I may get through this & make a good crop; I somehow fear it but hope & trust we may do better than I expect; all our help must come from thee, only but please to help us, let us not suffer this year as we did last; Monday 4th A rainy morning, several called, Mr G. Williams left this morning, J Tuck here this evening to invite us to a dance at the Bailie's tomorrow -- Write a letter to Mr England rec'd an answer, Read in First Samuel; somehow I feel better tonight, yet I still fear we shall suffer this year; Can't see how I am to get meat and bread for the family, Bless me O father & help me through once more; I will do the very best I can; Tuesday 5th A cloudy day at least some cloud, then sunshine, Col J. Billups called, J. Thompson & others called in the afternoon; Read in First Samuel; Stump, Nanie [?] Pottle and myself went to Mr Thompson's since supper to a surprise party came home about one oclock [sic]; enjoyed it much as usual; Wednesday 6th A cloudy day, some little rain this morning; several called, W. H. Morton & Col J. Billups before dinner and others since dinner, W. Anglin here tonight, Stump and miss Pottle went to Mr Baily's about nine o'clock [sic] to a dance, have just come [?] oclock [sic] Rec'd a letter from Rough & one from Miss M. B. Anglin; read in First Samuel Stump and miss Pottle are terribly put out Ed has been over there & put fencing across the road, broke some of the buggies. I think its a shame for him to do so; Thursday 7th A cloudy day some little rain & some snow, very cold all day & considerable wind; Raining steadily & pretty hard ever since dark; Mr Anglin & Miss Pottle left this morning the latter seemed unwilling to leave I also felt grieved to see her start, hope she will be well & happy she is a good girl & I think deserves good; Read in First Samuel. 1867 50 Friday 8th A rainy day; Mr M. Davis, Mr J. Thompson, Mr Stripling & others called Read in First Samuel, I have felt very sad all day our corn will not last more than ten days & not a cent of money to buy any more; what must I do? Bless me O my father & help me through once more; Just seven years today since Mr G. was buried & 0 if he could only know the troubles & difficulties I have had to encounter to think now every one (I mean ladies) are talking of their troubles with the negroes. I feel if I had nothing but that to encounter it would be light, but I must try to get something to eat, for man & beast, corn, fodder, shucks, & meat must be had or we will suffer & that soon; O my father grant us our daily bread; Saturday 9th A rainy morning faired off about eleven oclock [sic] cold & windy & now clear cold & windy the ground frozen I think the most unpleasant night we have had; Read in First Samuel; O the troubles & difficulties I have to encounter. Ed drinking tonight I do believe he is crazy, cant think a sane man would act as he does. Sunday 10th A fair cold day but not so much wind as yesterday. I think no one has called today. Read in First Samuel. Poor me every day brings its sorrows & troubles but no pleasures; Bless me O my father & grant us every blessing I feel that I am lost & ruined. Monday 11th A fair cold day. Several called but I did not see any of them; Read in First Samuel; Stump & Mr Bone been trying all day to sell the Jack, but do feel sad to think of parting with the old mare most like giving up one of my children; but we have no corn, shucks, hay, oats or meat, & better part with her than perish. I dont know what on earth to do. Bless me O my father & grant us our daily bread; every day brings new sorrows; Tuesday 12th A cloudy day; several gentlemen called; Stump & myself rode over to Capt Dean's this afternoon to see Mrs Paxon from Louisanna [sic] its been sixteen years since she was here. I was happy to meet her, many changes have 1867 51 taken place since she left Ga. indeed we have all changed but I would have known her; Read in First Samuel, wrote to Mr W. Dougherty, feel sad and dejected "Why art thou cast down O my soul & why art thou disquieted within me, trust thou in God;" help me O my father to trust implicitly in thee for thou &thou only art able to help me; 0 bless me for Christ's sake. wrote to Miss Lou Frierson. Stump received a letter from Miss A.E. Pottle, pleased to hear she arrived safely & all well at home, her father sent me his photograph thank him for his kind feelings towards me; hope I still have some friends; Wednesday 13th A cloudy warm day; I believe no one has been in the house today but several called at the gate & talked. Read in Second Samuel; wrote a note or two; feel very sad cant see how I am to make out this year nothing in the world to eat for the stock or for ourselves. O my father bless us, for Christ's sake hear & answer my prayers; Thursday 14th A cloudy day, a heavy fog this morning, which descended I thought it would of course be fair but it rained some little since supper; Col J. Billups called this morning. Mr M. Davis & Mr Stripling this afternoon; Read in Second Samuel; Mr Bone sold my old carriage mare (Nancy) today for 50 Bushells of corn; more than she is worth but I feel very much like its parting with one of the family; if I could have made out any way in the world I would not have parted with her but better that than to perish; Bless me O my father & grant me bread this year again; I have been sewing the two last days, had no idea I could do so well, made a shirt for Stump last week & nearly finished another this week; he has lost seven new ones since I left here & all his old ones; if I had not come back he would have been naked, poor fellow knows nothing in the world about taking care of himself. Friday 15th A cloudy warm day. Several gentlemen called. Mrs N.L. Barnard & Miss E. Mitchell here this afternoon; I was very much pleased to see them; hope some of my town friends will ride out every day when the weather is good. Read in Second Samuel; O that I could only see some way to get through this year & have enough to eat; 1867 52 Saturday 16th Another cloudy day but very little rain; Col J. Billups, Dr T. G. Macon & others called; Read in Second Samuel; Received a note from Miss L. Hodgson, & a letter from Miss Lou Frierson; Miss Frierson telling me something about nearly all my neighbours [sic] & friends in town; really they feel very near to me; Stump was in town today & saw two of my boarders I am anxious to see them; they feel almost like children to me; O to think how many people I really love & to think how many of my friends & kindred have died I feel sometimes almost alone in a great world where all have their relatives & confidents, I feel that I have none to talk to that cares for me; Stump is up at the Bone's playing the banjo, went soon after supper I have been alone the whole night not a soul white or black in the house but me; it don't suit for just one young one & one old one to live together, there were several I could keep one at a time but he can't give up all his pleasure & stay with me, & young people don't want old ones with them all the time, I find it don't suit, rec'd a letter from Dick last night the first since last July, poor boy guess he cares very little about my troubles& trials, has his own to attend to now, he has a wife and three children to care for, that is as much as he can say grace to. Sunday 17th A fair warm day. W. Dean & others called, wrote a note to Mr J & M. Hill & J. C. Cohen, one to Lieut Irwin & one to Mrs M. Paxon, read in second Samuel; such a beautiful day & no way to go to Church, to think I used to go every sabbath & now can't go at all, will not my will, but thine be done; if I can only make out to live just have enough corn and meat to do me this yearI will be so thankful; O for my daily bread; Stump is gone again tonight to try & save our meat & to keep our horses from being rode [sic]; so I all alone in the house, not a soul to look at or speak to; Lieut Irwin sent me word yesterday he would furnish me corn & wait with me for the money, no one else has made such an offer & he a Kentuckian & no way 1867 53 related to me, only became acquainted with him during the war he came here twice wounded, I have some times thought I did all I could for soldiers refugees & families of soldiers & that those that had no husband or sons in the war & never did anything for it, were doing so much better than I was, & seemed to get on better, that perhaps I was wrong, but then I ought not to regret it, i did it consciously & thought I was not only helping them, but the war& how when one makes me such an offer as this I think I ought to rejoice & thank God for his great and marvelous kindness toward me, bu pleased O my father to bless Lieut Irwin on time and in eternity & grant him every good this world can afford The joys of heaven in eternity; he said this morning that Capt J. Dean had both his meat houses burned last night, they seem to think it accident; thank thee O my father that so far I have had no fire, bless me and keep me from every evil & from every harm; Monday 18th A fair warm day; Several called at the gate, I think none been in the house, I have been out trimming up my shrubbery & digging the dead & setting out; I have so often though the last month of giving away & destroying all my flowers (& now just as soon as the weather will admit I am trying to have all fixed up again) I do really love them can't help it, indeed its womens [sic] nature I think & it surely suits me much better than men's business. O if I only had every thing as I did before the war how happy I would be; but I must not repine, must not dictate, our heavenly father orders, directs or permits all things & we must feel thy will be done; O for a double portion of thy spirit that, I might always feel contented Read in Second Samuel wrote a note to Dr Moore my young mare the only animal I have now that I can drive myself indeed the only one that will work in single harness is very sick I wrote to Dr Moon for his advice I do hope & pray she may get sound & well again; had a mule die last week, hope no more of stock will. 1867 54 Tuesday 19th A fair day some clouds & wind this afternoon. Col J. Billups & others called. Dr Moore came this morning to see the sick mare but she is some better all think she will get well now if we attend to her. I do indeed feel thankful for it, for really I can't see what I am to do, and only five dollars in the world & have no idea when or how I am ever to get another cent, know it was in my pocket book Saturday & keep it in my pocket during the day & under my pillar during the night & find tonight its gone, how on earth it could have been taken I cant see, but its so & it really seems to me every thing I have on earth is gone; how am I to live or get on. Bless me O my father & grant me some good, will thy anger burn forever? O bless & forgive me; Read in Second Samuel; I walked up this afternoon to see Mrs Bushy head; herself & husband & children are Cherokee Indians they are staying in one of my houses for a few days; enjoyed the call; she seemed pleased to see me; Wednesday 20th A fair warm day; Col J. Billups called this morning, Mr Baker this afternoon; wrote to Mr J.C. Rembert; Read in Second Samuel; heard today that Mrs Simmons lost two horses Monday night. I thank thee 0 my father that I have not had any horses or mules stolen. Thursday 21st A cloudy morning some little rain, cleared off about twelve & considerable wind all the afternoon; W.H. Morton called this morning, then took supper with us & went with Stump to Mr J. White's to set [sic] till bedtime. Mr & Mrs Bone came down after supper set [sic] till bedtime; wrote a long letter (eight pages) to Mrs L.E. Lessiens. Received a note from Mr J. Cohen. Read in Second Samuel. Friday 22nd A fair day, some thing colder but not unpleasant, have had a beautiful spell of weather for farming & gardening, they are getting on slowly in the farm I guess as Stump is gone again after corn with two or the horses, & I am doing nothing at all in the garden, cant have cooking & washing done, rather expect I shall fail in a garden altogether. Ed drove my 1867 55 sick mare to the station this afternoon he thinks she is improving very much. I hope so any how. He came home about sundown said or rather showed me a note requesting his presence not far off tonight & so he left. I some how rather think he wrote the note himself just wanted to go to some frolic tonight & disliked leaving me alone. Mr Bone & Mr Martin here since supper & two of Mr Bone's sons will remain with me tonight. Read in Second Samuel; Saturday 23rd A cloudy day; Mrs M. Paxon from La. & her daughter, Mrs Anius, her daughter & W. Dean spent the afternoon here; I feel very sad when I meet with an old acquaintance to think every thing is so changed, cant have any thing now as I want it; O my father bless & protect me; be pleased for Christ's sake to help me through once more; O for help & that right now. Nothing of Ed yet, hope he is not hurt, & will act the gentleman in every thing; Received a note from little Bonnie Cundly, & a letter from Miss A. E. Pottle. Read in Second Samuel. Sunday 24th A cloudy morning, the wind high from ten oclock [sic] in the morning till night, had sunshine greater part of the day but a dark cloudy night. Read in Second Samuel; Stump & myself spent an hour with Mrs Paxon this morning. Mr T.M. Daniel came about 4 oclock [sic] still here. I think he has improved some in talking & walking; Monday 25th A cloudy day, looked very much like rain this morning, but has not yet; W.H. Morton & others called; I have been very unwell all day, got up this morning went out & fixed up some flowers for Mrs Paxon to take to La, & went to bed, have not set [sic] up much today & eat [sic] nothing. My mind is so much troubled that I can't sleep or eat. O for quiet, some rest, some relief from trouble its wearing me out, fast as the wheel of time rolls round & I am going down hill just as fast, Read in Second Samuel; Mrs T. Tuck, her two sisters & brother, & Mr Martin set with us untill [sic] bedtime; Tuesday 26th A cloudy day some little rain this morning. Several called. Read in First Kings. I have felt better today as to health, but my troubles my troubles, will they never end. I do indeed think I had best give up the crop its impossible to make one so. Stump will not control or even try to, it seems to me he dont want the negroes to [ ? ] him or me; 1867 56 Wednesday 27th A fair windy day, have had more wind than usual in this month. I suppose old people would say those days are borrowed from March, if so I hope we will have less next month. I always dread March on account of the wind & so often have fire; several called. Stump gone up to stay all night with Frank Chandler, hope he will not do any thing wrong during his absence; Read in First Kings; Mrs Morton called at. the gate & said Mrs R. Crane was buried today O my father bless & direct me; help me through another year. Thursday 28th A rainy day, had several hard showers, I think no one has called today; Stump came home late this afternoon wet & muddy. I hope he has succeeded wrote a note to Bonnie Hundly & one to Jeb Pottle; Read in First Kings; I have not laid down today was burning out the chimneys after dinner & then it was too late so feel wearied; March 1st A fair warm day. Jake Fesler & others called; Read in First Kings; I did not sleep well last night & have been sneezing all day, considerable headache tonight, had many trees trimed up & some dug up today I think the wood & brush will last us some weeks to burn; they had grown so much & some dead we were compelled to do it wrote a note to Mr J. White; Saturday 2nd A cloudy day, the wind high but warm; Several called. Read in First Kings; Miss Peggie Connel spent an hour here this afternoon, was pleased to see her, have not seen her since last summer, my neighbours [sic] have all been to see me & I thank them really, for I am alone; Sunday 3rd A cloudy day. Mr J.C. Cohen spent the day here. I really enjoyed his company, he seemed pleased to see us, he also seems pretty well pleased with his boarding. Mr W. Hodgson spent an hour or so with us this afternoon. Read in First Kings; Stump saw three suspicious looking men pass this evening, so he & Ed are gone out to see if they can find them, be pleased O my father to bring them back safe & sound; Monday 4th A fair day, lightening in the North tonight; several called. Read in First Kings; my cook woman has never 1867 57 been agreeable will not do my way, insists she knows best, wont wash or cook as I tell her, indeed dont half wash & iron. I told her to get another home this morning. I waited untill [sic] after twelve & no one offered to get dinner for me, so I cooked dinner & supper. have not slept today & feel very much wearied, seven grown up negro women in the cabins & me cooking, one of them my old cook, that I have waited on day & night in her sickness & raised all her children & grand children, they have no feeling & not a particle of gratitude & yet if any negro on the lot is sick I go to see them & do all I can to comfort or assist them; & I can't help it, will be obliged to do it, let them do as they may; Tuesday 5th A rainy day, some rain and something cooler; I think no one has been here today; rec'd a letterform Mr W. Dougherty, he seems to have had some good news respecting my lands in the low country, but what of that? its now thought by most Persons that the yankees will take all our property, particularly our land from us if so everything will be gone, & no use trying to do anything, if it were not that I know we must live another year (is we live to see it) I positively would not try to make a crop, but can't sit and perish must be able to make a support; commenced a letter to Mr Dougherty, read in First Kings; Wednesday 6th A cold rainy windy day equinoctial gale, I think, wrote to Mr W. Dougherty, read in first kings; there were two mules stolen from my lot last night, a gentleman sent here for some lumber, & the mules were put in my stables, this morning both mules, the lines and trace chains were gone also, Some of our trace chains Stump and Ed gathered up all the negro boys and started after them it rained so much they could not find the tracks; found them & two chains in the woods near Mr Thompson's, all of us think a negro called Jack stole them, they were certainly taken by someone on the place, for Stump and Ed have been guarding the lot for some weeks & it must have been done when both were sleeping last night; It seems Ed accused him of it, he called Ed a damn liar & damn Irish son of a bitch, that is Ed's version of it, he then shot him three times with a revolver killing him dead, I thought I had gone through every scene any one could, [End page 57. Pages 58 and 59 are not in the scan of the original diary. From where the text below comes this editor is not certain. However, it follows the events of the murder discussed on Wednesday the 6th, and as such seems legitimate.] Thursday 7th A fair day & very pleasant; had a very hard rain with heavy thunder just before day this morning; I suppose twenty or twenty-five men here today; come to hold an inquest over the body of the dead negro but the magis­trates though it could not be done without a coroner, since they left here we hear they have decided that it can be, & we have expected them to come for some time now nearly nine they will not come now; I feel very bad about it to think he has been laying there ever since yesterday morning in the same clothes. I do hope they will come early in the morning & let him be buried poor fellow he had a bad name & come to a bad end; God grant I may never pass through two such days again. Read First Kings; Ed was at the gate this morning. I spoke to him & told him to leave this part of the country. I hope he will not return & that the officers will not catch him; Friday 8th A cloudy cool day; Mr Browning came before breakfast, soon after about 15 or so gentlemen came held an inquest over the corpse of that poor negro, only had negro evidence & no one it seems saw it only heard the report & afterwards found the corpse; yet they give in the verdict I think that he came to his death by shots fired by Mr McManaman; wonder where he is tonight, poor boy I guess he is nearly crazy, it must have been done in a fit of passion & when he thought of it he grieved & repented; I feel much better now the man is buried. I have not eat or slept much & have a severe headache; Read in First Kings; Saturday 9th A cloudy day. I had began to feel a little quiet, slept a little this afternoon & hoped all would pass off well, but heard once today that Ed was gone entirely off & was safe, then again that he was about Athens, & just at dusk, setting here alone he opened my door. I never felt as I did in my life before. I got up & told him to leave immediately, he said he was not afraid but I did not let him come in the house; the negroes are all (that is all the men but my Sam) gone to Athens I suppose to report to the yankees, at least to the bureau; its now nine oclock [sic] & I am expecting them every minute, would not dread it only I fear they will send the negroes again, & will not care for that if they send white men with them; Bless me O my father & grant that nothing serious may occur to me & Stump, keep us from every evil, from the insults & oppressions of our enemies & for Christ's sake save us, all our help must come from thee, I have surely lived through two life times this week O my father help me I have done nothing & said nothing to injure a single human being white or black, & be pleased to save me now. Read in Chronicles & Proverbs; & one Psalm. Sunday 10th A rainy day. Mr Bone here several times, Mr Browning, Mr Elder & six or eight others here this morning searching for Ed. I requested them or rather suggested they should search the house, they did so searched every room, closet & cubbie in the house, then again since nine oclock [sic] tonight & searched the horse lot, every house, stable, & loft down there, so I hope they are now certain he is not here I do indeed hope & pray that he is away & will stay, never come back to Clarke, Joe Thompson & Miss E. Thompson here tonight I sent for them to stay with me tonight & do indeed rejoice as they have been here again to search. Read one Psalm; 1867 60 Monday 11th A cloudy morning fair afternoon; the officers & then I think were out all night last night, were around here most of the time, as they heard Stump had locked him up in the crib, they have been going all day, & saw him this afternoon about 7 miles from here; Ed told Mr Elder (the officer) not to come a step further & he of course halted; said J. Dean might go to him & when he got in speaking distance halted him asked what they wanted. Dean told they were all after him & to leave quick; he left, but has acted so different to what I expected that I cant answer for him now; Several called wrote to Dick. Read in First Kings; Tuesday 12th A cloudy day, raining several times. Jake Fesler, called Mr Butler come in just as we finished supper eat & left immediately, did not stay in the house ten minutes, but said he wanted to rent the place; as he heard the negroes were leaving, wrote to Miss E. A. Pottle, Read in First Kings. We heard today that Ed was at the Ga. Factory, but I hope he is not & that he is many miles from here & will never come back. Wednesday 13th Another rainy day; Mr Bone & his wife & Mr Martin here since supper. W. H. Morton called this afternoon. Received a note from O S. Porter. Read in First Kings. every day I hear some thing that distresses me. I am really sick tonight, have a cold & sick every way, but cant sleep so no use in going to bed. O my father help me, for Christ's sake help me how is it what have I done? that I must suffer so much; O for rest & peace, let us all quiet down & be safe once more. Thursday 14th A cloudy morning, bright afternoon & quite cool all day. Several gentlemen called, Mrs Thompson here this afternoon I have been in bed all day, hearing that Ed has not left yesterday & fearing the officers would be out again made me real sick, indeed I have slept and eat so little the last ten days that I am nearly work out, & do with I could be more quiet for its half his, every day brings more of a contrary nature, for instance, Saturday I heard he was in or near Gainesville & about two hours after I heard he was just above Athens & the officers and citizens arming themselves to go out after him, in a few minutes after I heard him & two 1867 61 other men rode through the streets & no one noticed them, & in about half hour after this news he come to the door, then Sunday I heard he was at Mrs Trester's, [could be Fesler, though the l is crossed in that case] then about 15 miles from her in Oglethorpe, then that he had some 12 or 15 armed men with him & he was about the big creek there after supper they came here and searched the lot having heard that he was locked up in the crib; Monday I heard he was in the woods between Athens & the GA Factory, & then beyond the GA Factory with 50 armed men; so, no use listening to any of these reports, still it makes me nervous to hear so much & everyone seems more or less excited, about 18 months since a white man was killed by a negro or negroes, a man with a large family, too, & there was no fuss made about did not even try to catch them, & now they are all saying if it had been reversed, the negro had killed the white man there would have been no fuss over it, as it is nearly every man in the county has been out and searched the county; if he cares for his life he is gone & if not let him take it as it comes, he has had every opportunity to escape & surely he is gone for good, Read in First Kings; Friday 15th A cold cloudy day, and very unpleasant, commenced snowing, hailing and sleeting about three oclock [sic], the tops of the houses now covered & still looks like falling weather; I took my green house plants out two days since thinking they would be better cared for, set them in the piazza & I see they feel this weather, fear they will all die, I did it for the best, so I will try to be reconciled, hope tomorrow will be a bright warm day; but I feel like everything is going against me, bless me O my father & forgive me, do not let thine anger burn forever, forgive me now & bless me for Christ's sake bless me; Read in first kings, Stump went with Mr Bone to see about his oxen, Mary Bone staid [sic] with me until he returned, a young man dined here, said his name was Heuger; I felt better today been writing some, then we have not heard from Ed & nobody riding about to distress men hope all will continue quiet for God knows I have suffered the last ten days; Saturday 16th A cloudy some little rain this morning, but rained consid­erably last night as the houses & trees were covered heavily with sleet, this morning, it has been melting nearly all day & yet no sun, so I hope its warmer. I slept very little last night, had so many things to trouble, first & most important what must I do for bread? I for my daily bread, only grant us bread, then like a goose I put all my greenhouse plants in the piazza thinking we would not have another freeze & being sick forgot them untill [sic] night & really I felt it would be 1867 62 right for me to be tied out in the cold all night, as I had taken the poor litt1e things out of their warm bed & put them out to freeze, but I don't think a single one is killed & as its warmer I hope they are safe now. Received a letter form Mr W. Dougherty but a disappointment with it. Read in First Kings; Sunday 17th A fair cold day. Mr Bone & Mr Martin here today. Miss E. Thompson here tonight. Stump left about 2 oclock [sic] to be gone till tomorrow so I feel lonely tonight no gentleman in the house wrote a note to Miss E. Thompson, received an answer. Read in Second Kings; Monday 18th A cloudy day. Col J. Billups & others called. Miss Emma Thompson left this morning; Read in Second Kings, have been writing tales wrote two & commenced the third, think I shall have them published; Stump re­turned this evening but I fear did not succeed in getting the money bless us O my father & grant us every good. He saw Ed & the poor simple crazy creature dont seem like leaving, bless him O my father & grant that he may go away & never come to Ga. again; & be pleased to make him a true Christian; Tuesday 19th A cloudy day with some little rained, also rained some last night. Billy Dean. Jake Fesler, & others called. Jake took supper here, him & Stump walked out since supper & I have been alone all night, have severe headache & no one to do a thing for me, not a negro to make me a fire, most of them are gone off on account of Ed & those that are here pretend to be afraid to stay in the yard till after dark, its only pretence dont want to do it is the secret, I feel very sad to think now in my old age I cant have any one to wait on me; but I suppose its all right. God knows best what is for every good & I will try to bear it cheerfully, cant see what or how it is that I am more afflicted than others, every one else has servants, & to think of all my kindness to them since they've been free & now see just on Ed's account I must do my own work, there again seems a mistery [sic] to think of my kindness to him & to all soldiers & see what his conduct has brought me to; & from my dreams its not over more trouble yet. Read in Second Kings. Wrote a note to Miss E. Thompson; 1867 63 Wednesday 20th A cold rainy windy day, it seems to me cold enough to freeze Col J. Billups & Mr Bone called; I feel some better today but not well & still no appetite. Read in Second Kings. Stump has been gone all day & I have been alone all day, he came after supper, Thursday 21st Another rainy day; Jake Fesler & Mr Bone here. Received a letter from J.G. Kohlheim, wrote a note to Mr O.L. Porter, Read in Second Kings; We heard several times that Maj Knox the head of the Bureau had a list of names Stump among the rest that were concerned in horse stealing, so I sent Stump up today, he went to Knox he says he has no list but Stump's name has been given him with many others they demanded his author, he gave Lane at the Ga. Factory; I fear there will be some fuss yet, they all seem mad & I fear there will be a row before its done with Bless us O my father grant us peace let us have no more killing no more trouble but peace; Friday 22nd A fair day, the first for some time. Mr Bone, Mr Martin & Mrs Nerum here today; Read in Second Kings, I feel better today but very sad; Bless us O my father & help us; Saturday 23rd A fair day. Tom Hill came about eleven oclock [sic] & left about sundown, I was really glad to see him; so have enjoyed the day very much indeed but feel wearied tonight & very sad, cant see any way for me to get through the year; Received a note from Miss E. Thompson, she says Ed is certainly safe & out of reach. I do hope its so, & that he never will come to Clarke again. Read in Second Kings; Sunday 24th A fair day several gentlemen called this morning to get work, but none had food or horses. R. Hemphill here this afternoon; wrote to Miss E. Thompson. Read in Second Kings; I do hope I shall get a girl tomorrow to clean up the house for me; Bless us O my father & grant that tomorrow may be a day long to be remembered; Monday 25th A cloudy day. Mr Bone & his wife here since supper, several gentlemen called. Read in Second Kings; I feel better as to health but still very sad. Planted some seeds this afternoon; Tuesday 26th A cloudy windy day. Col J. Billups, Joel Dean & others called, four of Mr Bone's children came after supper & set [sic] an hour. Stump went to Capt Dean's after supper; Read in Second Kings; O Lord what am I to do? help me for Christ's sake help me. Wednesday 27th Another cloudy day, some little rain. Read in Second Kings, another disappointment indeed every day I meet new sorrows & trials 1867 64 Thursday 28th A fair cool windy day; I think no one has been in the house today but Mr Bone. Read in Second Kings; What on earth am I to do? & how get through this year, grant O my father grant us help, grant that we may get a boy tomorrow large enough to cut wood, & work in the garden. Friday 29th A cloudy cold day. Mr A. Goolesby here today. Col J. Billups also called this morning. Received a letter from Miss E. Thompson wrote one to her; also Stump received one from Rough he is in Texas but dont say what he is doing & what he expects to do, says he wanted to see some­thing of the world & would not take a thousand dollars for what he has seen, also says he met Capt Steel & that he is married; Read in Second Kings; Stump & myself spent an hour with Mrs Morton this afternoon; Saturday 30th A cold cloudy day; Stump went to see Mr Cuningham this morning & I went as far as Mrs Fesler's with him spent the day pleasantly, came home to find all well & right as far as I have heard; Read one Psalm; Bless us O my father & grant us every blessing; be pleased to help us now for we are needy; Sunday 31st A rainy day, that is it commenced raining about one oclock [sic] & still at it; no one has called today but Tobe Thompson. Read in Second Kings; "Why art thou cast down O my soul & why art thou disquieted within me, trust thou in God for I shall yet praise him who is the light my countenance & my God" April 1st A fair cold day & rather windy, but we had less wind this spring than I ever noticed; Joe Thompson & J Fesler called today; Read in Second Kings. Bless us O my father & grant us every good & keep us from every evil; Tuesday 2nd A fair day, less wind than I expected; Mr Bone here since supper. Read in Second Kings; another disappointment, tried today to sell my carriage for less than half price & cant, what am I to do? Be pleased O Lord to bless & direct me; it seems to me I must perish & no help for it; Just three years today since Gen. King died, & the troubles & difficulties I have had to encounter since. O that I could do some thing, could think of some thing to do to give me bread for this one year, I feel sure I will not be so troubled next year for negroes. I will not begin a crop without I have enough to live on; 1867 65 Wednesday 3rd A fair day. Col J. Billups here this morning. J. Fesler & his sister here about sundown only staid a few minutes. Read in second Kings I thank thee gracious father for thy great & marvelous kindness toward, thou & thou only art able to help & I do thank thee from my heart that I will now have corn & fodder enough to last six weeks. Bless us & only grant us enough to eat & that common food its all I ask. Three years today since Gen. King was buried, bless us all yankees & all & grant that we may do thy will on earth as that will is done in heaven; Mr Ashley, a soldier of Wright's Brigade is here tonight, just on his way home, has not seen his wife for four years, was taken prisoner at Gettysburg & confined at Fort Chase, he says they have many soldiers there now poor fellow how they must suffer. I feel truly happy to think I could give him shelter for one night & dinner to take with him, hope & trust he'll find all well & every thing right at home; Be pleased heavenly father to bless every good soldier & grant them health & contentment long life & happiness; Thursday 4th A fair morning cloudy afternoon & just had a good rain at nine oclock [sic] p.m. Read in Second Kings; I do indeed hope God will now bless us & help us to live this year, for I do feel its almost useless to try, my garden not even worked over yet & no one to do it; I dont know what to do or what to think; Friday 5th A fair cold day; I think no one here today but Mr Bone & some of his children. Read in Second Kings; I finished planting things I think necessary today, hope they will not be killed, feel some thing better today; but my back still keeps me almost in bed; Saturday 6th A fair cold day a real march day; Jake Fesler & Miss Mattie Thompson here this afternoon; Read in Second Kings. Received a letter from Rough & one from Miss E. Thompson. Sunday 7th A fair day but looks like clouding up tonight. Gus Slarks dined here. W. & P. Hodgson here this morning. D. Mitchell & R. Lumpkin here this afternoon; Read in second Kings, wrote a note to Miss E. Thompson; Stump found me a white boy today I think he seems to be a good boy, but looks unhealthy; Monday 8th A cloudy· day; several called. Read in Second Kings, feel more sad than usual today thinking over my sorrows & trials, & then I have portentious [sic] dreams of late feel sure some one will die that will trouble me. I dreamed of meat several times & last night of cutting of my hair, both bad dreams; & a few 1867 66 ago I dreamed of being here in this house all my own negroes around me, scouring & cleaning up, that some five or six of my friends that are dead were with with me, that there was a heavy fog, the fog black as soot, did not think strange of it, after some time the sun seemed to be shining through it & it disappeared as all fogs do. Still I thought it was afternoon, but did not think that strange either, can't think what it means unless I am traveling a dark part of my life & will live to get through it & it will be in the evening of life. Tuesday 9th A rainy day, had several showers. Mrs Bushyhead came in this morning before I was dressed to get me to write a letter to her husband for her. I think no one else has been here today. Read in Second Kings, If I only had enough to eat for this year I would be so thankful, but not my will but thine be done its impossible for us to control our own actions & of course can do no­thing with others. "There's a divinity that shapes our ends, Rough hew them as we will" Wednesday 10th Another rainy day. I think no one has been in the house today. Received a letter from Mr Allen. Read in First Chronicles. Stump went to town today & heard Ed was in Watkinsville a few days since & then was seen near Athens can't see what on earth makes him do so, he must be crazy. I have thought so sometime & am more convinced of it now than ever. If he will only keep away from here its all I ask. Bless us O my father & grant that we may not get into a difficulty with him or any other way. Thursday 11th A fair cool day. Col Billups called this morning. Read in First Chronicles. Col B. says Ed has been in Athens & said he was coming here, at least said he must see me. Grant O my father that he may have changed his mind & is gone where we can hear from but never see him again. I still think he is crazy. Friday 12th A cloudy day, but some sun this afternoon, &quite cool tonight. Think we shall have frost. Wrote a note to Mr J. Sledge, Gus Stake here tonight. Read in First Chronicles. 1867 67 Saturday 13th A fair cool day, Stump & myself rode over to Mrs Pittard's this morning, found it very cold & have not felt well since. I went to see if I could get one of the girls to come & live with me, hope she will. I think no one has called today. Read in First Chronicles, received a letter from Miss E. Pottle, one from Dick & one from Ed, poor Dick his wife has a young babe & if he is as bad off as I am cant see how he is to live, bless him O my father & grant him every blessing, then poor Ed I do think he is crazy, says so many things in his letter that I dont believe; Bless us all O my Father & keep us from every evil, O if I could only see a way to live through this year; wrote to Mrs M. Allen; Sunday 14th A fair windy day; Mr Bone & his wife here this morning. Mr Jean & his wife & two young ladies here this afternoon, wrote to Ed. Read in First Chronicles; another disappointment Bless us O my father & help us; what am I to do? how can I get through this year? Monday 15th A rainy day; Dan Fesler & others called; Read in Second Chronicles I was suffering night with pain in my ear, slept very little have been in bed all day, without sleeping or eating, & really it seems to me I cant stand it long as I am, cant find no [sic] way in the world to make out, & no one in the world to help me or even to advise me & I sometimes think no one to care for me. O my father help me & direct me, grant me wisdom & strength to get on this year, & I think I will never be in this fix again; if I don't make enough this year to live on, I never will try another crop. Tuesday 16th A fair day. Col J. Billups here this morning, Mr Bone & his wife here since supper. Read in Second Chronicles. O Lord help us for Christs sake. Wednesday 17th A fair day. Mrs Graham, Col Billups & others called this morning. Miss Mary Pittard & her sister came this morning. Miss Mary came to stay with me a month & if she likes to live with me. I hope we will get on well, & live together many years & love each other & do well. Read in Second Chroni­cles. The first thing I asked Miss Mary to do for me was to make some molasses candy she did it very well indeed, & so far I like her, & hope she will like me & be pleasant & kind. I do sincerely hope & pray that I shall now do better. Col Billups told me today he would loan me cotton seed. I do feel truly thankful to him also to God for his great & merciful kindness towards, bless us O my father. 1867 68 Thursday 18th A fair day. Col J. Billups & Mr J. Morton here this morn­ing. I have been quite unwell all day indeed I have not been well for a week, but have been busy all day & feel fatigued. Read in Second Chronicles. Received a note from Mrs M.A. Hardin, wrote one to Ed. Friday 19th A fair day. Jake Fesler here twice, four or five little girls called. Received a note from ___ Handly. Read in Second Chronicles. Bless us 0 my father & help us, grant me relief right now. Saturday 20th A rainy day, had several hard showers with heavy thunder, also had some sunshine. Read in Second Chronicles. Mr John Riley (he said that was his name) called this morning to find out where Ed is, said he heard he was a harness maker & wanted to engage him to work for him in White city, but I rather think he was trying to catch him at least I would not be surprised if he is not going over the country to find out where he is for the yankees indeed I would not be surprised to hear he is a yankee himself, he is an Irishman & says he was in the same company Ed was; there is something misterious [sic] about him anyhow. Two Misses Pittard & Frank Fesler here this afternoon. I have felt very unwell & very sad all day. Sunday 21st A fair day, no one ca1led today. I spent an hour or so at Mr Thompson's this morning very pleasantly. Read in Second Chronicles, & a sermon since supper. Monday 22nd A fair windy day. Stump & myself left home at twenty minutes of six this morning arrived at Mr M. Davis' before ten oclock [sic], spent the day plea­santly left there about 4 oclock [sic] arrived at home about dark, found all well, truly thankful that we went & came safe & found all well & that no accident occured [sic] dur­ing our absence. Miss Mary was beginning to think we would not come home tonight. Read in Second Chronicles I feel very much fatigued suppose it is fourteen miles to Mr D's & a very rough road yet I enjoyed the ride its the first time I have been only to Mr Thompson's yesterday & I was pleased & interested looking at the plantations, the crops & the scenery. Bless us O my father & keep us from every evil. Tuesday 23rd A cloudy day, had a light shower about sundown. Col J. Bil­lups called this morning. Miss Mary Pittard &myself rode 1867 69 over to Capt Dean's this afternoon to see he found him quite unwell at least in bed. I suppose as much old age as sickness he is about eighty one years old, & had a fall a few days ago, but I would not be surprised if he never recovers. Read in Second Chron­icles. Wednesday 24th A cloudy day, some little rain. Col J. Billups called. Read in Second Chronicles. "Both riches and honour [sic] come of thee, & thou reignest [sic] over all; & in thy hand is power & might." Thursday 25th A rainy day. I think no one has called today, but the Indians. received a letter from Ed, one from Miss M.B. Anglin & one from Rough. Read in Second Chronicles. Friday 26th A fair day. Mrs J. Morton called this morning, wrote to Miss M. B. Anglin. Read in Second Chronicles. Stump went to town this afternoon has not returned can't think what detains him unless he has gone to the show tonight; it seems to me a poor time to be going to places of amusement now when we can scarcely live. Saturday 27th A fair day. Joe Thompson spent an hour or so here this afternoon, when we got up this morning we found that some one had taken a horse saddle & bridle from our lot, so Stump left soon after sunrise & has not returned now late at night but have no time piece so cant tell what time it is; but after supper Miss Mary & myself were sitting here when some one knocked & on opening the door some eight or ten yankees & one negro (old Jones) come in, asking "is McManaman here?" & if I had any objections to searching my house, as I did not object they searched every room & every closet; soon after they left two or three of them came back saying they had lost one of the company, hope is not any where near here at least hope we will not hear anything from him or any of the rest again tonight. Read in Second Chronicles. Hope we shall sleep and not be disturbed. Sunday 28th A cloudy morning commenced raining about 2 oclock [sic] & have had several hard rains & now raining. Read in Ezra. Stump and Dan Fesler come about 2 oclock [sic] rode all day yesterday all night last night and until 2 today, heard nothing of the horse. I feel truly grieved at the accident, it is a fine colt & belongs to Mr Fry of Athens, hope we will get it very soon. Monday 29th A cloudy morning, a bright afternoon. Dan Fesler called this morning & again this afternoon. Joe Thompson came this afternoon, 1867 70 & put up my window shades, feel very much obliged to him for it. Miss Sallie & Miss America Pittard spent an hour or two here this afternoon. I have been very busy all day washing a fixing my flowers, always had someone to help me until today, have been on my feet all day & lifting & carrying them from the piazza to the dining room, so feel almost entirely worn out, can scarcely move. O to think of my troubles & sorrows, but I do love flowers, cant help it, and must work with them, if I can sit up I must have something to do with them. Read in Ezra. Tuesday 30th A cloudy day, commenced raining since nine oclock [sic] tonight. Col J. Billups called this morning. Read in Ezra. I have been very busy again fixing my flowers, am nearly done, have decided to sell most of them if I can. I can do very well with them during the summer but cant attend to them in winter, have not been obliged to expose myself in many years & am too old now to begin it, & if I were to learn a negro this year, next year have to learn another. I cant think of anything that is a pleasure. I love my flowers from my very heart but rather see them than see them suffer next winter, lost many last winter. May 1st A cloudy morning cleared off soon after sunrise cool & very windy has seemed very little like May day. Col J. Billups called this morning. Jake Fesler this afternoon. Miss Mary went to stay all night with her mother. miss her very much, have just began to depend on her. Read in Ezra, wrote to Mr White to get him to sell my flowers, hope he will do so for me, & sincerely hope I may sell one hundred dollars worth. Thursday 2nd A fair day some wind but not unpleasant. Had some post this morning. Col J. Billups here this morning. Dan Fesler here this afternoon. Read in Nehemiah; wrote a note to M. N. White; O for peace & plenty; "O for a closer walk with God, A calm & heavenly frame, A light to shine upon the road, that leads me to the lamb." Friday 3rd A fair day, much warmer. I think no one has called today. 1867 71 Miss Mary & myself went to the station this afternoon bought several things; came home before sundown; read in Nehemiah; Saturday 4th A cloudy morning bright afternoon; several called, wrote to Mr White & received a note from him, & a letter from Nannie Pottle; Read in Nehemiah; I have been scouring the water buckets today & my arm pains me so much can scarcely use it, & my hands blistered; god orders, directs or permits all things, therefore, whatever is, is right; Be pleased O my father to grant me patience, fortitude & perseverance. Sunday 5th A cloudy day rained some little just at night; Mrs Bushy­head & her children, Dan Fesler, Ted Snead & Mr Christy here this afternoon; Read in Nehemiah, Esther & one chapter in Job; Monday 6th A rainy day. I believe no one has been here but Mrs Bushy­head; Read in Job, Mr J. Morton called this afternoon wrote to Lieut R. Irwin; Tuesday 7th A rainy morning, cool & windy afternoon, sufficiently cold now for frost, hope the wind will blow all night so we may escape it; Mary Bone here this morning. Mr Nunn here about noon; wrote to Mr England, to L.D. Mitchell & to T.A. Hill. Read in Job. Wednesday 8th A fair cool windy day. No one called during the day; Read in Job. Stump has been ploughing all the week was in very rough ground today & is about broken down; I feel so much better since he has commenced working himself feel now like we will make something this year; bless me O my father & grant us every good, enough to eat, & a good crop, & teach us to love & serve thee; Thursday 9th A fair day. Col J. Billups & Mrs Bushyhead here this morning; Recieved a letter from Ed & one from Dick's wife. Read in Job. It seems to me every thing works wrong with me. Stump had eight dollars to buy chickens for a friend, put it in his pocket & lost it, I of course must make it good; what is to become of me? Friday 10th A fair windy day. Col J. Billups called this morning. Mr & Mrs Brittain called at the gate, wrote to Ed, to Dick's wife & to Lou Frierson, Read in Job. Miss Mary went to stay all night with her mother; 1867 72 Saturday 11th A fair warm day more like spring that any we have had; I spend the morning at Mrs Graham's, Miss Pittard & several children spent the afternoon here, Mrs Bushyhead here this evening. Mr Cockran here tonight; Read in Job. Received a letter from Lieut R. Irwin, he cant spare or furnish the money to get me corn & what on earth am I to do? I know if he had it or could get it I could have it, but if he cant what am I to do? Bless me O my father & help me for Christ's sake help me; Sunday 12th A fair warm day. Joe Thompson called this morning & Stump went with him to church near Mrs Young's; both came home to dinner; Mrs Winfry spent the afternoon here; Read in Job. Monday 13th A fair day. several called at the gate but I think no one has been in Read in Job. I have had the headache all day feel wearied tonight. Stump went to town this morning bought some tea & lost it before he got home, Several passed but all deny having seen it, some of them must have picked it up. Tuesday 14th A fair windy day. Several called. Read in Job. Wrote to Lieut. Irwin; "O for a heart submissive meek." Wednesday 15th A fair windy day. Several called. Read in Job. Stump received a note saying Mr Ivy's colt was at Mr Jackson's. I hope so but fear its not so, cant think we will ever see the colt or saddle again if it had been stolen from any other place it might be found but it seems to me everything I have or ever did is gone, no good luck for me I fear. Thursday 16th A cloudy day. Stump left early this morning to get the colt, & about three oclock [sic] Mr Blackman came with it. Mr Jackson sent it up & claimed the reward. I think there is something wrong about it from the way Mr Blackman talks, very strange they should keep it so long & advertisements all round him, & I think the saddle & bridle are somewhere near him. Read in Job. Jake Fesler here this morning, Poor Stump suppose he has had a fatiguing day's ride, wish he would come. 1867 73 Friday 17th A fair day. Mr & Mrs K. Brittian called this morning. Mr & Mrs Bone set with us till bedtime. Read in Job. Stump has not returned & feel very uneasy about him, when he got to the Jackson's yesterday of course he heard they had sent the colt home, then he had nothing to do but to come home, unless he heard something about the thief or the saddle & bridle & some­times I think he is on the hunt of them & may be killed I can but feel unhappy then I have had so many bad dreams of late that makes me feel more restless than T would otherwise Saturday 18th A fair cool windy day; I got up this morning feeling so unhappy about Stump that I sent a hand to work for Mr Thompson & got Joe Thompson to go & see about him. He promised if he had left for home to let me hear immediately & if him & Mr Fairs were both gone he would not send any word, but I thought he would be here tonight certain & as he has not come I dont know what to think of it, feel some better than I did this morning, for surely he would have written if any thing serious were the matter, but still feel very unhappy; 0 to think of the troubles & trials I have to encounter. Joe Thompson & Dr D. Richardson here this morning. Mr & Mrs W. N. White here this after­noon. Miss A. & Miss J. Pittard here tonight. Wrote a note to Joe Thompson. Read in Job. Be pleased O my father to help me, for thou hast said. "The needy shall not always be forgotten." then for thy word's sake remember me; Sunday 19th A cloudy day. I think no one called during the day. I felt some better about Stump untill [sic] after dark became very restless & went out after nine oclock [sic] to send another after him, while I was talking about it him & Joe Thompson come. I feel very much relieved but the horse is sick & left at Mr Davis'. Stump is so careless he did not see her fed & she is badly foundered, hope she will get over it soon; Read in Job & commenced Psalms; I thank thee gracious father for thy great &merciful kindness towards us, teach us to love & serve thee; Monday 20th A rainy day. Several called. Read in Psalms. Bless us O my father & help us. It seems to me every day brings new troubles; I have been trying to read Pollard's history of the wars; 1867 74 Tuesday 21st A rainy morning cool & windy afternoon, wind now blowing like March; Mr Baily here this morning. Read in Psalms. Wednesday 22nd A fair cool windy day, has felt like fall all day; Read in Psalms; My eyes pain me so much I can scarcely write have been tucking a shirt bosom have not tried to do such a thing for twenty years. Wrote a note to Miss M.A. Frierson; Thursday 23rd A fair cool windy day. I must think we had frost yesterday & today. My greenhouse plants show the effects of the cold; Col J. Billups here this morning. Mrs & Miss Moore of Oglethorpe here tonight. I was so busy trying to finish a shirt for Stump that I have not had my nap today conse­quently feel very much fatigued. Read in one Psalm; & feel very much like I would like to go to sleep if my company would; Friday 24th A cloudy day, had several sprinkles of rain & since dark a steady rain; Col J. Billups, J. Fesler & Dick Mobley called before dinner. Mr Fesler dined here; & several called since dinner; Received a note from Miss L. & one from Miss M. A. Frierson; Wrote one to Miss L. Dougherty; Read in Psalms; heard this morning that Mrs V. Mayne & her daughter saw Ed McManan [sic] as they went to the Station & heard this afternoon that the report was current in Athens so expect I shall have the garrison here again searching; this after­noon we heard that one of the neighbour [sic] boys had been at work was in his shirt sleeves, bosom opens very dirty returning from the field met Mrs M's carriage in the road & not liking to meet the ladies in such a flight ran in the woods & hid behind a tree for them to pass, they seeing him thought it was Ed held a consultation, come very near going back home, but each one declared it to be him; the young man had no thought of frightening them & of course never once thought of being taken for Ed, only tried to hide as he did not like to appear before ladies as he was, & I suppose now it be believed as he would not like to tell how it was; 1867 75 Saturday 25th A rainy day. Several called. I have been busy all day again making Stump's shirts. Read in Psalms. Sunday 26th A cloudy day, but I think nearly fair now; Several called at the gate but I think no one come in; My sick mare come [sic] this evening looking very much worsted but I think well; feel truly thankful to have her at home again safe & well; Read in Psalms; Monday 27th A fair pleasant day & no wind the first time its cleared off without wind; Several called. Mr Hagewood (the tax receiver) here tonight. Wrote to Mrs Frierson this morning. Received a note from Lou Frierson this afternoon & answered it; Read one Psalm; Tuesday 28th A fair with a light thunder shower this afternoon Capt Dean & his son here this morning. Col Billups & Miss Luckie Dougherty came about ten oclock [sic]. Miss D. still here. W. H. Morton called. Read one Psalm. I feel so perfectly delighted to see Luckie, makes me think so much of old times; Wednesday 29th A fair warm day, a thunder shower this afternoon with a good season; Col J. Billups called this morning. Miss Dougherty left with him; Read one Psalm; Thursday 30th A cloudy day. Miss E. Thompson spent the day here. I enjoyed her company but have not been well my back has troubled me greatly I must sew having no one to do it for me, & it keeps me all the time wearied can scarcely sit up sometimes but keep trying to work; Read one Psalm Friday 31st A fair day pleasant & considerable wind; Mr J. Morton & others called; wrote a note to Miss E. Thompson. Read several Psalms; expected D. Mitchell & Miss Dougherty tonight, cant see why they have not come; my back has pained me so much I could scarcely sit up all day, yet I have sewed all day; The goats got into my early corn & eat it off the ground & it was waist high, it seems to me every thing I have is to be destroyed am almost ready to give up; Bless us O my father & keep us from every evil; June 1st A cloudy day sprinkled several times; Joe Thompson & others called; Read several Psalms. I have often tried to wear corsetts but never could, since I have been sewing so steadily my back pains me so much I sent today & got me one & feel like I shall like it. Hope it will help. 1867 76 Sunday 2nd A rainy day, had some two or three hours sun this afternoon. Joe Thompson called this morning. W. Hodgson & R. Reeves here this afternoon. Read several Psalms; & one sermon. Monday 3rd a fair day &pleasant. Miss E. Thompson spent the day here. Joe Thompson called. Mr & Mrs Nunn spent the day here; Miss J. & H. Pittard & Miss L. Frierson here tonight. Read one Psalm. I feel very much fatigued. Tuesday 4th A fair cool day. Miss L. Frierson & myself spent the morning at Capt Dean's. Mr M. P. Davis came home with us, & while at supper Mr Camel & Mr Taylor came. Read in Psalms. Wednesday 5th A fair warm day. Lou Frierson & myself spent the morning at Mr J. Mortons', while we were gone Mr Castles Rembert called here I do indeed regret not seeing him. I love him very much & would be so happy to see him. Mr & Mrs N. L. Barnard here this afternoon. Read on Psalm. Thursday 6th A cool cloudy day. Lou Frierson &myself went to Athens, called at Gen. Frierson's then to the Hill's to get him fix my harness, then to Col J. Billups' then to Mr L. Hoover's, then spent an hour at Mrs Savage's & home before sundown. I feel very much fatigued. Read one Psalm. Castle Rembert called on me. I was very much pleased to see him. Friday 7th A cool cloudy windy day, more like fall than summer; Col J. Billups here this morning; Recieved [sic] a note from Miss E. Thompson answered it; Read one Psalm; Saturday 8th A fair morning, cloudy afternoon I rather think we shall have rain before day; several called. Read one Psalm. Sunday 9th A fair day. Prince Hodgson & Miss Bishop spent. the afternoon here; Read several Psalms & one sermon; wrote to J.C. Kohlheim; "There's a divinity that shapes our ends, Rough hew them as you will." Monday 10th A fair, cool windy day; Mrs Susan Mayne called at the gates this morng, its been ten months since I saw her 1867 77 therefore felt pleased to see her; went with her up to Mrs Busyhead's to get some baskets, to Mr Bishop, Miss L. Hodgson & her brother here this afternoon, oh then a wild yankee just here on a visit. I said more to him perhaps than I should, but he was not offended as I did not intend it, cant help spending my opinion even in the presence of yankees. Read one Psalm; Bless us O my father & keep us from every evil ; Tuesday 11th A cloudy cool windy day, more like October than June; Mr Ivy, Mrs J. Morton here this afternoon, two gentlemen travelers here tonight; Read several Psalms; I commenced getting up my summer clothes this morng & can find none, have not positively a change of under clothes & two hansome [sic] dresses gone, how is it? surely I must be worse than any other, something must be the matter, Bless me O my father & grant that I may find some of them; Wednesday 12th A cool cloudy day, several called; Read one Psalm; I have had considerable headache this evening & have felt very sad all day; feel like nearly everything I had has been stolen & no hopes of ever getting them again. cant understand it; nobody has lost as I have; Thursday 13th A fair day & I think more like summer than any day we've had; Lou Frierson & myself spent an [hour?] or two at Mr Thompson's very pleasantly this morng; Col Billups called during our absence & left me a note from Miss L. Dougherty saying her mother had come & all would have on Saturday could not come here & I must go there so Stump & myself went up late this afternoon called on Mrs Barnard & took tea with Miss A. Billups, called on Mrs Frierson Left Lou & brought Mary Ann home with us; I have enjoyed the evening very much indeed; Read one Psalm. Friday 14th A fair warm day, needing rain very much indeed. Col J. Billups & others called. Received a note from Mrs T. Moore & a letter from Asa Chandler. Read several Psalms. Mary Pittard went home yesterday evening said she would be home this evening but has not come. I fear something has occured [sic] unexpected. Saturday 15th A cloudy day at least but little sunshine & some thunder since supper & some little rain. Read one Psalm. Mr R 1867 78 Hemphill here tonight. I feel very sad & scarcely know how to act. Sunday 16th A cloudy day, had a thunder cloud but no rain. We think we are needing it badly but God knows best Read several Psalms several called during the day, wrote a note to Mrs T Moore. Monday 17th A cloudy day, a thunder shower this afternoon & very good rain without wind. I feel truly thankful for it. Bless us O my father accept our thanks for this good season & be pleased to grant us good timely seasons & good crops. Read on Psalm. Stump's leg or knee pained him so much he had to quit ploughing & come to the house I fear he is a cripple for life poor fellow he was so much exposed during the war I fear he never will be well again. Bless us & help us for Christ's sake. Tuesday 18th A cloudy day. Miss M.A. Frierson & myself rode over to Mr Nunn's intending to make a visit to them & Capt Dean; but it commenced raining just as we got there & rained very hard until nearly dark, we then came home & had some rain as we came on & thunders & lightning. I feel thankful we got home safe, feel thankful also for the rain though we think we have had enough for the present. Bless us gracious father & grant rain & sunshine, seed time & harvest, Read one Psalm. Received a letter from Ed. Wednesday 19th A cloudy morng brought afternoon with considerable wind; quite cool now. Mrs Fesler & Jake Fesler spent the day here. Wrote to Miss E. Thompson. Received a note from her; & wrote a letter to Ed. Read several Psalms. I feel very much wearied tonight as I have not laid down. Thursday 20th A cloudy morning, fair afternoon. Miss Frierson & myself spent the morng at Mr Thompson's, & Stump went with us this afternoon. Col J. Billups called this morng. Mr Bushyhead this afternoon. Read one Psalm. Received a note from Mr C. Cohen. "Accept the Lord build the house they labour in vain that build it." 1867 79 Friday 21st A cloudy day with several light showers. Col J. Billups called this morng & Miss M.A. Frierson went to town with him. Read several Psalms. Wrote a note to Mr J.C. Cohen. Saturday 22nd A cool cloudy windy day, had several showers of rain, Mr J [?] & Mrs [?] spent the day here, Read two psalms, Have mercy upon us O Lord according to thy loving kindness, according unto [ ] of my tender mercies blot out all our transgressions"; Sunday 23rd A Rainy day, wrote to Mrs Sessions, read several Psalms, it seems to me Sunday is always a bad day, I think I want to go to church but something keeps me every Sunday; Read one sermon since supper; Monday 24th Raining again today, but I rather think it will be fair tomorrow -- Several called, Read in Proverbs; "Why art thou cast down O my soul & why art thou disquieted within me, trust thou in God." Tuesday 25th A fair warm day; Col J. Billups & others called, rec'd a letter from Ed, poor boy feel sorry for him, wish he would do right; Read in Proverbs; "Could I in stature reach the pole, Or grasp the ocean in my span, I'd still be measured by my soul; The mind's the stature of the man." Wednesday 26th A fair warm day, a thunder cloud about one oclock [sic] with very little rain, another at dark with a pretty shower, I thank thee O my father for the great & marvelous kindness towards us, Be pleased to bless us & grant us good crops this year, Col J. Billups called this morning, read in Proverbs. Thursday 27th A fair morning; had a thunder cloud about 2 oclock [sic] with a very hard rain; Jake Fesler here in the afternoon, Read in Proverbs, Wrote a letter to Ed, Rec'd a note from Dr T. G. Macon; Friday 28th A fair day, Lolly Hull called this morning; Several this afternoon; Lieut Irwin here tonight, feel so much pleased to see him; think him one of my best friends, Read in Proverbs; Saturday 29th A fair day, although cloud this afternoon but no rain Wellborn Hull spent the day here I enjoyed it very much indeed [ ? ] 1867 80 pleased at any time to see my friends, Read in Proverbs; Sunday 30th A fair hot day, I think the warmest day we have had, J. Thompson here this morning, Dr Mitchell, Mr & Mrs Horner & their children here this afternoon, Miss Amanda Pittard here tonight, Read in Proverbs I was anxious to go to church but Stump seemed unwilling to go, & I thought it too warm to go & come at twelve oclock [sic] alone in a buggy & no umbrella; July 1st A fair hot morning, had a thunder cloud about 12 or 1 oclock [sic], no rain but continued hot and cloudy till yet, I went to Athens this morning called to see Mr Mitchell, then to see Mrs Lou Frierson found her quite unwell, went to Mrs Bradford's at eleven oclock [sic], dined and spent the afternoon came home before sundown, rec'd letter from Ed, read in Proverbs; feel very much fatigued; Tuesday 2nd A cloudy warm day; several called; read in Proverbs, wrote a note to Mrs Bradford & one to Ed; Wednesday 3rd A fair day; considerable thunder but no rain several called; wrote a note to Miss E. Thompson, read one chapter in Proverbs; "A merry heart doth good like a medicin [sic], but a broken spirit who can bear"; Thursday 4th A cloudy day, some thunder but no rain; Mr Nunn & others called, Rec'd a note from Miss E. J. Thompson, Read in Proverbs, this is the 4th of July & before the war everyone thought of it & rejoiced it, now we have given it up to the Yankees & negroes, I hear there were about three thousand negroes in Athens today, but as the Yankees refused to let them have anything to drink the day passed quietly, Friday 5th A fair day, thunder again, but no rain, we think we need it now, wrote a note to Miss C Bradford, Read in Proverbs Saturday 6th A fair day, had thunder several times, but no rain; Several called at the gate but I think no one in the house; read in Proverbs; I have felt very unwell for two days & fear I shall not be able to sit up another day; Sunday 7th A fair day, some thunder but no rain, we hope 1867 81 we will have a good rain tomorrow, but not [ ? ] will for God knows best, Mrs W Pittard spent the day here; Read in Proverbs, & one sermon tonight, I thought I would go to church today but have not been well for some days & so very warm I was afraid to to try it is an open buggie; but do hope I can go next Sunday, Read through Ecclesiastes "How sweet upon this sacred day The best of all the seven To cast our earthly cares away And think of God in heaven" Monday 8th A cloudy day, had a thunderstorm about two oclock [sic] & a very good rain, I am so truly thankful for; Be pleased O my father to grant us rain & sunshine, seedtime & winter & summer & a good & plentiful crop this year; Miss Emma and Molly Thompson here this afternoon read in Proverbs I have been busy fixing and making a collar for some days [ ] hope will not have to do it again soon; Read through the Song of Solomon Tuesday 9th A fair hot day, Col J. Billups called this morning, Read in Isiah; I really feel very unwell, my side and back pain me very much indeed, have been very busy sewing & it does not agree with me; God Bless the yankees for all my trouble & pain; Wednesday 10th A fair day, cool & windy this morng; Mr Nunn & Col J. Billups here this morning. Received a note from Dr T. G. Macon answered it. feel better tonight, have rested more; Wrote to Ed; Read in Isaiah. Thursday 11th A fair day, & very warm. Miss E. Thompson called this morning. Miss M. Pittard & myself spent the day at her father's came home before sundown & called on Mrs Reynolds Read in Isiah; Friday 12th A fair warm day, had a thunder cloud this afternoon but very little rain; I think no one has been here today. Mary & myself went to town was in several shops & called to see Lou & Mary Ann Frierson found them better but both in bed. Florrence also in bed with a boil, came home before eleven oclock [sic]. Read in Isaiah; 1867 82 Saturday 13th A cloudy day, had two thunder clouds but no rain; I would like to have rain but not my will; a gentleman & two ladies called thinking it would rain, Joel & W. Dean here this afternoon; Read in Isaiah; I have felt very sad today thinking of my losses & trials; Sunday 14th A cloudy day. Joe Thompson here this afternoon; Stump went to Pleasant grove church this morng. Mr Harvil or Harvy preached. I regret not going but it was raining a little & I was not sure he would be there; Read in Isaiah; & one sermon tonight; This is Dick's birthday, wonder if he has thought of me today; Monday 15th A cloudy day, no rain; J. Thompson called this morng. Read in Isaiah; Wrote to Mr Anllis Jackson & to Mrs E. Williamson; Tuesday 16th A cloudy day, had a light shower about 12 oclock [sic] but not enough to run, & I feel very much afraid we will not have it in time, but not my will God knows best; Read in Isaiah; Wednesday 17th A cloudy day at least more cloud than sunshine but no rain; think we need it very much but fear we will not have it soon; Mrs Hodgson here this afternoon; Read in Isaiah; Thursday 18th A cloudy-dark morning, thought once we would have a storm, but we have had no rain & looks very much like we shall not. Mrs J. Mort on & her daughter called this morng. Read in Isaiah; Sunday 21st A fair day; I went to Athens the 19th in the morng. Called on Mrs Frierson, then to Mr N. L. Barnard's, took dinner & in the afternoon called on Col, J, Billups, on Mrs Ben Hill, then too supper with Mrs Mitchell & set [sic] till bedtime, spent the night at Mr Barnard's. Saturday morng Mrs B. & myself called on Mrs Dr C. Long & Mrs Franklin then to Mr Barnard's staid [sic] untill [sic] this morning, Stump came up early & him & myself went to the Baptist Church heard Mr Ivy preach a good sermon from, "God forbid that I should glory save in the cross of the Lord Jesus Christ 1867 83 By whom the world is crucified unto me, & I unto the world;" I felt happy to be able to be there once more & hear a good sermon, &I thank God for all his goodness to me & mine, T enjoyed my visit very much indeed my friends all seemed pleased to see me, & am truly thankful that I went & come safe & found all well & safe at home as far as I have seen. Read in the Testament while in Athens, & one sermon tonight; Florrence Frierson came home with us; Monday 22nd Another hot dry day, & no prospect of rain, I think we need rain very much; F. Frierson left this afternoon. I would have gone up with her but was too unwell. Received a letter from Mrs S. E. Sessions. Read in Isaiah. Tuesday 23rd Another hot dry day. Col, J. Billups called this morng. Tim Barnard came with him to stay all night but become restless & went home this afternoon. Mr & Mrs Ivy spent the afternoon with us, Received a note from J. T. Lumpkin answered it; Read in Isaiah, & some in Paradise Lost. Received a letter from Col L. J. Deupree last Friday; Wednesday 24th Another hot dry day, I think the most unpleasant day we have had, we surely do suffer for rain. Col J, Billups called this morng; Read in Isaiah; Wrote a note to Miss E. Thompson; Thursday 25th Another dry hot day, seems very like we shall not have rain soon; several called. Received a letter from Mr A. M. Jackson; Stump & myself went to Mr J. Morton's this morning intending to come home to dinner, but con­cluded to stay all day, so came home about sundown; spent the day very pleasantly, but could not sleep so feel fatigued tonight. Read in Isaiah. Friday 26th A fair day, had a thunder shower with a pretty shower about 3 oclock [sic] if we can have as much tomorrow it will do I think, we have not had enough to run in the yard for nineteen days, every thing is so much burnt it will take more to do but God knows I am truly thankful for this with every other bless­ing, for I receive many. Wrote to Col L. J. Deupree. Read in Isaiah. Saturday 27th A fair day, several called during the day. Read in Isaiah; It seems to me I never will get through with my work. I am busy from morning till night, feel so much fatigued at night I can scarcely write; 1867 84 Sunday 28th A fair warm day. Stump & myself went to the Station to church heard Mr Hollyfield preach from, "The door was shut," but he was just beginning a revival & only tried to excite the congregation, said nothing about his text, came home to dinner, found some young men had been here. Read in Isaiah & commenced Jeremiah; Monday 29th A cloudy morning with several sprinkles of rain; W. H. Morton called & give me a muskmelon; Read in Jeremiah; Stump & myself went to the station since supper heard Mr Hollyfield preach one of the best revival sermons I ever heard from "Not this man, but Barabbas;" feel very much fatigued; Tuesday 30th A cool windy day. Col J. Billups called this morning. Charlie Barnard come with him to stay a few days, the children feel very near to me, from the intimacy that has ever existed between myself & the Dougherty family; read in Jeremiah; Stump C. Barnard & myself went to the Station to church since supper, not so much excitement as I expected, but they are certainly trying to continue the meeting & have a revival; after eleven when we got home. Wednesday 31st A cool cloudy windy day; some rain since sundown. Col J. Billups called this morng Mary came home this evening; Read in Jeremiah. I feel very unwell, have been very busy at work trying to finish Stump's shirt for him to wear to commencement & have been sitting in the door to see & the wind was so cold I think I have taken cold; but feel thankful was able to finish it & so very thankful for the rain; Thursday August the 1st A cold cloudy day. Several showers of rain this morng; I feel truly thankful for such good rains & just when we need it, two more such at the proper time will make my corn; indeed all is made but one field which is later than the other; Mr Ivy spent the day here to see his colt broke to harness. Read in Jeremiah. J. Thompson spent the day here; 1867 85 Friday 2nd A dark rainy day, had some hard showers & cold enough for fire all day; I think no one has been in the house all day. Read in Jeremiah; Saturday 3rd A fair day & pleasant, several called. Read in Jeremiah; I have not been well all day; Sunday 4th A fair day, had a hard rain about 2 oclock [sic]. Stump went to hear commencement sermon by Dr Lipscomb, the rain kept him till four oclock [sic] dined at Mr Hodgson's, two of the boys came home with him; he thinks perhaps Dr W. T. Brantley will preach in the Baptist church tonight I was almost crazy to go, have been in bed all day, but got up & ordered early supper to go, but was so sick found I could not sit up at home without riding there & back. I do indeed regret it, and sincerely hope I will meet him before he leaves. Read in Jeremiah. Monday 5th A fair day. J. Thompson & Mrs Kellum called, Miss H. Pittard here tonight. Read in Jeremiah. I have been in bed again all day; feel better now I hope. Tuesday 6th A cloudy day, at least more cloud than sunshine. Miss Pittard left, this morning. I think no one has called today. Stump gone again all day & not yet returned hope he will be here before ten oclock [sic]. Read in Jeremiah. I have not suffered so much today but cant sit up & cant eat, have not eat [sic] a meal since Saturday dinner. Received a letter from Rough. Bless Stump O my father & bring him back safe & sound & sober & steady. I feel truly thankful that I am better and that I have suffered no more, & can sit up at all. Wednesday 7th A fair day, had a thunder cloud about 4 oclock [sic] & commenced raining about sundown, seems as though we will have a rainy night. Stump staid [sic] in town all night came home this morng about sunrise. Mr Foster came with him, took breakfast, put on clean clothes & went back has not yet returned, hope he will come before we go to bed. Read in Jeremiah. I have felt much better today & hope I will be up tomorrow. Sam (negro) brought me six peaches the first I have seen, feel truly thankful to him for them, have enjoyed the day very much. Read­ing Milton's Paradise Lost. Thursday 8th A cloudy day some little rain. J. Thompson came this morng to work on the gin. Stump came home about twelve 1867 86 oclock [sic]. Mr Mobly & Mr Bone here this afternoon. Read in Jeremiah, I feel much better have been up nearly all day. So truly thankful for it, I have much very much to be thankful for, & still cant act or think right. "Man know thyself, all wisdom centers there" Friday 9th A rainy day, one hard rain. Several gentlemen called. Read in Jeremiah. Have not felt so well today, but been up all day. Finished reading Par­adise Lost, enjoyed it very much. Have been looking over the minutes of "the Trail Creek (now Pleasant Grove) church, found it interesting & amusing. The church was formed in 1796, a few months before Mr Greer was born; its a pity it should be broken up after standing so long; expect to have preaching there tomorrow hope we shall have a good day. Saturday 10th A rainy day. Mr J. Morton called this morng as he left Mr Harvy Britton come [sic], as he left Mr E. Clayton & wife come [sic], when they left Mary Pittard & myself went to Pleasant grove heard Mr Egbert Harwell preach or rather exhort, but read the 23rd Psalm & founded his discourse on part of that, "The Lord is my sheppard [sic] I shall not want;" I thought done very well indeed, he is not an educated man but seems to be a good man; himself & Mr Britton dined here then Mr & Mrs Clayton called again this afternoon. Read in Jeremiah; I feel better but cant eat & not well at all; but enjoyed preaching very much & still felt sad to be at the church have spent many happy hours there in past years, "This world is a fleeting show, For man's illusion given." Sunday 11th A fair day, thunder cloud this afternoon but no rain all went to Pleasant grove heard Mr Harwell preach from the 2nd chapter & 8th verse of Philippians, a good plain, practical sermon. I think he will suit the neighbours [sic], all pleased today anyhow, & I do hope we will yet have a church here; D. Mitchell, D. Hughes, J. Thompson & others called. Read in Jeremiah & one sermon; still unwell, really not able to be up; 1867 87 Monday 12th A fair day. Mr Nunn & others called; Recieved a note from Miss Lou Frierson, answered it. Read in Jeremiah; Stump went to Watkins­ville to court, A. Dent come [sic] home with him get here while we were at supper; feel better but not well; Tuesday 13th A fair day considerable wind; Mr & Mrs E. P. Clayton spent the day here; I enjoyed the day very much indeed, two Misses Britton spent the afternoon here; wrote to Mr England received an answer; Read in Jeremiah; Wednesday 14th A cloudy day, had several showers, & one good rain last night; Mrs Kellum called, W. Dean come home with Stump & took supper & Stump went home with him, so we are alone again tonight; Read in the Lamentations of Jeremiah; Wrote to Dalt Mitchell received an answer. Wrote to Miss Lou Frierson; Thursday 15th A fair day. Col J. Billups called this morng. Miss L. Frierson come down with him to stay some days; her & myself rode over to Capt Dean's this afternoon. Read in Lamentations of Jeremiah; Friday 16th A fair day. Col J. Billups called this morng. Mrs Winfry & Miss L. Biggers this afternoon; Read in Lamentations; Saturday 17th A fair day, several called, about nine oclock [sic] Stump come home; while we were at dinner three yankees & old Carter come [sic] again for the box that I hold or promised to hold untill [sic] Carter pays me. I refused to give it up. They said they were ordered to take it. I told them they could break the lock, they started, (I think to frighten me) I said nothing. They said no use using any force I had the key. I said yes, but will not give it to you or Maj. Knox; he said if he were ordered to break the lock he would have to do it. I said certainly, you must obey orders, they took dinner with us & seemed pleasant, but said their orders were to take the box or Stump, & to make him walk there, (he rode) when Stump went in he asked him about it, he told him he had nothing to do with it, it was my affair entirely, Maj. Knox said, so I understand, the box shall come. I'm done with you, I then wrote up to Co1. Billups for his opinion, he says he thinks acted right. T would not be surprised if he arrests me next Monday; Received a note from Col Billups & a letter from J.C. Rembert. Read in Lamentations; 1867 88 Sunday 18th A fair day; All went to Pleasant grove this afternoon; heard Mr Stone preach a good sermon from the 23rd verse of the 6th chapter of Romans. Read in Ezekiel; Received a note from Col J. Billups, wrote one to Mrs E. P. Clayton; Wednesday 21st I went to Athens on the morng of the 19th called at Dr Moore's, he went to see Maj. Knox & settled the difficulty. I dined at Gen. Frierson's, in the afternoon called on Mrs J.M. Phinizy & her sisters, on Mrs Cherbonnier, on Mrs Savage; Mrs Frierson &myself took tea with Mrs Nesbit went to Mr E. P. Clayton's after nine oclock [sic] at night & staid [sic] untill [sic] Tuesday afternoon, the Mrs Clayton & myself called on Mrs Barnard, I then spent the night with Mrs M. Bradford & come home this morng. enjoyed the visit very much indeed; feel truly thankful that I went & come safe, have been well & find all well at home; Read in Job & Psalms during my stay; Several called here during my absence. Mrs Kellum called this afternoon for some medicine. Read in Ezekiel; we had a good rain last night. "Praise ye the Lord my heart shall join, in work so pleasant so divine, My days of praise shall ne'er be past. While life &health & being last." Thursday 22nd A fair day. Col J. Billups called, & about four oclock [sic] Mr D. Deupree & Mrs L. Lumpkin came, Mr D. is just from Mississippi ; feel happy to see him, we have been up talking untill [sic] late. Read in the Testament. Mrs E. P. Clayton & her daughter called early this morng. Friday 23rd A fair day. Col J. Billups & Mrs T. Gresham, called this morng; Mr D. Deupree & Mrs Lumpkin left soon after dinner, I have really enjoyed his company; wrote to Mr F Lucas, read in Ezekiel; Saturday 24th A fair day, several called during the day, Mrs S. Reese spent an hour or so here this afternoon Mr & Mrs Barnard & Miss E [ ] came this morning will stay a day or two, Read in Ezekiel; 1867 89 Sunday 25th A cloudy day, all of us went to the corner preaching; Heard Mr Bass (I think was his name) preach from the 30th verse of the 25th chapter of [Thessalonians?] I thought [ ] much of the sermon for such a crowd,I heard there were about seventy preachers there & ex preachers something extra; I've carried our dinner & after eating and walking round we came home did not hear the two oclock [sic] sermons several came home with us, & a great many called on their way to town; Mr Barnard [ ] left about sundown, read in Ezekiel, I feel fatigued but less so than I have for many years after so much fatigued I thank thee O my father for thy great & merciful kindness towards us, I enjoyed the day very much indeed; Monday 26th A cloudy day, rained last night and several times today, Dr McCluskey & his daughter called while we were at dinner; read in Ezekiel wrote eight pages to Mr R.S. Thomas & six to Mr J.C. Rembert I have been quite unwell all day heard of the death of one of my Negroes today I think that is 10 or 12 who have died (that I have heard of; since they left me, poor things, they need some attention when sick and I fear they get none; Tuesday 27th A cloudy day; light showers, rained hard all night last night; several cold during the day red and Ezekiel Wednesday 28th A cloudy day, several called, Stump left about 2 oclock [sic] gone to an examination in Oglethorpe will be gone two nights; try to get one of Mr Thompson's daughters to stay with us but they would not, read in Ezekiel; Friday 30th A fair cool day, yesterday about 2 o'clock Miss Emmaline Thompson sent for me to go to her they thought Mrs Graham was dying, I went, she died about 4 o'clock I came home at 12 o'clock at night as they had an abundance of company went over there again this morning, Mr Parks preached her funeral sermon from “Be ye also ready for in such an hour as ye think not, the son of man cometh; I thought one of the best funeral sermons I ever heard; I came home with Dr Moore as Stump 1867 90 had the biggie & Mr Short had the wagon to go to town with the procession, & Stump is not yet come, can’t see what detains him but I think it is the last time I let him take my horse and budge, find it very unpleasant to be without a conveyance as I am some times compelled to got from home; Read in Daniel both days. Bless us O my father & "teach us so to number our days that we may apply our hearts unto wisdom,' Mrs Graham has been afflicted six years & yet died suddenly & unexpectedly, was & had been unwell perhaps, better for the last two months than she had during the six years was hurrying dinner with an intention of going from home when she was taken sick at nine & died at four oclock [sic] ; in the midst of life we are in death, grant gracious father that I may not die suddenly; Saturday 31st A cool fair day nearly cold enough for frost tonight; I spend an hour or so at Mrs Graham's this morning, then about the same length of time at Capt Dean's came home to dinner, found Miss A. Pittard here & while we were at dinner Stump & Miss E. Thompson came they eat with us, several gentlemen called. Read in Daniel; September 1st A cool fair morng, cloudy afternoon rather think it will rain tonight; Stump & myself went to live church heard Mr Norris preach dont know what he meant & think it doubtful whether he did, came home to dinner, then went over to see Capt Dean & his wife found them both better, but still in bed; Several called. Read in Daniel; Monday 2nd A cloudy day; some little rain last night & this morng; Dr Moore & his wife here this afternoon; Received a note from Miss Lou Frierson answered it, wrote to Ed a long letter; Read in Daniel; Tuesday 3rd A cloudy day some little rain; Several called. I spent an hour or so with Mrs V. Mayne this afternoon. Read in Hosea; Wednesday 4th A cloudy morng bright afternoon; Received a letter from Mr J.C. Rembert. I spent the morng with E. Thompson & Mary & myself spent the afternoon with Mrs Mack Thompson. Dr Brightwell here tonight. Read in Hosea; 1867 91 Thursday 5th A dark cloudy day rained several times before twelve oclock [sic] & about two oclock [sic] had a hard rain; Col J. Billups called this morng; Read in Hosea; Friday 6th A dark cloudy morng, several light showers before ten oclock [sic]. promised to meet Mr A. M. Jackson in Athens this morng, but thought it looked too much like rain. Stump went up & as Mr J. was there & everything ready he came home at twelve we dined & went up, met him at Mr Lucas', then called on Mr Frierson. Miss Lou Frierson came home with us; Mr & Mrs Nesbit called this morng. Col J. Billups & W. Dean here this afternoon; Read in Joel; Received a letter from Barnie Hundly; Saturday 7th A cloudy day; Lou & myself went to Pleasant grove heard Mr Harwell preach or reason from the 8th Psalm; I liked his remarks very much indeed; Mr Harwell, Miss H. & L. Pittard came to dinner with us. Mr H. still here, Dr Brightwell left this afternoon; Read in Amos. Sunday 8th Commenced raining before day, rained nearly all day so we had no preaching today. Mr Harwell left soon after dinner; Joe Thompson called about sundown & left at half after eight. Read in Amos, as we have had company all day I have read very Little & could not read the sermon as usual; Monday 9th A cloudy day; Mr Mack & Mr J. Thompson called this morng. Mr Harvil Britton & Dr Moore this afternoon; Read in Amos; Tuesday 10th A rainy day, several called. Read through Obadiah; wrote a note to Dr R. D. Moore & several letters of dismission [sic] (from Pleasant grove church)for Freedmen; I feel rather sad to think of the rain, the cotton bolls are dropping rapidly & we cant save our fodder (no use pulling it to rot) so we have stopt [sic]. Wednesday 11th A cloudy day several showers of rain. Miss L. Frierson left this morng & Miss L. Frierson come down. several called. Read through Jonah; I feel very uneasy about the weather do hope we shall have good weather soon; Thursday 12th A cloudy day, but very little rain; Col J. Billups here this morning; Miss E. Thompson dined here. Mr J. Morton here this afternoon. Read in Micah; 1867 92 Friday 13th A fair day; I feel very happy to see the sun once more & sincerely hope we will have a week or ten days sun; Read in Micah; Miss L. E. Frierson left this morning. Col Billups called this morng. Miss E. Thompson called twice. Dr Moore & his wife here this afternoon. Saturday 14th A fair day, several gentlemen called. Mrs J. Morton, W. H. Morton & Miss E. Morton called this afternoon; Read in Micah; I feel very sad tonight; Bless us O my father & keep us from every evil; Sunday 15th A cloudy day, that is more cloud than sunshine. Stump & myself left early this mornig, called at Gen. Frierson's then at Mr N. L. Barnard's then to Mars Hill to the association, heard Mr Mell preach one of the best sermons I ever heard from, "My God, My God why hast thou forsaken me?" explained the humanity & divinity, of Christ, Mr Nunnly then preached the missionary sermon, we met many of our friends & acquaintances, left before the two oclock [sic] sermon, called on Mrs H. Jennings I have not seen her for some years, perhaps ten or twelve she seemed pleased to see us, we then called on Mrs Giles Jennings she seemed almost crazy with Joy, we then took supper with Mrs Barnard, & arrived at home at ten oclock [sic]. Read a chapter in Nahum; Capt Dean & others called, Miss Julia Pittard is here with Mary; Monday 16th A foggy morning, bright afternoon. Miss E. Thompson & Mr Brown here this morng. Mrs Brown this afternoon. Read in Nahum. Received a letter from Ed. Tuesday 17th A fair day; Col Billups & Miss E. Thompson here this morning Maj R. Thomas, Mr A Dent, Mrs L. Harris, Mrs McDonough, Mrs E. Dawson, Miss B. & F. Harris, Miss _ ____ & Miss L. Thomas here this afternoon; Read through Habakkuk & Zephaniah; "From sublime Habakkuk flowed his burden & his lofty ode, And Zephaniah's voice of terror Proclaimed that wrath should light on error;" 1867 93 Wednesday 18th A bright day & rather warm. I went up to Athens this morning called on Mrs Franklin & her daughter spent an hour or so very pleasantly, called on Mrs Bradford & come home to dinner. Col J. Billups called this morng. Miss E. Thompson, Dr E. Newton & Mr S. Hardeman called this afternoon. Read through Haggai, Wrote to Ed. Thursday 19th A fair warm day; Mrs Kellum Miss E. Thompson & others called. Read in Zechariah; so many disappointments; "Why art thou cast down O my soul & why art thou disquieted within me;" Friday 20th A fair day & very warm. Miss E. Thompson & others called morng the day. Mrs N. L. Barnard, Miss E. Mitchell & Miss M. Franklin came just at night. Read in Zechariah; Saturday 21st A cloudy day with some little rain & a hard shower at dark, Mrs E. P. Clayton, Miss A. Clayton, Mr V. Smith & Mr Verdaree here this morng. Mrs Nesbit, Miss Hardeman & Miss T. Frierson here this afternoon, Mrs H. T,. Barnard & the girls left this afternoon & D. Mitchell came home with Stump tonight. I felt pleased to see him must always love all the soldiers particularly all of the Athens guards, & then Dalt has been here so much he feels almost like a child; Read one chapter in Malachi; I feel very sad tonight so many things to Joy trouble me. Dean called this afternoon. Sunday 22nd A cloudy day, at least more cloud than sunshine. Several called this morng. Mrs J. Morton, her daughter & Miss F. Frierson called this afternoon. Stump carried Mr Mitchell home this evening. Read or finished reading Malachi & commenced Matthew; Read a sermon tonight; Monday 23rd A cloudy morning, bright afternoon Miss E. Thompson & Mr A. Powers, called this morning. Mr & Mrs Nunn here this afternoon. Miss E. Thompson here tonight; Read in Matthew I have been busy all day making preserves, have not laid down today so feel very much fatigued; Tuesday 24th A fair day. Col Billups called this morning. Henry Pittard come this morng will stay untill [sic] tomorrow. She, Mary & myself spent an hour at Capt Dean's this afternoon found them better. Read in Matthew; I feel very sad tonight & cant tell how to do for the best. 1867 94 Wednesday 25th A fair cool day. Col J. Billups called this morng. Miss E. Thompson & others this afternoon. Mr & Mrs Brown came after supper & set till bed time. Miss H. Pittard left this morning & I sent Mary with her; she was of little or no use to me, think she was not worth her board, & she did not seem disposed to make any thing for herself; hope she will do well & be happy; Read in Matthew; Thursday 26th A fair day. Mr H. Brittian called this morng. Mr W. Camel dined here. Miss E. Thompson called twice. Read in Matthew. Received a letter from Ed; Friday 27th A fair day. J. Dean & others called this morning. Dr E. Newton, Miss E. Thompson & Mr Platt this afternoon. Read in Matthew; have been busy all day have not had my regular nap so feel wearied; Saturday 28th A cloudy day; several called. Read in Matthew. I feel very sad & restless. Cotton has fallen to fifteen cents, cant see why, but its so, & I fear I shall not make enough to pay this year's expenses, think I shall owe about five hundred dollars, & fear I shall not make that much. Bless me O my father & help me, grant that I may make enough to pay all expenses & have enough left to live on next year; Sunday 29th A fair day. D. Mitchell & D. Hughes come this morning & went with Stump & myself to the Station heard Mr Myrack preach from the 16th verse of the 3rd chapter of John, a good sermon for the occasion, he is rather tedious, might have said all he said with half the words, came home to dinner, the young men left about sun down & we went again after supper heard him preach again from the 3rd chapter of Malachi 8th & 9th verses. I thought a much better than the one he preached in the morng; got home before ten oclock [sic], found all safe as far as I can see, feel truly thankful that I was able to go twice today & feel well; read in Mark; Monday 30th A cloudy day that in more cloud than sunshine; Mrs Mary King & Miss E. Bradford spent the morng here. Miss E. Thompson here at, twelve oclock [sic] Mr & Mrs Brown 1867 95 set with me untill [sic] bedtime as Stump went to church; Read in Mark; October 1st A cloudy cool day, considerable wind, several called I spent an hour or more at Capt Dean's this morng, & Stump & myself set [sic] an hour at Mr Brown's since supper; Read in Mark; Wednesday 2nd A fair warm day; D. Mobly & J. Fesler called this morning; Mr Nunn & others this afternoon. Mr & Mrs Brown set with us till nine oclock [sic]. Read in Mark. Miss E. Thompson dined here; wrote to Dick; Thursday 3rd A fair warm day; Miss E. Thompson called twice. Mr Short & his son here this afternoon. Dr Brightwell come about 5 oclock [sic] to stay a few days; Read in Mark; Mr Brow [Brown?]came down since supper said his wife was sick & I went up to see her. Stump & Dr Brightwell went to the Station to church so I only staid [sic] a few minutes, feel very unwell tonight & very sad; Saturday 5th Yesterday was a cloudy day, & commenced raining about 4 oclock [sic] had a hard rain, & as it seemed like being a good night. Dr Brightwell, Stump & myself went to Athens I called at Gen Frierson's all of us went to the Tableaux enjoyed it very much indeed but would not have gone such bad weather only Stump & Dr B. both were the musicians, it rained so much & it was so dark I staid [sic] all night with Mrs Frierson & it rained all the forenoon of today so did not come home untill [sic] after sundown; called to see Mr Mitchell did not find him at home, then called to see Mrs M. Bradford as her daughter is very low thought her dying. Read in Mark both days, slept very little last night none today & eat nothing so I feel very much wearied then Mrs Frierson & Miss M. A, Frierson come home with us. I have taken considerable exercise since we came home & now the young men playing the violin. I fear I shall not rest well tonight. I however feel truly thankful that we went & come safe & found all well. Sunday 6th A fair, cool windy day. Dr Brightwell left this morning. Mrs Frierson left this afternoon, Miss M.A. Frierson & myself spent a few minutes with Mrs Bone & a few with Mrs Brown, wrote a note to Mr Mitchell. Read in Luke. My head aches me so much I cannot read a sermon as usual; 1867 96 Monday 7th A fair day very cool & windy; Stump, Mary A. Frierson & myself left early this morng. Called a few minutes at Gen. Frierson's, then I called on Col Mitchell. He said I must go to Watkinsville, so Stump & myself went there called at Mr Jackson's office settled my business there, then called on Mrs R. Richardson, dined with Mrs D. Richardson came on to Athens called at Gen. Frierson's & Miss S Frierson come home with me. I have enjoyed the day very much still I was quite cold this morng & again tonight feel very much fati­gued Read in Luke Tuesday 8th A fair cold windy day; Miss E. Thompson dined with us Mrs D. Ware & Mrs Lucy Wray called this afternoon. Received a note from Mr England. Read in Luke; Wednesday 9th A cloudy morning, bright afternoon, not so cold today but still cool; Miss E. Thompson called twice, Mrs Brown was sick & sent for me I went up & sent to Miss Thompson's for Dr Moore, he came & prescribed for her; wrote to Rough. Read in Luke; Thursday 10th A fair cool day. Miss E. Thompson here twice, Mr T. A. Hill & H. Grady here after sundown. Mr Short here since supper & Stump went hunting with him. Read in Luke; Friday 11th A fair cold windy day; Several called; Miss E. Thompson dined here. Read a chapter in Luke; I feel quite unwell tonight & very sad; Saturday 12th A fair cold windy day; Mr J. Morton called this morning; Miss S. Frierson & myself went to Pleasant Grove heard Mr Harwell preach from the 19th Psalm, his remarks were good. Mary & Henry Pittard came home with us will remain all night. Read in Luke; I expected, Mr T. Hill, H. Grady & two young ladies to spend today with me donot like to be disappointed, but suppose they did not do it willingly; I have been quite unwell all day & feel much worse now, fear I shall not sleep well tonight; Monday 14th Yesterday I was in bed all day with cold, have been up nearly all day today but still very unwell. Mary & Henry Pittard left yesterday morng. Miss S. Frierson went home in the afternoon & Miss L. Frierson come. Mr & Mrs Ivy & Miss E. Thompson here today. Read in John both days. Stump left this morning; 1867 97 Thursday 17th Have not written since Monday night, have been in bed all the time am now sitting up but can scarcely write my hand trembles so much; Col J. Billups, Mr & Mrs H. L. Brittian & others called Tuesday & Miss E. Thompson spent the night here. Mr Brown, Mr Bone & his brother & other gentle­men called on Wednesday, & today several called & Stump came home; I read today in John & Acts of the Apostles, couldn't read yesterday & Tuesday, feel so feeble I can write no more; Friday 18th A fair pleasant day. Miss E. Thompson, Col J. Billups & others called. I slept very little last night not so sick but troubled was sitting up greater part of the night & think I took fresh cold so have been very unwell again today but think I have less fever tonight & do hope I will be able to be up tomorrow. Wrote to Dr Moore & Col Billups this morng. Read in Acts. Received a note from Miss S. E. Frierson Saturday 19th A fair day. Mr J. Morton called twice. Lou Frierson left this morning. Read in Acts; wrote to Dr Moore; Mr & Mrs Brown took supper & set till bedtime with us. I hope I feel better tonight, but have been in bed nearly all day; Sunday 20th A cloudy day, at least more cloud than sunshine. Dr Moore & W. Dean here this morning. Mrs J. Morton & Mrs Waltower here this afternoon. Read in Acts. I have suffered more today than I have for several, feel really sick; Monday 21st A fair day, Mary Franklin & Mr Ivy called this morng, W. Dean since dinner. Miss E. Thompson dined here. Read in Acts; I hope I feel better tonight but very very sad; Tuesday 22nd A fair warm day. Mr Nunn, Mrs Kellum & a pedlar here this morng. Miss E. Thompson here twice; Read in Acts. I hope I feel better tonight but was very sick last night. Wednesday 23rd A cold cloudy windy day. Stump left soon after breakfast & has not yet returned nearly bedtime at least after supper, so I have been alone all day only Mr J. Morton called this morng & Miss E. Thompson called twice. Read in Romans. I have felt better all day, set up more & perhaps eat [sic] more; but very little at that, bless us O my father. Thursday 24th A fair cold, windy day for the season. Dr Moore, Mr & Mrs J. Morton & Miss E. Thompson here; Read in Romans. I hope I am some better but cant eat yet. 1867 98 Friday 25th A fair cold day, not so much wind as yesterday. Miss E. Thompson & others called; Read in Romans; Mr & Mrs Brown here at dark. Saturday 26th A cold cloudy day, some little rain. Stump went up to the show & did not return untill [sic] after dark, so I have been alone all day Mr & Mrs Brown, Jake Fesler, & two show men called. Read in first Corinthians; feel some better but in bed nearly all day; Sunday 27th A cold rainy day. I think no one has called read in First Corinthians, & in Young's Night thoughts so I have enjoyed the day, that is more than I have for some days have felt better today than I have for two weeks. Thank God from my heart that I feel better, & do hope I shall be better tomorrow, Indeed. I have been very sick & suffered much but thankful I suffered no more & so tru1y thankful that I am spared so long. Bless me O my father & grant me every good thou seest that I need & keep me from every evil, & 0 be pleased to keep me from the temptation of the world & from the Jeers & insults of my enemies; Monday 28th A fair cool windy day, it rained all night last night & untill [sic] after ten oclock [sic] this morng, but clear since then; Several called. Read in First Corinthians; I feel still better tonight have set up nearly all day, & feel so truly thankful for it. Bless me O my father & he1p me; Tuesday 29th A fair cold windy day. Miss Thompson &others called. Read in First Corinthians. Recieved a letter from Dick, happy to hear they are well & doing well; Bless me O my father & help me through once again; Wednesday 30th A fair cool windy day. Miss E. Thompson, Mr Coly & others here. Read in First Corinthians. Bless me O my father & help me I have been up nearly all day but feel very little better if any; Thursday 31st A real cold morng, indeed a cold day, not so much wind; Miss E. Thompson, Mrs Brown, Mrs Stewart & others called. Read in First Corin­thians; have been out having my flowers put in the green house & feel very much fatigued. November 1st A fair, pleasant day, but a very cold morng & a nice frost. Several called this morng. Mr Smith, Miss E. Thompson, 1867 99 Mr & Mrs H. L. Brittian, Mr Watson & others called this afternoon. Received a note from Mary E. Pittard, answered it. Read in first Corinthians; Saturday 2nd A fair pleasant day; Mrs Brown came this morng to say goodby, they left this morng another bad bargain I made & yet I cant learn, if they or any one else would come tomorrow & say they had no home or provisions I would take them in it seems I cant learn to say NO; Miss E. Bradford & two other ladies cant call their names, one was Mrs Nevites sister, Clifford Clayton & D. Smith's one here this morng. J. Thompson, Mrs L. Tuck & Miss V. Tuck here since dinner; Read in First Corinthians. I feel better but so very sad. O my father one time more help me through I know I do & ever have tried to do the best I could & be pleased to help me dont let me suffer for well doing; Sunday 3rd A cloudy morng, fair & windy since twelve oclock [sic]. J. Thompson dined here & is here tonight, others called. Read in Second Corinthians. Several of my old negroes called, it makes me feel so sad to see them, another grown one dead, it seems to me all my negroes will die. I think I have lost more than any one I know by the war, but I do hope & pray God will be with me & help me & that all will come right yet Monday 4th Rained some last night & until eight oclock [sic] this morng. Cleared off cool & windy, now quite cold, Read in Second Corinthians Miss E. Thompson took dinner & supper with us Joe Thompson, Miss Mollie Thompson & Miss J. Davis came after supper & left after nine oclock [sic]. I feel wearied not having slept any today. Tuesday 5th A cold day, the potatoe [sic] vines I think killed, wish we could dig a11 tomorrow. Mrs E. P. Clayton her daughter & Miss E. Bradford spend an hour or so here this morning. I enjoyed this company very much indeed, Mr J. Morton called twice. Read in Second Corinthians & some in Young's Night Thoughts, I have enjoyed the day, yet I feel sad to think of my difficulties. Bless us O my father & help us. Wednesday 6th A fair cold day. I think much the coldest morng we have had. The ground was frozed [sic] some on the road. Stump & myself went to Athens this morng, took dinner with Mrs E. P. Clayton, went to the animal show & circus this afternoon, think more persons attended then I ever saw in one in Athens. Some good actors very active & strong. Read in Galatians. Feel wearied. Mary Pittard here tonight 1867 100 Friday 8th Yesterday I started to Athens, met Mrs Clayton, her daughter Ella Bradford & Mr M. Verdaree, turned back with them, we staid [sic] here an hour or so, then started to Athens again, stopd [sic] at the persimmon trees eat [sic] a cold dinner & got to town about 4 oclock[sic] . I called on Col Billups found him but looking badly, called on Col Mitchell but he was not at home, spent the night with Mrs Bradford. Called on Col Mitchell this morng had to wait until he examined his law students, so did not leave there untill [sic] eleven oclock [sic], drove up to Mrs G. Mitchell's to get Dalt Mitchell to come home with me, he was not there. Stopped at Mr Hoover's gate & had a long con­versation with them, stops in broad street got my mail, tried to find Dalt, but he could not come with me, arrived at home at one oclock [sic] found Dr J. Brightwell here & all well & getting on well. Do not feel well, but better than I expected after so much fatigue, & enjoyed the visit very much indeed. Did not read or write yesterday. Read in Galatians tonight and receiv'd a letter from L.J. Deupree. Saturday 9th a cloudy day some little through the day; Mr Bone and others called, Dr Brightwell and Stump came home about 2 o'clock, read in Galatians wrote to Mrs E.P. Clayton; Mary Pittard and myself went to Pleasant Grove Heard Mr. Harwell read the 14th chapter of John pray and sing as there were only eight ladies no gentlemen and so like for rain we thought it best to come home; Sunday 10th a rainy day, Mr Short and others called this morning Dr Moore this afternoon read in Ephesians the day being so unpleasant we had no church; Monday 11th affair windy day, Mr. Bone and others call this morning, several gentleman call this afternoon Joe and Lee Thompson, Miss. Cochran, Miss A. Davis, miss E and Miss M and miss a Thompson came after dark and left at 10 oclock [sic] read through Philippians wrote several notes O my father bless and direct me, help through once more, do not leave or for sake me for all my help must come from thee; 1867 101 Tuesday 12th a cold fair day, wind high & unpleasant mr. none Mr. bone and others here this morning, Mr. J Thompson and others here this afternoon, read through Colossians; Stump went to Athens to the theater I went as far as Mr. Thompson's and staid [sic] untill [sic] he came home about 12 oclock [sic],found everything safe and feel so truly thankful that we 2 come safe & all right, if I could only feel sure my crop would pay all I owe how happy I would feel, but God knows best, not my will, I will try to feel right and trust all to him. Wednesday 13th A fair day not so cold as yesterday yesterday and not so much wind; Joe Thompson & others called, Mrs. Stewart set [sic] with me till bedtime, received a note from Miss Thompson and answered it, read through first Thessalonians received a note from Mr. Winter; I walked up to Mr S. and Mrs J. Bones this evening after sundown; Thursday 14th A fair pleasant day, Mr. J Smith came before breakfast and fix my fireplace for me Col Billups and others called this morning, Jake Fesler took supper here and went with Stump to Mr. Thompson's to a surprise party; two of Mr Sanders Bone's daughters here with me tonight; received a note from James Mayne answered it, wrote one to Mr. J Winters, read through second Thessalonians; Mr. Greer's birthday; Friday 15th A fair day, several called, Miss Julia and Mary Pittard came this morning, Julia left this afternoon Mary will remain sometime; read in first Timothy; Mr. Short and his son came over after supper and set until 9 o'clock Saturday 16th A cloudy day. I spent the morning at Capt Dean's house, he looked pretty well, but Mrs Dean looks very badly; Mr England here this afternoon about his account, I am almost crazy, what am I to do. I will not make enough to pay what I have lived on this year. Mr S. Bone & his daughters set till bed time with us, reading first Timothy, rec'd a note from Mrs W. Marable; Sunday 17th A smoky day. I think no one has been here today. Wrote a note to Mrs Marable Read through second Timothy & Titus, heard Mrs Bone was complaining and walked up to see her how she was. Bless us O my father & help us for Christ's sake; Monday 18th A smoky day, perhaps cloudy; Several called read through Philemon, feel some better tonight as I slept a little, but am so distressed. Stump went to Mr Poland's factory will return tomorrow wrote to Miss E. Thompson & Miss Frierson 1867 102 Tuesday 19th Another smoky day. Several called. Read in Hebrews. I can't eat or sleep I feel so unhappy, 0 my Father help me for Christ's sake help me; Stump has not yet returned; if he can only sell the carriage how thankful I will be. Wednesday 20th. Another smoky day, Indian Summer. Several called through the day. Fred Lucas came just at night to stay all night but as Stump was not here he returned. Can't see what on earth is the matter, he expected to have been home yesterday & not here yet. I feel unhappy now about him, which added to my other troubles & trials nearly crazes me; but I do hope and pray he will come home safe without an accident & that his trip may be prosperous, grant O my Father that all be well & I know that all thing do actually work together for good to them that love God & I am willing to submit, & pray that I may always feel Thy will be done; Miss C. & G. Bone set [sic] with us till bedtime, rec'd a note from Mrs E. Thompson read in Hebrew, my mother's birthday; Thursday 21st Another smoky day I think cloudy this evening; several called; Stump came home to dinner & I do hope he succeeded in selling the carriage; Bless us O my Father & grant that it may be so, accept my humble heartfelt thanks even for the prospect, & help me to feel right &act right; Read in Hebrews; Friday 22nd A cloudy day, rained a little this morning; several gentlemen called. Mrs Yerkin, Mrs Winfry, Miss Biggers & Miss Hadson called this afternoon, Read in Hebrews Saturday 23rd A cloudy day Mrs. Stanley called this morning; W.H. Puryear spent an hour or so here this afternoon; Reading James; I hope I feel better today and more reconciled; Be please gracious father to grant me good and perfect heart teach me to trust implicitly in thee for thou art the same yesterday, today and forever Sunday 24th A cloudy day, several called, read through first Peter "O for a faith that will not shrink, though pressed by every foe, that will not tremble on the brink, of any earthly woe;" Monday 25th A dark cloudy day, some little rain, several called read through second Peter, wrote to Dick; grant me a trusty heart; 1867 103 Tuesday 26th A dark cloudy day some rain before day and some during the day; several called, Miss C. and J. Bone, Mr. and Mrs. Jordan sat with us until bedtime; read through first John; another disappointment, expected a gentleman to look at perhaps buy my carriage, he has not come & what must I do to help me O gracious father help me to do right, there has been with me and six troubles please to be with me and help me through the seventh, let me feel that all things work together for good; Wednesday 27th Another dark day, more rain than we have had any day, several gentlemen and ladies called, read through second and third John and Jude; wrote or commenced a letter to Mr. J.C. Rembert; I feel sad but pray that God will help me through; Thursday 28th A fair pleasant day too warm I think to stay clear; several called, this being the day set apart by the Gov for Thanksgiving, I kept it myself, but the rest of the family did not, read through revelations and one sermon wrote a note to Mr. England; Friday 29th A rainy day but now fair and windy and something colder; indeed it's been windy all day; several called, commenced the Bible again read one chapter in Genesis, received a note from Rough I feel very sad I will try bear and forbear; for I know "that all things do and will work together for good;" Saturday 30th A very cold day not so much wind as yesterday, this is much the coldest night we have had, Joe Thompson & others called, after supper Mr. Short & his son came in then Joe Thompson & all set [sic] till bedtime, read one chapter in Genesis. December the 1st A cold day not so much wind but cold. I miss the thermometer so much; Several called. Mr S. Bone & his wife set with us untill [sic] bedtime. Read in Genesis. Monday 2nd A cloudy day something warmer. Mr H. Britton, Mr Short & others called; wrote to Rough to Col L. J. Deupree & to Miss E. J. Thompson. Read in Jeremiah; "Why art thou cast down O my soul & why art thou so disquieted within me, trust thou in God, for he shall yet save me from all my troubles; Tuesday 3rd A cloudy day. Several called this morning J. Fesler & Mr J. Morton this afternoon Stump & my self had early supper & went to Capt Dean's to set ti11 bedtime, but they sent for us that Mr & Mrs Ivy come [sic] to stay all night, so came home. Read in Genesis; Wednesday 4th A dark rainy day. Mr Ivy came down to marry Fannie 1867 104 Mayne this morning at day light, so I woke up at five oclock [sic] this morning, sent up to wake him & did not sleep any more, he came back to breakfast as the bridal party left without breakfast at least he saw nothing like eating. I heard that as the party went to the depot to take the carrs [sic] they formed several fenses [sic] & trees across the road. I feel grieved to think any one should act so ungentlemanly, but pleased to hear they arrived in time for the train; several called. Read in Genesis; I feel very unwell, some headache; Thursday 5th A fair cool day, several gentlemen called. Read in Genesis; "Useless, as yet, through life I've run, No pleasures tasted, & few duties done;" Friday 6th A fair morning, clouded up just before sundown & rained a little, but now clear; Several gentlemen called. Miss E.A. Thompson here tonight. Read in Genesis; Saturday 7th A fair cool windy day. Stump went home with Miss E. Thompson this morng, said he would be back in a few minutes & did not come in till three oclock [sic], so I had to walk to church to Pleasant grove. Mr Harwell read the first Chapter of John & preached too long I think for such a cold unpleasant day & only eight persons to hear him. Read in Genesis. Received a note from Miss Lou Frierson; Sunday 8th A fair cold day, so unpleasant & felt so unwell from walking to church yesterday & sitting in the cold that I did not go to church today. Read in Genesis & a sermon tonight. Monday 9th A cold cloudy day. I think as cold as any day we've had. Col J. Billups, Miss Bone & J. Thompson here this morng. Miss A. Billups & Miss L. Taylor here this afternoon. Mr Boor Short here since supper. Read in Exodus. Tuesday 10th A cold cloudy day; Mr Nunn & other gentlemen called. Miss H. & A. Pittard here tonight. Read in Exodus, I feel wearied tonight have slept or laid down for some days, my back & side pain me severely, & trouble some at least my eyes pain me from looking over & writing some biblical rhymes for Miss A. Billups; Wednesday 11th A dark cloudy day, several showers. J. Thompson & Col J. Billups called this morning I spent the afternoon at Mr J. Morton's pleasantly, came home in the rain, when I came I found a note from Miss E. Thompson saying the young 1867 105 people were coming here tonight to dance & play. I hurried supper & cleared the dining room, about thirty or forty came danced played & seemed to enjoy the evening very much, left about one oclock [sic]. Read one Psalm. feel wearied & sleepy. Thursday 12th A warm cloudy morng, indeed its not been fair all day but we have had some sun several times, the wind has been very high from twelve oclock [sic] till now & quite cold. Mr H. Britton here this morng. Stump left about half after nine to go to Mr W. Marable's to see three of his children married tonight I spent two or three hours at Capt Dean's this afternoon. I think the Capt & his wife both declining. Read in Exodus; Cara & Jane Bone here tonight. Friday 13th A fair cold day, not so much wind as yesterday. Joe Thompson & others called. Read in Exodus. Stump has not returned. Bless him O my father & grant that he may behave well, & succeed in his undertaking; for Christ's bless & protect us. Saturday 14th A fair morng, cloudy now & raining a little. Joe Thompson & others called. Mr & Mrs S. Bone set with us untill [sic] bed time. Read in Exodus. Stump has not yet returned, do hope he will do well, behave well & have good luck; Sunday 15th A fair day. Miss M. Fesler came in a few minutes. Stump has not yet returned. cant see why he has not, been absent four days, do hope & pray that all is right, indeed I know that all things are right; whatever is, is right, & whatever is to be will be; Read in Exodus & a sermon tonight; Monday 16th A fair cold day. I think no one has called today. Stump came home this afternoon & didnot succeed in selling the carraige [sic]; poor me doomed to trouble & disappointment; Read in Exodus; Tuesday 17th A cloudy day. Mr J. Morton, Mrs Kelum & others called. Received a note from Mr J. Winter. Read in Leviticus; "O for a heart submissive, meek, My dear Redeemer's throne, Where only Christ is heard to speak, And Jesus Reigns alone." Wednesday 18th A cloudy day. Mr J. Bone & others called a traveler here tonight; Read in Leviticus; Thursday 19th A cloudy cold day. Mr Britton & others called this morng. several gentlemen this afternoon Mr & Mrs Porter & two travelers here tonight Read in Leviticus; Friday 20th. A cloudy day, not so cold as yesterday. Miss Fesler & Miss O'Conner spent the day here. J. Fesler & others called. Read in Leviticus. 1867 106 Saturday 21st A cloudy day, sprinkled of rain several times. Stump & myself spent the afternoon at Capt Dean's I think the Capt about the same. Mrs D. is sinking I think daily; Read in Leviticus. Mr J. Short here since supper. Sunday 22nd A cloudy day, rained since dark a good shower I think no one here till since supper C. & J. Bone Mr & Mrs White sit till bedtime. Wrote a short note to Ed. Read in Leviticus & a sermon since dark; Monday 23rd A fair day. Mr W. Walker came here about sundown & after dark some twenty or twenty young ladies & gentlemen came in & danced & played untill [sic] after two oclock [sic], seemed happy & I feel happy to think they enjoyed themselves. Read in Numbers. Tuesday 24th A cloudy day. Several called. Stump & Mr Walker went to town came back after four oclock [sic]. James Frierson came with them; all three went to Mr Thompsons since supper to a surprise party. Read in Numbers. Wednesday 25th A cloudy day. Several called, about sixty or seventy young persons come in after dark & danced & played untill [sic] after two oclock [sic], all passed off well & seemed to be pleasant & agreeable; Mr & Mrs Hoover, Miss L. Frierson & Miss Acock staid [sic] all night. James Frierson & Mr W. Walker have been here several days. Read in Numbers; Mr J. F. Jackson also here to stay all night, have not seen him for some six or eight years, was pleased & surprised to see him; Thursday 26th A cloudy day, or more cloud than sunshine, all left this morng. but Miss Acock, she left after dinner, Joel Dean Called twice, Mrs Winfry called this morng. Read in Numbers. I have felt worse today than common after sitting up, hope it will not make me sick; & feel very much relieved to think the negroes have been so quiet thus far, we feared they would be troublesome this week; bless us O my father & keep us from every evil & every harm; Friday 27th A cloudy day. Several called. this morng, Mr Biggers, Mr Hemphill, Mr Lorance, Miss M. & Miss A. Thompson spent the afternoon here all went to the Station to a Temperance meeting came back & the girls & Mr Biggers will remain all night Mr C. Bone is ] also ] here, Joel Dean his wife & Miss Acock came about eight oclock [sic] & left about eleven at night Read in Numbers 1867 107 Saturday 28th A cloudy day & still very warm, sufficiently so to sit without fire; several called. Stump & myself spent an hour at Capt Dean's this afternoon, found both himself & wife in bed, surely neither can stand it much longer; Stump is at Mr Anthony's at a surprise party, Mary & myself set two hours at Mr S. Bone's since supper. Read in Numbers; Sunday 29th A cloudy day something cooler than the last ten days, but still warm, rained some since dark the wind now pretty high hope it will cool & clear tomorrow as this is unpleasant weather for winter; Col J. Billups called this morng. Read in Deuteronomy & a sermon tonight; Monday 30th. A cold rainy day, raining, snowing & sleeting ever since twelve oclock[sic], & the wind very high all day & all night last night, two Kentuckians called this morng. Mr E. O'Ferril here tonight. Read in Deuteronomy. I feel very sad tonight, Stump is more trouble to me than the whole world besides; O my Father bless & direct me; Tuesday 31st A cold windy day, snowing, raining, sleeting all day; Mr E. O'Ferril left this afternoon, no one called I think today; Read in Deuter­onomy; this is the last day of 1867, & my birthday, fifty seven today, little did I once think I would live to be so old, I thank thee Heavenly Father for thy Great & merciful kindness towards me. I thank that thou hast been pleased to spare me while so many younger, better, stronger & more useful women have been taken, also for thy great & marvelous kindness in granting me so many blessings, be pleased to forgive all my past sins & transgressions, & watch over & protect me & mine for the next twelve months, give me a heart to love & serve thee, & grant I may do some good every day; 1868 January 1868 Wednesday 1st Mr S. & Mr J. Bone came before we eat breakfast. I have heard if a gentleman came before a lady after new year we would have good luck during the year, so as they came before breakfast I hope I shall do better this year than last, this has been cold day but very little wind so more pleasant than the two last, had very little sun but the snow has melted some. Several gentlemen called also Mrs Kellum. Read in Joshua, this is the beginning of a new year also with me as I was fifty seven yesterday, have lived thus far to little or no purpose, & do hope & 1868 108 pray I may yet do some good to some one, bless me O my Father & grant that with a new Year I may begin a new life "let the words of my mouth & the meditations of my heart be acceptable to thee." Bless me & my two poor boys & keep us from every evil, make us sober, truthful & honest, & grant that we may love & serve thee with our whole hearts, soul, mind & strength & our neighbours [sic] as ourselves. Thursday 2nd A very unsettled day, clouds, rain & sunshine, but something warmer as the snow has been melting all day; Read in Joshua. Dick Mobly called about eleven oclock [sic] & said the young people would be here tonight, a surprise party, & about twenty five or thirty met & danced untill [sic] about two oclock [sic], seemed to be happy, broke up in fine spirits & good humour [sic], I feel quite unwell, at least my side is paining me very much, have not laid down for some days & if donot it always pains me; Friday 3rd A fair warm day, but the snow not all gone yet, several called during the day. Stump & myself took supper & set [sic] till eight oclock [sic] at Joel Dean's, while we were gone Mr Hoover, Mr J. F. Jackson, Miss F. & L. Frierson came here thinking we had a party here, as we were absent didnot come in. Read in Joshua; Thirty years today my father died; Saturday 4th A beautiful, bright, warm day; Several gentlemen &ladies called during the day. Mr Nunn called soon after dinner & told us, some one had shot a negro & broke his leg. Stump & Mr Bone went down & found him suffering & alone we were getting the waggon [sic] ready to go for him when one passed going after him. I tried to get one of the negroes to go for a phisician [sic] but could not prevail on one to go, all said every one must take care of himself, the wounded negro says a man with a mask shot him & robbed him. I rather doubt it, poor fellow I hope he is comfortable by this time. Read in Judges; My father was buried this day thirty years since. Sunday the 5th A fair cool day. Mr Cooper, Mr Thompson, Miss M. & Mattie Thompson, & Mrs Kelum here today, the negroes said Jake Fesler shot that negro. Mr Browning came out with a warrent & they had the trial. Jake proved himself clear, so I dont know who they will arrest now. Read in Judges. This is old Christmas day my father frequently gave a dinner on this day. 1868 109 Monday the 6th A dark cloudy day, some little rain Several gentlemen called. Read through Ruth. "Why art thou cast down O my soul & why art thou dis­quieted within me, trust thou in God For he shall yet save me, who is the help of my countenance & my God. Tuesday 7th A rainy morng, fair afternoon & now raining hard, still very warm. Many gentlemen called during the day & Mr J. & L. Bone & Mr H. & J. White here since supper Read through first Samuel. Wednesday 8th A cloudy day, rained last night & the ground very wet. Joe Thompson came this morng before ten oclock [sic] took dinner & supper with him & Stump gone to ___ Brittan's to a corn shucking & expect a party or play there tonight. Others called during the day. Read in Second Samuel, this is my father's birthday. "Useless as yet through life I've run, No pleasures tasted & few duties done." Thursday 9th A fair windy day & very cold, such a sudden change makes us feel it very sensibly. Mr H. Britton, Mr Ivey & his nephew here this morning. Mr Head, a traveler here tonight. Received a letter from C.F. Kohlheim, inviting us to his marriage; Read in Second Samuel. Friday 10th A fair cold day, much the coldest morng we've had as the milk was frozen this morng. Several called this fore noon. Mr Reynolds here soon after dinner, & after supper I was sitting quietly writing to Mrs L. Mayne when about thirty five young people came in & remained dancing & playing untill [sic] after one oclock, [sic] Read in First Kings; I have had some headache all day feel wearied; Saturday 11th A cold cloudy day, three Misses Britton called this morning with Mr Harwell. I did not go to the church thought it too cold for anyone & no one there but those that called here, so they had no preaching. Mr Harwell came again just at night to spend the night; Read in First Kings; I have not felt well today, wrote a note to W. Dean to hear how his mother was a I heard last night she was worse, Miss E. Thompson answered it, she says Mrs D. has no pulse, & Mr Harwell thinks she is dying. Sunday 12th A cold cloudy day, but not so much wind & perhaps not so cold as yesterday. R. Mobley, Mr Watson & others called, Joe Thompson dined here. Stump went to church very few there, Read in First Kings & one sermon since supper; I have been in bed nearly all day with headache, regret being unwell as Mrs Dean died last night & was buried this afternoon. I feel better tonight, hope I shall be able to go to see the Capt tomorrow as I think he cant stand much longer 1868 110 Monday 13th A fair day not so cold Col J. Billups Miss Anna Thompson. Miss J. Bone & others ca11ed. Read in First Kings. Stump & myself spent an hour or so at Capt Dean's found better than I expected indeed the whole family take Mrs D's death better than I expected; I feel better today but still not well, some cold & headache; feel sad & troubled but will do my best to feel reconciled. Bless my O my Father & help me through one more time; Tuesday 14th A cold rainy day. Mr White, Col J. Billups & other gentlemen called. Read in First Kings; Some sleet this morng. Wednesday 15th A fair pleasant day. Several called this morng. Mr A. Dorsey here since supper. Stump is at Capt Dean's as Billy feels lonely. Read in First Kings. Thursday 16th A cold cloudy day. Miss C. Bone called this morng. I went up this morng & this afternoon to see Mr S. Bone as he was quite sick with choleramorbis [sic]. Read in First Kings, finished reading St. Elmo, by Miss Evans, I like it much better, than Buelah or Macaria; have enjoyed the reading very much but O me I am in so much trouble be pleased O my Father to help me once more, thou hast been with me in six troubles donot forsake me in this. Friday 17th A fair cold day with considerable wind. Mr S. Bone, Mrs & Mrs White, Maj Knox & another yankee Maj here this afternoon the yankees pretended to be trying to find out something about that negro who was shot but I think they were only riding around to see the country as they have some eight or ten cavalry men there & are not now afraid to ride. Read in Second Kings. Wrote a note to Mr A. Dorsey. Received one from Mr A. Grant & a letter from Col L. J. Deupree. Forty two years today since I was first married; Saturday 18th A fair cold day, much colder this morning than any we've had this winter; Mr R. Thompson, Mr Mack Thompson & others called this morng. Mr R. Baily & others since dinner. Joe Thompson took supper here & went with Stump to sit up with Capt Dean's corpse we heard just at night that he died this afternoon. Jane Bone is here with me tonight. Read in Second Kings. Sunday 19th A cold day, the ground so cold & wet I was afraid to go to the burial. The Capt was buried by the 1868 111 masons & I knew it would take them some time & was afraid it would make me sick. Joe Thompson here tonight. Read in First Chronicles. This day twenty six years ago my first daughter died (at sixteen years of age) & eleven years today the thermometer was at 3 degrees below zero. Monday 20th A cold rainy day, Mr R. Thompson spent the morning here; Joe Thompson left after dinner. Mary Pittard came home this afternoon & his sister Henry came with her. Billy Dean sent for Stump to stay all night with him so we are alone tonight. Wrote a letter to Col L. J. Deupree, one to Mr C. F. Kohlheim, & one to Gen R. C. Drum of Gen Mead's staff. also a note to Maj. Knox commanding at Athens; Read one Chapt in First Chronicles; Tuesday 21st A fair day, but the ground very wet & cold as it rained nearly all night last night. Several called this morng. Miss M. Thompson, Joel & Billy Dean here this afternoon & J. Tuck set [sic] with us till bedtime. Re­ceived a note from Mrs L. D. Mayne. Read first Chronicles. Wednesday 22nd A cold cloudy day. Mrs H. White & others called. Read one chapter in Second Chronicles. forty one years today since I first settled here; how wise in God to veil from us the future, if I could only have seen all I have had to pass through the past forty years what pleasure would my life have been? & even now what will next year, next month or even tomorrow bring forth? Who can tell? Thursday 23rd A dark cloudy day, some rain this morng. Mr H White & others called. Read one chapter in Second Chronicles. Be pleased heavenly Father to bless me & my children & teach us to feel thy will be done; sometimes feel restless, then again I am perfectly willing to trust myself & all I have in thy hands; Friday 24th A fair cold day, wind high all day; several gentlemen called Read in Second Chronicles; Saturday 25th A cold fair day, cloudy now at nine oclock [sic] several gentlemen called. I spent the afternoon at Capt Dean's or I must sat W. Dean's. Read in Second Kings. Bless me O my Father & teach to trust implicitly in thee, let me not faulter [sic] or doubt, the head is right but the heart rebels too often. Sunday 26th A cold cloudy day. I think no one has been in the house today. Read in Second Chronicles through Ezra & Nehemiah. Wrote to Mrs S. Mayne. 1868 112 O my trou­bles & difficulties, bless me O my Father &help me, for all my help must come from thee; "For my sighing cometh before I eat & my roarings are poured out, like the waters. For the thing which I greatly feared is come upon me, & that which I was afraid of is come upon me. I was not in safety, neither had I rest, neither was I quiet, yet trouble came" I do know & acknowledge that I have more good than evil, & O my father so much more than I deserve, so many better women, so many more useful & by far more deserving than I am are in a worse condition & I do hope I feel it to be true, O teach me to submit cheerfully & to say from my very heart "The Lord gave & the Lord hath taken away, blessed be the name of the Lord." Teach me to trust im­plicitly in thee; & to ask myself daily & hourly "who ever perished, being innocent? or when were the righteous cut off?" Monday 27th A cloudy day, some rain this morning. I think much colder now. Mr S. Bone here this morning. Stump & myself spent an hour at Mr Thompson's this afternoon. Read through Esther & commenced Job, wrote to Mr A. Appling. Received a letter from Gen. R.C. Drum, & one from E.M. Manaman. Help me O my Father, do not leave or forsake me. Tuesday 28th A fair morng, cloudy afternoon. Miss C. Bone here. Read in Job. Commenced in Psalms. Wednesday 29th A cloudy day. Rained nearly all night last night & some before twelve today. Commenced snowing about one oclock [sic] & snowed until nearly dark, the ground was so wet that very little remained on the ground, but the trees are entirely covered; looking very beautiful & now very cold & still cloudy. Read several Psalms. Joe Thompson here tonight. Thursday 30th. A fair cold day, some wind. Several called. Mr & Mrs S. Bone took supper & set till bedtime, Read several Psalms. "Look upon mine afflic­tion &my pain, & forgive all my sins." Friday 31st A fair cold day. Col J. Billups called this morning. Read one Psalm, wrote to Miss L.E. Dougherty. February 1st A cold fair day. Several called at the gate but I think no one come [sic]in. Read in Psalms, wrote to Miss Florence Frierson. 1868 113 Sunday 2nd A cold fair day, no one been here today. Read in Psalms. Wrote a note to Mrs J.D. Raney. Read one sermon. Monday 3rd A cold day; several called, Miss Florrence Frierson here tonight, wrote several notes, Read in Psalms; This is Gen King's birthday. Tuesday 4th A cloudy day, some rain in the morning & from 3 oclock [sic] till now raining very steadily. My greenhouse caved in the afternoon, broke several plants & pots, & I fear all will die, had some removed. Several called. Read in Psalms. I thank thee gracious father for thy great & merciful kindness towards me, thou hast been with me in six troubles do not forsake me in the seventh. So teach me to num­ber my days that I may apply my heart into wisdom. Wednesday 5th A rainy day, much warmer. Several called at the gate no one I think been in the house. Read in Psalms. Thursday 6th A beautiful fair day, rather too much wind. Mr Mack & Joe Thomp­son called this morning, & after supper Joe Thompson came & said there was a surprise party at Mr Bailey's, so Miss F. Frierson Stump & myself went over & just as we got there the young people were staring here, it seems Mr Bailey did not expect them & had no wood at the house. so they had determined to come here, about fifteen & have just left at two oclock [sic], they seemed to enjoy it very much indeed & I felt pleased to see them happy. Read in Psalms, Eight years today since Mr Greer died & its almost unreasonable to think of the change on the place, bless me O my father & help me, I know I have more good than evil & much more than I deserve. O that men would praise the lord for his goodness, & for his wonderful works to the children of men." Friday 7th A beautiful fair day, rather too much wind. Joe Thompson & others called this morning. Mrs Thompson & Mrs Strickland spent the afternoon here. Mr J. Smith here tonight. Read in Psalms. Teach me Heavenly Father to trust in thy love & mercy, let me not waver or faint but do thou walk talk & think with me, be my guide & comfort me in all my trials. Saturday 8th A cold day & variable, some part cloudy & some fair. Several called. I went to Pleasant grove heard Mr Harwell read the 4th chapter of Ephesians, sing a hymn & play. Only six persons there so he did not preach. I met Miss Pittard & Miss Nabers, who spent the day here. Read in Psalms. O Lord grant me patience & Forbearance, what am I to do? Bless us & keep us from every evil. 1868 114 Sunday 9th A cloudy day, commenced raining about one oclock [sic] & rained until dark. Stump & myself went to Pleasant grove heard Mr Harwell preach from the 5th verse of the 2nd chapter of Philippians. M. Dean here this afternoon, Read in Psalms and one sermon. "Search me O God, know my heart, try me, & know my thoughts, and see if there be any wicked way in me & lead me in the way everlasting." Monday 10th A cloudy day, rained several times. Mr S. Bone & his daughter called Miss Frierson & myself spent the day with Mrs Marr & W. Dean. Received a letter from Mrs J.D. Raney, Read in Psalms. Tuesday 11th A cloudy day, sprinkled several times, I think no one has called today. Read in Proverbs. I do thank thee O my Father for thy great & marvelous kind­ness to me & mine. Wednesday 12th A fair day, no one called today. Read in Proverbs. Stump has seemed sad & serious all day, I cant think what is the matter with him, it makes me feel very unhappy to see him unhappy but no end to my troubles Thursday 13th A fair pleasant day, several gentlemen called this morning. Mr & Mrs H.L. Brittain here this afternoon. Read in Proverbs. I feel better tonight as Stump seems cheerful & happy, but I have a cold and Mary Pittard's complaining of sore throat, hope we all be well tomorrow. "Whom the Lord loveth He scourgeth & chastenth every one he receiveth." Friday 14th A fair warm day. Several gentlemen called. Read in Proverbs; some one from accident or otherwise set my fence on fire & lost several hundred pennels [sic], it seems that everything works wrong, & yet I know that things work together for good. Saturday 15th A fair warm day, though quite a cold morning. Miss F. Frierson left this morning. Dick Mobly here tonight & really I felt glad to see him come in. Read in Proverbs, have been reading old Josephus & enjoyed it very much indeed. My side has troubled me a great deal the last two days, makes me feel sad, to think I cant take any exercise scarcely & still have everything to do. Sunday 16th A fair warm day. Joe Thompson came at eleven oclock [sic] & he & Dick Mobley left this afternoon. Read in Proverbs. Mr and Mrs 1868 115 Roberts & Miss Roberts spent the afternoon here, wrote a note to Miss E. Thompson. Monday 17th A fair warm day, but quite cold this morning. Miss Winfry & others called, I have out nearly all day at work in the garden, feel very much fatigued. Wrote to Mr B. Runsey. Read in Proverbs. Tuesday 18th Another fair warm day. Mr and Mrs J. Morton called this after­noon. Read in Proverbs. Bless us O my Father and help is for thou and thou only art able. "A merry heart doeth good like a medicine, but a broken spirit drieth the bones." Wednesday 19th A cloudy smoky day. J. Fesler called this morning & trimmed or pruned my grape vines & Stump has pruned my fruit trees I feel very thankful to both. have had some headache two days, this morning got my feet very wet & now my head pains me so much I can scarcely see. Read in Proverbs. Thursday 20th. A cloudy warm day, now cloudy with high winds. Several called. Read in Proverbs. I feel much better than I have for some days, & been in the garden all day at work, having the shrubbery pruned, sitting trees & grafting, the first graft­ing I've done for two years at least did not graft any last year. I do hope all will yet be well. I feel sure its been my constant desire & I think I've tried, to do unto others as I would they should do unto me, have also tried all my life to please every one I had any dealing with, & to do everything I could for everybody & yet it seems my troubles multiply and increase, & I look around & see so many going through the world heater skelter & yet they seem to prosper & do well; still I will not despair. David said "the wicked should prosper as a green bay tree". I acknowledge I have many many blessings & do hope I am thankful for every good I enjoy & every evil I escape. Friday 21st Rained. nearly all night last night & some this morning, still cloudy. Several gentlemen called at the gate none came in, I think. Read in Proverbs. Joe Thomp­son here tonight. Saturday 22nd A fair warm day. Miss J. Bone & others here this morning. Mr T. A. Hill called this evening after sundown. Miss L. Frierson here tonight. Read in Pro­verbs. Sunday 23rd A cloudy day. Joe Thompson called this morning, several gentlemen this afternoon. Read in Proverbs and a sermon tonight. Monday 24th A rainy day and very cold. I think no one has been in the house today. Read in Proverbs. Be pleased Heavenly Father to bless everything & everybody this cold rainy night. 1868 116 Tuesday 25th A cloudy day, little rain. Several called. Read in Proverbs. Tom Hill called this morning. Wednesday 26th Another rainy day, no one here today. Read in Ecclesiastes. Re­ceived a letter from Dick, at least Stump did & they are all well, feel truly thankful to hear they are doing so well. Bless us Heavenly Father & keep us from evil. Thursday 27th A fair cold day. Several called. Mr Maxwell and Mr G. Young here tonight. Read in Ecclesiastes. Friday 28th A fair cold windy day. Several called. Dr J. Brightwell came this afternoon, him [sic] and Stump went to Mr Baily's after supper to a Surprise party, we thought it too cold, but after eight oclock [sic] Jake Fesler called & Miss Frierson & myself rode over with him, but were disappointed as only two other ladies there & we came home before eleven oclock [sic]. Read in Ecclesiastes. Saturday 29th A pleasant day. Dr Brightwell & Miss Frierson left this morng. Miss C. Bone & others called; Read in Ecclesiastes; Stump went over to sit till bedtime with W. H. Dean; "A man cannot tell what shall be, & what shall be after him, who can tell?" March the 1st A rainy day. I think more rain today than we had all last week; & still raining; Read in Ecclesiastes, some in Josephus & one sermon; I feel sad or despondent at times about the plantation fear we will not have it tended this year, wish I could always say & feel "'What may be my future lot, High or Low, concerns me not; this doth set my heart at rest; What my God appoints is best." Monday 2nd A cold day, wind very high; I think no one has called; Read in the Song of Solomon; I feel quite unwell. Tuesday 3rd Another cold windy day, March has certainly come in like a lion; Read in the Song of Solomon; Several called. Wrote a note to Miss A. Clayton; Wednesday 4th A fair cold day. Miss J. Bone & others called. Read in the Song of Solomon; I have been very steady at work (sewing) the last three days & feel very much fatigued. Thursday 5th A fair day. Mr & Mrs Ivey & Col J. Billups cal led this morng. Several called this afternoon; Read in the Song of Solomon; Received a telegram this evening from Houston Texas, Saying, "Rough Harrison was murdered by J. H. Patrick at one oclock [sic] on the 2nd day of 1868 117 this month." Poor poor boy I have always thought he would come to some bad end. but I never thought of this; have just written to Capt D. L. Steel to know the particulars; another relative gone; thy will not mine be done; Friday 6th A cloudy day & something warmer tonight think it will rain. Col J. Billups, Mr J. Bone &others called; Read in the Song of Solomon. I feel very much fatigued having served steadily all day, & can think of little but Rough poor boy; wrote a note to L. Frierson for Stump to take up tomorrow; Saturday 7th A cloudy day. Mrs Kellum called this morng. Miss Nancy Fesler spent the day here. Miss C. Bone called. Read in the Song of Solomon. am almost worn out have sewed so steadily all the week; Stump went to town. Mr N. L. Barnard told him he had a will of Rough's in his possession, poor boy little did he think he would die as he did; & in all my troubles & thinking about troubles to come not once did I ever think of any member of my family being murdered. O my Father bless & protect us; Just as I finished the above (after eight oclock [sic]) Mr L. Bone his two daughters & Miss Roberts came in & left after ten oclock [sic]. Sunday 8th A cloudy day very little sun. Stump & Mary went to church. Dick Mobley came home with them & left about sun down; W. H. Morton as he went & come [sic] from Miss E.E. Thompson's marriage. She is about fifty-five years old & never married till now. Mr Huggins about the same age & a widower with one child; Read in Isaiah; do wish I could hear the particulars of poor Rough's death. Monday 9th A fair warm day; Jake Fesler & his mother called this morning. Miss Molly Thompson here tonight; wrote to Mr L. C. Downs asking him send me any thing he may receive respecting Rough's death; Read in Isaiah; Tuesday 10th A warm cloudy day; Miss C. Bone & others called. I spent an hour or at Mr J. Morton's & the same at Mr J. Dunnahoo's very pleasantly; came home about sun down & went in the garden & sowed some parsley seed thinking it would rain before day. Wrote a letter to Miss M. B. Anglin. one to Mrs L.D. Mayne & Several notes received several also; Read in Isaiah; Wednesday 11th A cloudy warm day; Miss H. Pittard & Miss M. Hales spent the afternoon here. Miss McLester & Miss McWhorter 1868 118 spent an hour or more here. D. Mitchell here tonight. Received a note from Mr Winter & one from Miss L. Frierson & a letter from Mr L. C. Downs, enclosing a newspaper account of the death of poor Rough, poor poor boy, if he had only been at home, but not my will. Read in Isaiah; Thursday 12th A cloudy day some little rain, several called. Wrote a letter to Mr John Valentine Texas; Read in Isaiah. Friday 13th A rainy day. Mr Mitchell left this morng. Read in Isaiah. Stump went to town but nothing more about poor Rough. I feel anxious to hear from the trial. Saturday 14th A cloudy day. Some little rain. Miss Gennie [?] & Puss Tuck & Miss M. Finch spent the afternoon here. Mrs Winfry & her sister called. Joe Thompson came home with Stump tonight. Read in Isaiah. Received a letter from Mr Tripe [?] Houston Texas. respecting poor Rough; he seems to think him innocent, that is, Mr Patrick heard that Rough had told in Texas that he (Patrick) had a wife & children in Ga, Mr Tripe [?] thinks it was some other not Rough that told it; O my Father order & direct all thing according to thy will. Sunday 15th A cloudy day but no rain; I think no one has been in the house today. Wrote a note to Col J. Billups. Read in Isaiah & one sermon tonight. Monday 16th A cloudy day. Miss C. Bone & several gentlemen called. Read in Isaiah. Do hope I will receive a letter from Capt Steel tomorrow. I think of Rough almost constantly; & am so anxious to hear from there; Tuesday 17th A changeable day, some sun, some wind & some rain, still cloudy. Miss Bone & others called. Read in Isaiah; Wednesday 18th A fair day & pleasant for March. Several called. Read in Isaiah. Thursday 19th A fair pleasant day. Several gentlemen here today but I [think?] none come [sic] in the house. Read in Isaiah. I am anxious to hear from the mail surely there must be something there from Texas. I think it constantly. Friday 20th. A cold morng, indeed a cold windy day. Miss C. Bone & others called. Read in Isaiah; Received a note from Miss S. Frierson answered it. 1868 119 Saturday 21st A fair cold windy day. so cold last night & today I fear the fruit is injured. Several called. Wrote to Mr Winter. Read in Isaiah. I have been very stedily [sic] at work fine work for three weeks & its injured my eyes so much I can scarcely write or read. Sunday 22nd A fair pleasant day. I think no one has been in the house several called at the gate; Read in Isaiah & a sermon tonight; I shall never pass a Sabbath without wishing to go to church, so many years went every Sabbath but I cant help it, have no way to go now. "How sweet upon this sacred day, The best of all the seven, To cast our earthly cares away And think of God & heaven;" Monday 23rd A cloudy day. Miss C. Bone, Col J. Billups & a beggar woman called this morng. The first time a beggar ever called on me that I could not help them in some way, she had been to breakfast. Read in Isaiah. Tuesday 24th A fair day, considerable wind. Miss E. & Miss A. Thompson came about 3 oclock [sic] & left after nine P.M. I enjoyed their company very much indeed. Read in Isaiah; Received a letter from Capt A.L. Steel, Houston, Texas, giving me the particulars of that horrid scrape of poor Rough's, its too bad to think of. Wednesday 25th A pleasant day, cloudy morng. Col J. Billups called this morng. Read in Isaiah, wrote to Col Billups. I have been sewing so steadily the last three weeks that I am entirely worn out. Thursday 26th A cloudy day & from 4 oclock [sic] cold windy, some rain & hail, now ten oclock [sic] quite cold with high winds; Several called. Mr & Mrs Barnard here tonight. Read one Psalm. I feel quite unwell. Friday 27th A cloudy day, rained nearly all night last night. Mr & Mrs. Barnard left this afternoon, I have really enjoyed their company; J. Frierson & Mr Biggers came soon after supper would not let me get supper, I give [sic] them something here by the fire to eat, they seemed to enjoy it very much & I was pleased to see them eat. Stump rode up to 1868 120 Mr Thompson's with them will all come back & stay all night. Read in Isaiah. Saturday 28th A fair pleasant day. Several called this morning, Mr Stobb & Miss Sparks this afternoon. Read in Psalms, commenced indeed nearly finished a letter to Capt A. L. Steele Houston Texas; Sunday 29th A cold cloudy day. C. & J. Bone here this afternoon. Read in Isaiah & a sermon tonight, feel very unwell. Monday 30th. A cloudy day, rained some last night. I think no one has been in the house. Several spoke at the gate. Received a note from Col J. Billups read in Isaiah. Tuesday 31st A fair pleasant day. Several called. Mrs Joe Morton spent the day here I enjoyed it, hope she did, wrote a note to Mrs N. L. Barnard. Read in Isaiah; April 1st A fair day some wind. I think no one has been in the house today. Read in Isaiah. Four years today Jane died [?] Thursday 2nd A cloudy day, commenced raining about sundown. Mr J. Morton called this morng, Mrs T. Lucas & Miss F. Frierson here this afternoon. Read in Isaiah. Friday 3rd A dark rainy day, however we had some sun late this afternoon. Received a note from Miss E. Thompson, answered it. Read in Isaiah. Saturday 4th A cool windy day. Real March day. Miss C. Bone here. Received a note from Miss. N. L. Barnard. Read in Jeremiah. I feel very sad but God has never left me. My troubles are great. "All things do work together for good." Sunday 5th A fair cool day, some wind again but no so much yesterday. Read in Jeremiah & one sermon. I think every Sunday of going to church, but very much fear I shall never have it in my power to go again not my will but thine be done. Monday 6th a fair morng, cloudy afternoon. Read in Jeremiah. Tuesday 7th A cloudy day, several showers of rain, high winds all day, a March & April day. Read in Jeremiah. Miss C. Bone here twice, several gentlemen called. Wednesday 8th A cold windy day, considerable frost this morng, & I think another tonight, but not so cold as last night. Read in Jeremiah. Jake Fesler called this morng & Stump went to 1868 121 Athens with him & did not return untill [sic] half after four oclock [sic] then I was grieved & distressed, poor boy he gives me more trouble than the whole world besides, he is my all I have my heart, poor poor boy what am I to do. Thursday 9th A cold day, more cloud than sunshine some frost this morng, but I think it did no damage. Several called. C. &J . Bone set [sic] with us till bedtime. Read in Jeremiah. Bless us O my Father & keep us from every evil. Friday 10th Mrs G. Roberts, Miss C. & J. Bone & others called. Dick Mobley took supper here & went with Stump & Mary to Mr R. Baily's to a dance. I am all alone two little negroes came just now say they will stay with me rather they were out than here asleep. Read in Jeremiah. Saturday 11th A beautiful fair day. Mrs Mary Steward & Miss Matilda Steward called this morng. I went with them to Pleasant grove, heard Mr Coil preach from the 1st verse of the 4th Chapter of Ephesians, the first time I ever heard him. I think his remarks were very good & very appropriate, wish he would come up often & preach for us, he & Miss M. Steward came home with me will stay all night. Read in Jeremiah. Sunday 12th A cloudy day, wind high this morng., heavy thunder from one oclock [sic] till now ten at night but no rain. D. Mobley called twice. Mr Coil took dinner with us. Miss H. Pittard came home with us from church is here now. Miss E. Thompson here tonight. Mr Coil preached from the 17th verse of the 3rd chapter of Proverbs, & the latter part of the 15th verse of the 13th chapter (of the same book) I thought he did better yesterday than today. Read one chapter in Proverbs. Monday 13th A dark cloudy morng & very warm, about nine oclock it commenced raining with thunder & wind, about 12 oclock [sic] had a rain storm, with some hail, & now almost cold enough to freeze, I have been quite unwell all day with headache, but have been helping Miss H. Pittard about her apron. Read in Jeremiah. Tuesday 14th A dark cloudy day, some little rain. Read in Jeremiah. I feel better today but wearied from helping Miss H. Pittard about her apron. So dark, & so very cold I could not leave the fire. 1868 122 Wednesday 15th Another dark rainy morng, but not so cold aa the two previous days, some sun this afternoon, but now cloudy. Miss H. Pittard left this afternoon. Read through the Lamentations of Jeremiah. Bless us O my Father & grant us every blessing. O for peace & plenty one more time; Thursday 16th Another dark rainy day but much warmer. I think no one has called today. Wrote to Mrs Vonderleith & Mrs L. D. Mayne. Read in Ezekiel. Friday 17th A fair day. Several called. Stump & myself took supper at Mr M. Thompson's came home after nine oclock [sic]. Read in Ezekiel. Finished all my little work for Dick & his family, wish they had them now. Saturday 18th A fair pleasant day. J. Bone, Mr Verdaree, Mr House, Miss A. Clayton & Miss Long here this afternoon. Mr Anthony & Lee Thompson came after supper & set till nearly eleven oclock [sic]. Read in Ezekiel. Sunday 19th A dark rainy day. Read in Ezekiel; & one sermon since supper. Monday 20th. A dark cloudy day, but no rain since seven oclock [sic] this morng. Read in Ezekiel, wrote to Mr L. C. Downs, Miss C. Bone here today. Tuesday 21st A dark rainy morning, cleared off about 12 oclock [sic] had a bright afternoon. Read in Ezekiel. Wednesday 22nd A fair day. Mr J. Morton called this morng. Three Misses Thompson spent the afternoon here. Received a letter from Ed. Read in Ezekiel. Thursday 23rd A fair pleasant day. Several called. Read in Ezekiel. Alfred (negro) died last night, wrote a letter for his wife this morng. Mary & myself set [sic] till bedtime at Mr Bone's. Friday 24th A fair warm day. Mr Wellborn Hill & another student come [sic] down this afternoon spent an hour or so with us. Wrote to Ed. Read in Ezekiel. I have been busy all day fixing my flowers. Saturday 25th A cloudy morning, a bright afternoon, several gentlemen called this morning. Four Misses Thompson spent an hour or so here this after­noon. Read in Ezekiel. Sunday 26th A cloudy some wind all day, & since dark quite 1868 123 high. Two Misses Britton, two Misses Bone & Miss Roberts here a few minutes this afternoon. Read through Daniel, Hosea, Joel; & one sermon tonight. Mrs Susan Mayne sent word by Horrace for me to write to her. I have written a short letter to have it ready as he will call early in the morning; poor old lady. I suppose its a great comfort to her to hear from the neighbours [sic], Monday 27th A dark cloudy day, rained some this morng. Miss C. Bone called Read in Amos. Wrote to Mrs . N. L. Barnard & Put up some green house plants for her. Tuesday 28th Another dark rainy day; Wrote to Dr H.C. Billups, Read in Amos; Wednesday 29th A fair warm day. Several called at the gate. I think no one has been in the house, Read in Amos, I have been repotting & arranging my greenhouse plants & am really worn out, Thursday 30th A fair warm day. Several called. Wrote to Miss S. Frierson, to Miss L. Frierson, to Mrs D. Moore & to Mrs E. Thompson. Read in Amos; I feel very sad & very unwell or rather fatigued, have been very busy all day with my flowers, & doing some fine work, don't think I ever saw my flowers look half so pretty & yet I don't appreciate them as I usually do. O for peace & plenty once more. May 1st A fair warm day. Miss C. Bone called this morng. Mrs E. Thompson spent the day here. Mrs Benton & Mrs L. Bone called this afternoon. Read in Amos. Saturday 2nd A cloudy day, with some wind, several gentlemen called this morning. Miss H. & Miss J. Pittard, Miss M. & Miss C. Hale spent the afternoon here. Read through Obadiah. My neck & shoulder pain me very much fear I shall have a bad night think it neuralsia [sic]. Sunday 3rd A dark cloudy day, rained all the morning. no one been in the house, Several gentlemen came to see Stump. This day three years ago Stump arrived from Lee's army, & some other soldiers here; O the trials & troubles I have encountered since that day. I was so thankful to receive him alive & well, but even then grieved at the surrender, but little little did I think we would be called on to or rather to tell the truth little did I think the yankees would or could impose on us as they have, but I know its right, bless us O my father & help us to bear & forbear for 1868 124 surely if any people on the globe need forbearance its the Southern people, we are stripped, peeled, impoverished insulted, abused & scorned by our bitter enemies. I had no idea any people on earth had or could have such vindictive feelings, but all things do & will work together for good; Read through Jonah & commenced Micah also one sermon since supper; Monday 4th A fair pleasant day, several called three years today the yankees searched the house with a loaded gun and pistol cocked at my head; never can I forget it, and now two negroes elected to the legislature, what are we to do & how to live, but its all right God knows best what is for our good, only be pleased heavenly Father to make us humble & submissive to thy will; teach us to bow with cheerfulness to thy will; finished reading Sweet Home enjoyed it very much. Read in Nahum; I have been quite unwell again today. Tuesday 5th A fair warm day. Miss C. Bone here twice; Received a letter from Capt A. L. Steele & one from Miss M. B. Anglin. Read in Nahum; Wrote a note to Mr F. Lucas, Junior. Wednesday 6th A fair warm day. Miss M. & Miss Mablin [?] Thompson spent the afternoon here. Read in Naham. Received a note from F. Lucas. Thursday 7th A cool - cloudy windy day, rained last night & some little this morning. Several gentlemen called at the gate Miss L. C. Bone & Col J. Billups here this morng. Received a note from Ed. Read in Habakkuk. I have felt very sad for some days & bad dreams, something unpleasant, some death that will distress me will I think happen soon. Friday 8th A fair cool windy day. Col J. Billups called this morning. Read in Habakkuk. Wrote a note to Mr A. Dearing & one to Miss E. Bradford, Received one from Miss B. Saturday 9th A fair cool windy day. Three Misses Britton called this morning & walked with me to church at Pleasant grove. Mr E. Harwell met us there, Mr Britton the only male member was not there. We heard Mr Harwell had voted the radical & determined to ask him, the members thought I must attend to it (being the oldest member) I asked if he did he said 'yes' I told him we had decided never to hear one 1868 125 preach who had voted a radical ticket, he said then we need go no further (laying the bible on the table) I told him I thought he had a perfect right to voLe as he _pleased & we had a right to think as we pleased about it; we parted in peace but he seemed to feel very unpleasant sad. I felt very unpleasant but I will not hear a radical preach if I can help it or rather if I know it; nevertheless I felt very much for him & regret very much not having preaching there, but cant help it, its not politics as it formerly was, its now the races, white & black is the question, & I cannot associate with or feel well with one that favours [sic] social equality, Miss A. Davis, three Misses Thompson & Joe Thompson took supper & set till bed time with us. Read in Zephaniah, Wrote to F. Lucas. Sunday 10th A fair cool day, think there surely was a light frost yesterday & today; Dick Mobley, Joe Thompson & others called this morning; Mr W. H. Jackson & Miss L Frierson came down this afternoon, Miss F. Will re­main several days Mr Gus Brightwell & Mr Smith here tonight. We all walked to the church this morng thinking or hoping Mr Thornton would be there but as no preacher came we came home before twelve. Read in Zephaniah. Monday 11th A cool cloudy day. Several gentlemen called. Received a letter from Mr L. C. Downs. Read in Zephaniah. Called a few minutes this evening after sundown to see Mrs Betton found her better. Tuesday 12th A dark rainy day. Some heavy thunder tonight & some last night or before day this morng with considerable wind. Several called at the gate but I think no one been in the house. Read through Haggai. Miss L. Frierson is in bad health. I think she is not so well today as yesterday, poor child she seems so wearied, almost impatient having been unwell for some months. Wednesday 13th A dark cloudy day. Dr Philips here tonight. Read in Zechariah. Thursday 14th A cloudy day, a foot traveler here tonight. Read in Zechariah. finished five napkins (fancy work) for Stump think them really hansome [sic]; Received a note from Mrs N. L. Barnard; Friday 15th A fair cool day. Mr Joe Morton & others called this morng. Mr Hoover & Charley Bradford spent the afternoon here. I have not seen Charlie for many years, pleased to see him, Read in Zechariah. 1868 126 Saturday 16th A cloudy day, rained some about sundown; Several called; received a note from H. C. Flournoy. July Ann cut up this morng & went to him but he did nothing for her; Read in Zechariah. I have been greater part of the day making boquetts [sic]. Sunday 17th A fair day, & rather pleasant. Mr M. Davin & Mr J. Thompson here this morning. Mr & Mrs Hoover here this afternoon. Miss L. Frierson went home with them & really I think her in a strange condition, poor child she surely will be in bed soon & very sick. Read in Zechariah, through Malachi &commenced Mathew. Read one sermon. Monday 18th A fair cool day. Mr J. Morton here this morning. Charley Barnard spent the day here. Mr & Mrs Barnard, Mr & Mrs Burkhead & Miss E. Mitchell took tea with us, so I have enjoyed the day very much indeed. Read in Mathew. Tuesday 19th A fair day, cool & windy. C. Bone here this morng, Mr R. Baily & his son this afternoon. wrote to Mr E. McManaman & to Mrs J. D. Karney. Read in Mathew. Wednesday 20th A cloudy day, or more cloud than sunshine. Several gentle­men called. Mr W. Hodgson & Miss Canard here this afternoon. Read in Mathew. Wrote to Dick's wife. Thursday 21st A fair day. Mr & Mrs J. Morton spent the day here at least Mr Morton went to town & came back to dinner. Dr E. Newton spent an hour or so here this afternoon. Read in Mathew. Fixed up the package for Dick & his family, wish I could see them when they receive & open it, but I fear I shall never see them again. Friday 22nd A cloudy day, several showers of rain. Several gentlemen called. Read in Mathew. O my Father bless & protect us, help us through all our trials & troubles; my head aches severely, & troubled with it. Saturday 23rd A fair cool day. Several called. I have been in bed nearly all day with my head, feel better tonight. Read in Mathew. Walked up after supper to see Mrs Benton as she is quite unwell & old, found her up; Sunday 24th A fair, cool day. I think no one has been in the house but Billy Dean, but have conversed with Mr Davis Mr J. Thompson, Mr Kittle & others at the gate. Read in Mathew & Mark & one sermon. 1868 127 Monday 25th A fair day. Dr E. Newton called this morng. Miss C. & J. Bone came after supper & set till bed time. I spent the day very pleasantly & Mr J. Morton's. Read in Mark; Tuesday 26th A fair day, though we had a sprinkle of rain about 4 oclock [sic]. Mrs W. Pittard spent the day here. Read in Mark. Wrote a note to F. Lucas. Received one from Miss M.A. Frierson; Wednesday 27th A fair warm day. Joel Dean here this afternoon. Received a note from Miss E. Thompson answered it. Read in Mark. Wrote to Mr J.P. Dorsey, to send tomorrow; Thursday 28th A fair warm day & quite windy. Stump & myself dined at Mr Thompson's, came home soon after dinner. Received a note from Ed McManaman. Wrote to Mrs M. Frierson received an answer; Read in Mark. Soon after supper we heard a pistol shot at the negro quarter & some one called Stump, the negroes had a row about a man and his wife separating, guess they will run to the Yankees tomorrow; Friday 29th A cloudy day, Mr M. P. Davis & Mr J. Thompson here this morning, Read in Mark & several tales in Courtship & Marriage (By Mrs C. L. Hentz) Saturday 30th A fair warm day, but considerable wind. Miss M.A. Frierson, Miss L. Sparks, Mr Roquemore & Mr F. Harris spent the day here, others called, Read in Mark. Sunday 31st A fair warm day, perhaps the warmest day we've had & needing rain. Mr Wilkerson & another gentleman here to summon the negroes as witnesses regarding the fuss they had Thursday night, hope they will come out safe & well. Read in Mark & a sermon tonight. Mrs Roberts & Miss Bone here this afternoon. O if I could go to church every Sabbath as I have. Monday June 1st A fair warm day. Col J. Billups called this morning. Wrote to Miss C. Bone this morng. Read in Luke. The negroes all went up but one, gained the suit, so I feel thankful all came off well; Tuesday 2nd A bright morng, cloudy afternoon, was in hopes we would have a rain but think now we will not. Col J. Billups called this morng. Mr Wade dined with us. Mr M. P. Davis here tonight. Read in Luke. Wednesday 3rd A cloudy day. Mr M. P. Davis, Miss J. Bone & others called. Received a letter from Dick & his wife & a note from Mr J. Dorsey. Read in Luke. 1868 128 Thursday 4th A cloudy day, but I fear we shall have no rain. I think we are needing it very much indeed; Miss Mollie & Mattie Thompson spent the afternoon here, Read in Luke. Wrote a note to Mr J. Winter. Friday 5th A cloudy day, no rain yet, I feel like we are suffering for it, but not my will or desire, God knows best. I feel so restless & unhappy about Stump, he went to town this morning & has not returned, bless him O my Father & bring him back now & safe & sound grant that he may come very soon & no accident or misfortune. Read in Luke. Saturday 6th A fair day & very dry. Miss C. Bone, Mr N. Davis & others called. Read in Luke; Sunday 7th A fair warm Dry day. Miss M. Benton here this morng. Mr D. Mitchell & Mr Luckie here this afternoon. Read in Luke & a sermon tonight. Monday 8th A cloudy day, had a thunder cloud but only a sprinkle of rain not even to lay the dust; the ground is so hard & dry can't even plough, Mr J. Morton here this morning. Read in Luke; just seventeen years today since I was baptized, how many changes & yet everything that occured [sic] that is so plain & distinct, seems but as yesterday. Tuesday 9th A fair cool day some wind & no prospect of rain; Miss Mattie, Mollie & Amiee Thompoon spent the day here, Mr J. Morton spent the afternoon. Mr & Mrs Barnard, Mrs Frierson & Miss E. Mitchell took supper, left after ten oclock [sic]. Mr . T. M. Daniel here tonight; Read in Luke. Wednesday 10th A cold, cloudy, windy day. Mr Grady & others called this morning. Miss H. & J. Pittard here tonight, Wrote to Mrs N. L. Barnard. Read in Luke. Thursday 11th A fair day & still very dry; Mr . M. P. Davis & Mr J. Fesler here this afternoon. Charley Barnard here tonight. Read in Luke. Received a note from Mrs Barnard. Friday 12th A fair, cool, windy day. Charlie B. & myself went up to town this afternoon called to see Mrs Brown she boarded here twenty years ago had no idea she'd recognize me; but she did. Read in Luke. after calling on Mrs Brown we called on Mrs Barnard left there at sundown. 1868 129 Saturday 13th Another dry hot day. I went to Pleasant grove heard Mr W. T. Thornton read in & make some remarks from the 23rd Psalm. I think good & appropriate, was pleased with him as a man & preacher; Mr D. Mitchell here tonight. Read in Luke; Monday 15th Yesterday we all went to Pleasant grove, heard Mr Thornton preach from the 15th verse of the 50th Psalm. Mr & Mrs N. L. Barnard, Mr & Mrs J. Dunnahoo & their three children, & Mr Thornton dined here. W. H. Morton & Miss F. Frierson called in the afternoon we had a good rain about four or five oclock [sic], after which all the company left. Mrs Barnard insisted so much that I went home with her, staid [sic] all night & today took dinner with Mrs Mitchell. Stump went up & came home with him this evening, have enjoyed myself very much indeed. Read in the Testament last night & one Psalm tonight; found all well at home & feel truly thankful. Tuesday 16th A fair warm day, Col J. Billups called this morning. Wrote to Mrs Barnard & to Mr J. T. Lumpkin. Received a note from Mr J. T. Lumpkin yesterday. Read in Luke; Wednesday 17th A fair warm day. Mr [ ] a traveler here tonight. Read in Luke. Thursday 18th A cloudy morng, a bright afternoon. Mr J. Fesler called this morng. Miss Mollie & Mattie Thompson here tonight. Read in Luke. Received a note from Oto [sic] & Mary Greer (my grandchildren) the first they ever wrote me; of course I feel pleased to receive it; poor little things wish I could see them; Friday 19th A fair Warm day; had a thunder shower about sic oclock [sic] this afternoon a pretty shower but the ground is so dry & hot I fear it will not do much good. I feel truly thankful for it & for every blessing I enjoy. Read in Luke. Saturday 20th A cloudy day had a thunder shower about six oclock [sic] with very little rain, but its now raining very prettily do hope we'll have a good one now, bless us O my father & send us rain & sunshine, seedtime & harvest, grant us good crops this year, & every blessing thou seest we need; the rain is over I think & not enough for a good season, not my will but thine be done. T. A. Hill took dinner with us today. Read in Luke. Sunday 21st A cloudy morning, bright afternoon. Mr Reynolds, Mr Baily 1868 130 & others called. Stump, Mary Pittard & myself spent an hour at Joel Dean's & the same at W. Dean's this afternoon found them all better than we expected; Read in Luke & one sermon tonight; Monday 22nd A fair cool day. W. H. Dean, T. A. Hill & others called. spent two hours at Mr Roberts this afternoon. Read in John. Tuesday 23rd A fair day & quite cool. Mr Cox & Col J. Billups called. Indeed Mr Cox dined here; I went to town this morng called on Mrs Frierson, spent the day & dined with Mrs Bradford, Miss Lou Frierson came home with me. Received a letter from E. F. McManaman. Read in John. Wednesday 24th A cloudy cool day. Col J. Billups called this morng. Gen Frierson's son here tonight. Wrote to Oto [sic] & Mary Greer. Read in John. Thursday 25th A fair cool windy day. I think no one has been in the house several called at the gate. Wrote to Dick & Mollie. Read in John. Friday 26th A cool cloudy day. Several called. Charlie Barnard here tonight. Lou Frierson & myself went to town this morng. Called on Mrs Bradford, then on Mrs Frierson, then on Mrs Sparks, dined & spent the afternoon with Mrs Savage, left at 6 oclock [sic], called at the gate at Mr Friersons, at J. Dorsey's store at Mr Hoover's at Dr Billups' at Mr Cohen's & several persons stoped us on the road who had business with us, got home at dusk. Read in John, feel very much wearied, but enjoyed the day very much indeed; Saturday 27th A fair pleasant day, had a nice rain last night. Stump, Lou Frierson & myself spent an hour at Mr M. Thompson's this morng. I think no one has called or come in the house today. Wrote a letter to Ed McManaman & one to Capt A. L. Steele, Read in John; I feel so truly thankful for the rains we have had the last two weeks. Sunday 28th A fair pleasant day; J. Thompson & his sister Mattie called this morng. Capt D. Langston & D. Mitchell came about 4 oclock [sic], soon after they came Mr & Mrs Hoover came all took supper & left soon after sundown. Read in John & one sermon. O for a good & perfect heart; 1868 131 Monday 29th A fair pleasant day. Several called at the gate I think no one has been in. Read in John; Stump, Miss L. Frierson & myself went up to Mr Thompson's after supper to see some travelers camped up there, rather gypsy style & fortune tellers. Tuesday 30th A fair warm day. Mr Cox & Mr Smith here this morng. Mr Burkhead & Mrs Barnard took supper here; Read in John. Wednesday July 1st A fair pleasant day, at least not extra warm for the season; Mr J. Morton called this morng & Miss L. Frierson went up to town with him; J. Thompson called this morng then dined with us. Wrote to Mrs J. Morton Read in John. Thursday 2nd A fair warm day. Mrs Smith (a gypsy fortune teller) & daughter in law came just before dinner & left about three oclock [sic]. I had her to tell my fortune knows nothing about it at least told me nothing, after supper her husband & son came & set untill [sic] ten oclock [sic]. Read in John. Friday 3rd A fair day & not very warm. I think no one has been in the house but several called at the gate. Received a note from Mr J. T. Lumpkin. Read in John. I sat an hour at Mr S. Bones tonight. Saturday 4th Another dry warm day. Miss J. Pittard spent the day here. Miss J. Bone & Miss A. Roberts here tonight to sit till bedtime. Read in John. Be pleased heavenly Father to give us rain & sunshine seedtime & harvest, our oats have failed from the first now be pleased to grant us a good crop of corn & cotton, fodder, peas, potatoes, fruit etc, etc. Sunday 5th A cloudy day, had a thunder cloud about three today, but only a sprinkle of rain, no one came in today, several called at the gate. Read in John & a sermon tonight, Bless us O my Father & grant us a good rain but, "not my will" only help us to feel thy will be done. I have been so much troubled the last day or two thinking about my business, have to fix for stilling my fruit & am not done the farm work, & no money to buy meat & bread, but have engaged a waggon [sic] to help me this week & feel like perhaps I may get through, all things work for good. Monday 6th A fair warm day, Mr J. Morton called twice. I went to town this morng called on Mrs. Vetch, had a conversation with Mrs Freirson at her gate also talked a few minutes with Mr Bradford, spent an hour or so with Mrs Clayton, Called (torn page) Mr Thompson here tonight. 1868 132 Tuesday 7th A fair warm day; Several called. Stump, Mary Pittard & myself took supper at Mr W. Pittard's, spent the time pleasantly got home after ten oclock [sic]. Read in John. Wednesday 8th A fair warm day, a thunder cloud about one oclock [sic] but no rain. Mr M. P. Davis, Mr M. Thompson & others called. Miss E. Thompson spent the day here. J. Thompson here tonight. Read in John. Stump has been complain­ing all day, fear he will be sick; O for a good rain right now. This is Stump's birthday. Thursday 9th A cloudy day, had a good rain between twelve & one oclock, [sic] no wind or thunder & fell slow, the ground sufficiently wet; I think no one has been in the house today. Read in John. Stump still very unwell, do hope he will be better tomorrow. Friday 10th A fair day several gentlemen called. Read in the Acts of the Apostles, hope Stump is better, the rest well. Saturday 11th A fair warm day. two Misses Britton & Mr Shackleford called this morng. Mr M. P. Davis & Mr J. Thompson here this afternoon; Read in Acts; I went to Pleasant grove heard Mr W. T. Thornton preach a good sermon from the 10th & 9th of Ecclesiastes, "Whatsoever thy hand findeth to do, do it with thy might." Stump still complaining. Sunday 12th A fair warm day, some thunder & a few drops of rain W. H. Morton, Mr Butler, W. Dean & Mr J. Thompson called this morng. Mr R. Mobly, Lee & J. Thompson, Miss E. & A. Thompson here this afternoon. Miss H. & M. Pittard here tonight. Mary & myself went to Pleasant grove heard Mr Thornton preach a good sermon from, "Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ & you shall be saved." wrote to Dr Moore, Stump is better but not well; twenty-four years today since I commenced keeping a daily Journal wonder if I shall keep it as long again? Read in Acts. We need rain again, do hope we shall have it. Monday 13th A fair warm day had a thunder cloud but no rain & we think we we suffer very much for it; Mr J. Morton called soon after breakfast. then Dr Moore & his wife, & son after dinner Mr Short & his son. J. Thompson [torn page] Read in Acts; I suffered severely last night 1868 133 Tuesday 14th A fair & very day, & so dry. Bless us O my Father & grant us a good rain, it seems to me farmers should be the best of Christians we see & feel every day our entire dependence on God, "Paul may plant & water, but, God alone can give the increase; Mr Watson & Mr Cook here this morng. Mr Shackleford. here this afternoon, Read in Acts, hope Stump is better. Dick is thirty-eight years old today. Wednesday 15th A fair hot day & now suffering for rain very much indeed. Joe Thompson & others called. Wrote to Ed & Dick. Read in Acts. I have been so much troubled of late, can't see how I am to get through. I can't keep my waggon [sic] running have to stop that constantly to plough & have no idea we will make as much by the crop as the waggon [sic] would make, & now nothing to eat & no money to buy it, what must I do? Thursday 16th Another hot dry day. O if we could only have a good rain. Bless us O my Father & grant us rain; J. Thompson here this morning. Read in Acts. Its [sic] so warm I feel almost exhausted. Friday 17th Another hot dry day had a thunder cloud but no rain, its now cloudy & thundering but I fear we will not have rain. I heard they had a good one in town I feel truly thankful for that. Mr J. Morton called this morning & left Mrs M. Alen here, she left this evening. Mr Cox dined here. Read in Acts. Saturday 18th A fair hot day. I spent the day at Mr J. Morton's very pleasantly indeed, had a very good rain there, came home to find every thing as dry & hot as I left it. I feel truly thankful that they had it & do wish we could have a good one, but God knows best when to send it. Mr Mrs E. P. Clayton came here this morning regret exceedingly that I was absent. Miss G. & M. Tuck here this afternoon. Read in Acts. O for rain. Sunday 19th A cloudy day, had a thunder shower last night some heavy thunder, & a beautiful rain about two oclock [sic] today, quite cool now & still cloudy. I do indeed feel so truly thankful for the two rains, it will make many bushels of corn, & the fruit & vegetables will be better. Read in Acts & one chapter in Romans, a sermon tonight. Monday 20th. A fair warm day. I think no one has been in the house during the day. Conversed with several at the gate. Read in Romans. Made two lavenda [sic] broaches for Mrs Morton, making eleven I have made this year for friends. 1868 134 Tuesday 21st A cloudy day, a pretty shower about 3 oclock [sic]. Mr G. Roberts & others called. Rec'd a letter from Dick his wife and children, Read in Romans; have a severe headache tonight, but, so thankful for the rain & the letters. Wednesday 22nd A fair warm day. J. Fesler & J. Thompson here today; Received a note from Mrs M.A. Vetch. Read in Romans; Thursday 23rd A cloudy day, had a pretty rain this afternoon. Col J. Billups called this morng. J. Thompson this afternoon. Gen Frierson's little son here tonight. Received a letter from Dick, wrote a long one to him. Read in Romans. Friday 24th A cloudy day, some little rain. Col J. Billups, Mr Joe Thompson & others called. Wrote to Mrs N. L. Barnard. Read in Romans. I went to town after four oclock [sic] spoke to several merchants, called on Mrs Savage, took supper with Mrs E. P. Clayton, J. Frierson came home with me to stay some weeks. Saturday 25th A dark cloudy day, had a two good rains since dinner & com­menced again since dark & still raining hard. Mr Lester & Mr Hailes here this morng. Mr Lee Thompson, Mr Browning & others here since dinner; wrote a note to Mrs E. P. Clayton, Read in Romans. Sunday 26th A dark rainy day. Several hard showers, & rather a storm this afternoon; wrote a note to Mr J. Dunnahoo but have not sent it; Read in Romans. Dr J. Brightwell here tonight; & as the boys were in the colonade I did not read the sermon as usual; Bless us O my Father & help us through with the next five or six weeks, we are fixing to still our fruit, be pleased to help us & protect us; Monday 27th A cloudy day, or more cloud than sunshine; Mr Shackleford, Mr W. Butler & other gentlemen called. Mrs Roberts & Miss J. Bone here this afternoon. Read in First Corinthians; O for peace, quiet & plenty; they say our brother yankees have taken us into the Union I take no interest whatever in it; have no national pride now; if I can only make out to live that is all I ask. Tuesday 28th A cloudy day. Mr Lester & his son dined here. Mr Mac Thompson called. Wrote to Mrs Vetch & Dr Moore. Read in 1st Corinthians. 1868 135 Wednesday 29th A cloudy day, a hard rain about eleven oclock. Mr C. & J. Cox spent the day here fixing about stilling, I do hope I shall succeed & do well. I never should have undertaken it but for poverty, but T must try and get some money someway; Bless me O my Father & help me through. Mr J. Mor­ton called this morning, read in First Corinthinians; Thursday 30th A cloudy day, several sprinkles of rain. I went to Athens this morng to see Capt Jones about stilling. He had just received orders to let no one have license for less than four hundred dollars. I cant think that will be the final decision, at least I have written to Gen R. C. Dunn of Gen Mead's staff to know his opinion of it. I am still beating up fruit if I find I cant still I will make vinegar of it. Called on Mrs Clayton & Mrs Frier­son & came home to dinner. Read in First Corinthians. Three Misses Thompson here this afternoon. Friday 31st A dark foggy morning, a bright afternoon. Mr J. Fesler is the only one I think who has been in the house, several gentlemen at the lot where beating up fruit. Read in First Corinthians. I felt quite unwell this morng but better since dinner, do hope as we have gone so far we may be permitted to go on with our fruit. August 1st A fair day. Several gentlemen called, a traveler here tonight. wrote to Mr Lester & Mr Cook. Received a letter from Mr E. P. Clayton & Mrs M. E. Oliver. Read in First Corinthians. Sunday 2nd A fair warm day. Mis. J. Morton & her daughter called this afternoon. Miss A. Pittard here tonight. Wrote to Mr J. D. Ramey & to Col L. J. Deupree. Read in First Corinthians & one sermon; Monday 3rd A cloudy day, had a hard rain about 2 oclock [sic]. Several called at the gate. Wrote to Mrs M. E. Oliver & to Mr W. L. Holman. Read in Second Corinthians. Bless me O my Father & help me . Tuesday 4th Another rainy day. Miss E. & M. Thompson here this morng. Mr C. & J. Cox dined here. Received a note from Miss F. Moore answered it. Received one from Mr W. Dougherty; expected two letters tonight but sadly disappointed. O that I may succeed in my present undertaking, never thought of having anything to do with stilling but I do want to make enough to get an even start one more time. Read in Second Corinthians. Wednesday 5th A foggy & cloudy morng, bright afternoon. J. Frierson & myself went to town this morng. I spent an hour at Col J. Billups' with Mr & Mrs W. Dougherty very pleasantly. Wrote to D. R. D. Moon Read in Second Corinthians. 1868 136 Thursday 6th A cloudy day. Mr J. Fesler, Mr J. Morton, Mrs M. & her daughter called this morng. Mr M. Thompson & Miss E. Thompson here this afternoon. Read in Second Corinthians; we have put up one vat & think it will hold the mobby so I feel very much grateful, bless us O my Father & help through; I am trying to make a support, & do hope I will succeed; Friday 7th Another foggy morng but bright from nine oclock till sun­down. Mr Reynolds & others called this morng. Dr Moore & Miss C. Bone This afternoon; Read in Second Corinthians. Stump went to this morng to see if the barrels I had written for had come, they had not he found six but had no money & could not get them, I never felt worse in my life, laid down but could not sleep, cried like a child to think I had gone to all this trouble & expense & now nothing to put the brandy in, & to think I should suffer so for six dollars; O the trouble the trouble I do see from want. no one could imagine how much I suffer & no help no one to even to comfort or console me. Dr R. D. Moore came down this afternoon & said he would get the barrels for me. I thank thee O my Father for thy great & marvelous kindness towards me; what shall I do? How be sufficiently thankful for so many blessings, so much more than I deserve. O teach me to be thankful. Saturday 8th A fair day, had a light shower about 2 oclock [sic]. Mr J. Thomp­son & Mr J. Morton called this morng. Mr and Mrs N.L. Barnard and their three children spent the day here. Mr M.P. Davis called just at night. I went to Pleasant grove heard Mr W.T. Thornton preach from the 11th verse of the 13th chapter of Second Corinthians. Received a letter from Mr J.D. Ramsey. I thank thee heavenly Father for thy great & marvelous kindness towards us. Be pleased to watch over, protect & care for us. Sunday 9th A fair day, I spent an hour at Mr T. Bone's this morning found Mrs Bone pretty well, but in bed. W. Dean & Mr Butler called twice; Mr Gier and Mr McCallister spent the day here, Mr H. Biggers & his sister, Mr J. Thomp­son & others called this afternoon. Read some in Second Corinthians &through Galatians. Wrote a note to Col L.J. Deupree & one to Mr W.S. Holman. Mr Dick Mobly eat [sic] supper here. Monday 10th A fair day, Miss F. Frierson, Miss M. Lucas, Col Billups 1868 137 & others called this morng. Mr T. M. Daniel here tonight, a number of gentle­men called at the still during the day. Wrote several notes. Read in Ephesians; thank thee O my Father for thy great & marvelous kindness, every day some great good happens. Col Billups said today he would get some mobby stands for me, its thy will O my Father that these friends come forward & help me; Be pleased to continue thy loving kindness towards us, & help me for Christ's sake, help me to trust. Tuesday 11th A fair day. Col J. Billups called this morng. Mr O'Kelly & others afternoon, Read in Ephesians. Wednesday 12th A fair day. Mr M. Thompson spent the day here helping me about my vats; Mr J. Morton & others called. Read in Ephesians. Bless me O my Father & help me. Thursday 13th A fair cool day. Col J. Billups, Mr Lester & others called this morng. Mr M.P. Davis & Mr T. M. Daniel here tonight, Mrs Betsy Thompson spent an hour or so here this afternoon, received a letter from Mr Holman. Read in Ephesians; another heavy trial & trouble. Stump is drinking & has cut up extensively. O my Father help me; help me to bear & forbear; Friday 14th A cloudy day, several gentlemen called during the day. Mrs J. Morton her daughter & Miss F. Frierson here this afternoon. Read in Philip­pians. Wrote a note to Mr H. A. Couch & one to Dr R. D. Moore. Bless me O my Father help us & let us get on better. Saturday 15th A fair cool day. Several gentlemen called. Miss E. Thomp­son here tonight. Read in Ephesians. I have been in bed all day but feel better tonight. Sunday 16th A fair day. Mr Thompson, Mr Hoover, Mr Jackson & others here today. Read through Philippians & Colossians & commenced First Thessalonians. Feel better today but not well. Monday 17th A fair day. Mr Thompson, Mr Davis & many other gentlemen called. Mr R. Lumpkin his wife & children came just as we finished dinner & left after three oclock [sic]. Received a note from Col J. Billups, wrote to Dr R D. Moore. Read or finished First & Read through Second Thessalonians; I have been wearied all day. Tuesday 18th A cloudy day. Several gentlemen called, Miss E. Thompson here this afternoon. Stump & myself went up to town this afternoon to attend to the license but could not, will have to go again tomorrow. Received a letter from Mrs S.E. Sessions. Read in First Timothy. Bless us O my Father & help us through. 1868 138 Wednesday 19th A rainy day. Col J. Billups. Dr Moore & others here; Stump & myself went up to town about the license again this afternoon & had it arranged, was caught in a hard rain as we came home. Its been many years since I was wet, hope it will not make me sick Read in First Timothy. Thursday 20th Another rainy day, but fair now. Sincerely hope we may have ten days & fair weather; Mr H. L. Britton her son & daughter, Miss Wright & Mr Bonnel called this morning. Mr M. P. Davis & others this afternoon. Wrote to Mrs S. E. Sessions, Mr R. Lumpkin, Col J. Billups & D. Moore, received several notes. Read in First Timothy. Friday 21st A fair warm day. Mr J. Morton & others called. Read in Second Timothy, wrote to Maj J. Thomas. I feel better than I could, expect after getting wet. Bless us O my Father & help us through one more time. Saturday 22nd A cloudy day, commenced raining before sundown & had a very hard rain, still raining. Bless us heavenly Father & grant us ten days good fair weather. Wrote to Maj S.C. Hughes. Several gentlemen called. Read in Second Timothy. Sunday 23rd A cloudy day. Mr & Mrs Hoover & their children, Miss L. Frierson & Mr Jackson here this afternoon. H. Biggers took supper here. Read through Titus & Philemon & commenced Hebrews. Read one sermon. Monday 24th A dark cloudy day. Mr J. Morton & other gentlemen called. Read in Hebrews. Tuesday 25th A dark cloudy day, had a hard rain before day this morning. Several gentlemen called. Read in Hebrews I took cold yesterday from being over the fire making preserves & feel very unwell tonight. Wednesday 26th A cloudy morng, bright afternoon. Col J. Billups & Miss L. Frierson called this morning, the latter will stay some days. Several gentle­men here this afternoon. Read in Hebrews. Wrote to Mr W.L. Holman. Thursday 27th A cloudy day. Col J. Billups, Mr J. Fesler & others called two travelers here tonight after a stolen horse. Received a letter from Mr W. S. Holman, answered it, wrote to Mr L.C. Downs. Read in Hebrews, feel very un­well from cold. Friday 28th A cloudy day with several light showers of rain, 1868 139 Col J. Billups D.K.D. Moore & others called this morng. Received a letter from Gen R.C. Drum, & one from Mrs J.D. Raney. Read in Hebrews. Bless us O my Father & protect us; help me to do right. Saturday 29th A cloudy day but no rain, a number of gentlemen called. Miss L. Pittard & her nephews spent the day here. Read in Hebrews, wrote to Gen. R. C. Drum of Gen. Mead's staff. Be pleased gracious Father that we may get through with our stilling any difficulty Sunday 30th A fair day, had a thunder cloud but no rain. Joel Dean took dinner with us. Read through the general Epistle of James and two sermons, I think so much every Sunday about going to church, God grant I may yet do so again. "How sweet upon this sacred day. The best 0f all the seven to cast our earthly cares away, and think of God and Heaven." Monday 31st A fair day. Several gentlemen called. Wrote a note to Miss L. Frierson & one to Mr T. Chandler. Read in the first Epistle of Peter. Heavenly Father spare me, help me for Christ's sake to get through this great & heavy business only grant I may come through safe, let me come out even at any rate. September 1st A cloudy day, considerable but little rain. Many called. D. Mitchell & R. Lumpkin spent the day here; wrote some six or eight notes. Read in first Peter. Wednesday 2nd A cloudy day, had a good rain since dark. Several called. Read in First Peter. Bless us O my Father & help us through with our stilling without any trouble or difficulty. Thursday 3rd A cloudy day, several showers. A number of gentlemen called at the still but none come in. Read in First Peter. Received a letter from Dick, answered it, also received one from Maj. J. Thomas & one from L. Hughes. Finished Reading Kennelworth by Scott. Friday 4th A cloudy day but no rain. Several called. Read through Second Peter. Saturday 5th A fair day. Several gentlemen called. Read in First Epistle of John. O for peace & plenty once more. Sunday 6th A fair day, Mr H. Couch & Mr Roberson here today. Read through first, second & third John & Jude, & one Sermon; some in Weverly. Monday 7th A fair day. Several gentlemen called this morng. D. Mitchell here this afternoon, wrote to Mr H.S. Hughes. Received a letter from Mr W. Holman. Read in Revelations. 1868 140 Tuesday 8th A fair day. Col J. Billups called this morng. Received a note from Miss L. Friercon answered it. Read in Revelations. I thank thee O my Father for every good & every blessing. Wednesday 9th A fair warm day Col J. Billups & others called this morng. Mr D. Mitchell, Mr F. Chandler & Capt Jones took supper here the Capt left after nine the others will remain all night. Read in Revelation. Thursday 10th A cloudy morning, bright afternoon, Mr & Mrs Barnard & Miss A. Billups here this morning Mr J. Morton, Dr Moore & others here this afternoon; read in Revelation. Friday 11th A fair warm day. Mr Lester, Dr Brightwell & others here during the day. Read in Revelation, rec'd a letter from Mr W. Dougherty. Wrote to Miss M. B. Anglin. Saturday 12th A cloudy day, however, had sun this afternoon. Mr Roberson here since dinner. I went to Pleasant grove heard Mr Thornton a Real good & instructive sermon from the 3rd verse of the 1st Psalm. Read in Revelation; O that I could be every where at once, for its impossible for Stump ever to do any thing like a man, he cant manage dont seem to think know or care. Sunday 13th A fair day, J. Frierson, Mary & myself went to Pleasant grove. Miss Britton was baptized, Mr W. J. Thornton preached a good sermon from the 11th verse of the 16th Psalm. Had a hard rain just as he finished, then another just as I got home. Mr Thornton dined with us, Mr & Mrs Hoover & their children & Mr J. H. Jackson & Miss Frierson spent the afternoon. As Mary went home this afternoon, I sent for Miss E. Thompson who is here tonight. Read in Revelation. Monday 14th A fair morning, commenced raining about 12 o clock [sic] & I think about one we had the hardest rain we've had this year. Several gentlemen here during the day. Miss M. & A. Thompson here tonight. Read in Revelation. Tuesday 15th A cloudy morning, a bright afternoon. Several gentlemen called, rec'd a letter from Capt A. L. Steele. Read in Revelation. Miss Mollie Thompson here tonight. Wednesday 16th A fair day, Several gentlemen called at the gate. Read in Revelation. Be pleased heavenly father to bless & direct me. Thursday 17th A dark cloudy day. Mr M. P. Davis, Mr W. H. Thornton & others called. Mr J. Morton dined here. Mr M. P. Davis & Miss E. 1868 141 Thompson set with us until bedtime. Received a letter from one of Mrs T. Hundley's children. Read in Revelation. Stump is gone to Mr T. Chandler's wedding. I miss him although I have not had him with me at night for some weeks. Friday 18th A fair cool day. Had a good fire all day, Col J. Billups, Mr M. Thompson, Mr Davis & others called. Read in Revelation. Stump came home to dinner safe & sound, at least one comfort in all my trials & troubles, O my father help me through with all my difficulties for Christ's sake. Saturday 19th A fair cool day. Col J. Billups, Dr T. G. Macon, Mr & Mrs R. Hughes & Miss Kellum here this morng, Several here since dinner. Mr & Mrs T. H. Frierson & Miss M. A Frierson here tonight. Read in the Testament. Sunday 20th A cloudy day, several called. Mr J. Dunnahoo took supper with us. Read four or five chapters in John. Monday 21st A fair day. Mr T. Chandler dined here, Mr W. Dean & Mr Marable took supper here. Mr W. H. Morton, his sister & Miss F. Frierson called twice. Read a chapter in John. Tuesday 22nd A cloudy morng, bright afternoon. Mr M. P. Davis & others called during the day. Mr C. Cox dined here. Read one chapter in Acts. Bless us O my Father & help us for Christ's sake. Wednesday 23rd A cloudy day. Mr M. P. Davis, Col J. Billups, Mr Hoover & T. H. Frierson & others called. Mrs Frierson & Miss Frierson: left this morng. Received a letter from Miss A. E. Pottle, answered it. Read one chapter in Acts. O that I only could know how to act. Thursday 24th A fair warm day. Several called this afternoon. Col J. Billups here this morning. Mr Smith (a traveler) here tonight. Read one chapter in Mark. Friday 25th A cloudy day, several hard rains. Mrs J. Morton & others called. Read one chapter in Romans. Stump went to town this morng & has not yet returned. Cant see why he does so, to leaves his business so, & then all this brandy left here, He surely is a strange man, dont seem to take any interest in anything. Saturday 26th A cloudy day. Mr Wright, Mr Jennings, J. & W. Deane dined with us. Capt Jones, D. Mitchell, Mr Rutherford & others here this afternoon. Read in Matthew, received a letter from Miss. A. E. Pottle; Well I hope we have not done wrong, we had the brandy inspected & are letting the neighbors have it. It seems there's no inspecter [sic] appointed, at least none has come & I could not be responsible any longer. 1868 142 Sunday 27th A cloudy day. Mr C. & J. Cox & others called, Mr B. Smith here tonight. I left home at 8 1/2 o clock, called at Gen. Frierson's a few minutes, dined & spent the afternoon at Mrs G.:Jennings, got home after dark found at right & thankful that I went & come safe. Read in first Corinthians. Monday 28th A fair cool day; Several gentlemen called. Mr J. Frierson & myself spent an hour at Mrs Roberts this afternoon, went see if they were sick as we were frightened about them last night, Just after supper we heard someone screaming & crying down there, Stump, Mr Yarber & several negroes went running with pistols & clubs. When they got there, they found Mrs R. Boling on the piazza floor crying. Stump walked up softly expecting to shoot some one, asked what on earth is the matter madame? She jumped up and ran in the house. saying nothing, nothing. Was in her night clothes. Stump did not go in. The old lady came out & said she was crying because her husband said her father was a radical. We went down & I think that was all, dont think they had any quarrel or fuss. Read one chapter in First Corinthians; Tuesday 29th A fair, cool, windy day. Col J. Billups called this morng. W. Dean, Mr Dawson &others this afternoon. Read in Matthew. Wednesday 30th A fair day, a fine pleasant all day. Col J. Billups, Mr Wade, Mr H. Biggers & others here this morng. Miss Amanda Pittard came home with Mary this morng & still here. Mr B. Thompson & Mr Dunnaway here this afternoon to arrest George (freedman) for stealing a hog; poor fellow he was frightened almost to death, & really has scarcely sense enough to keep out of difficulties. He & such as he should by all means have a guardian appointed. He has so much temper he can't live in peace with his friends. Read in 1st Timothy. October the 1st A fair cool day. Several called during the day. Miss A. & E. Pottle & Miss B. Kennedy came today to stay some time. Mr J. Fesler set till bedtime with us. Read a chapter in Hebrews. Friday 2nd A dark cloudy day & now raining. Several gentlemen called. Read a chapter in Luke. Saturday 3rd A dark rainy day, some hard rains. Think it will be impossible to travel tomorrow. Read one chapt. in Timothy, wrote to M. J. Jennings; several called. 1868 143 Sunday 4th A dark cloudy day & some rain. I think no one has been in the house today. Banna Henndly had a chill this morning. I wrote to Dr Moore & Carlton, but could get neither. She is better, hope she will not be sick again. Read several chapters in John & one sermon tonight. Monday 5th A fair cool day. Mr T. Fesler, & other gentlemen here this morng. Mr & Mrs Barnard & others here this afternoon. Received a note from Col J. Billups. Read in the Testament. Miss B. Henndly is very unwell today. Tuesday 6th A fair day. Col J. Billups called, Rec'd a letter from Miss M. B. Anglin. Sent for a phisician [sic] to see Bamma Henndly D. J. Long come [sic] just before night. Hope she is much better. Read in Second Corinthians. Wednesday 7th A cloudy day. Col J. Billups here this morng. Several gentlemen here this afternoon. Read in Philippians. Banna had another chill today. The rest seem better. Thursday 8th A fair cool day, had a hard rain last night. Mr J. Thompson I believe the only one who has been in the house. Many called at the gate. Read one chapter in Luke. Banna had another chill today, poor little thing. I wish she could get well. I believe every one of us have been sick today but Stump and John Frierson. I feel much better now. Friday 9th A dark rainy day, several called. Mr J. Thompson here tonight. Wrote to Mr T. S. Henndley. Read a chapter in Romans. I hope the sick are better. Saturday 10th A dark cloudy day, little or no rain. Mr J. Fesler & others called. Received a letter from Mrs T. S. Henndley, read one chapter in Revelations. The sick better I hope. Sunday 11th A dark cloudy day. Some little rain since twelve oclock [sic]. Stump, Miss Pottle & myself went to Pleasant grove & heard Mr Thornton preach a most excellent sermon from "Be not conformed to this world"; Mr J. & T. Thompson called this morning. Mr J. Fesler & Mr D. Mobley dined & spent the afternoon here. Read in Second Thessalonians & one sermon tonight. The sick all better. Monday 12th A cloudy morning, bright afternoon. Mr Steward, Mr Watson, Mr Nabers & others called. Mr T. S. Henndley here tonight. Read in John. Tuesday 13th A fair warm day, several called. Miss Pottle, Mr J. Fesler, Stump & myself went to the depot expecting to meet the remains of Gen. H. Cobb but were disappointed. Stump & myself went to town to see Capt Jones. Disappointed in that, went shopping & arrived home about dark. Read one chapter in Luke. 1868 144 Wednesday 14th A cloudy warm day. Several gentlemen called. J. Frierson, Miss Pottle & myself spent an hour at W. H. Dean's this afternoon. Read a chapter in Second Thessalonians. Thursday 15th A foggy morning, bright afternoon. Mr Dubose & Miss Carlton here this morning. Miss Molly & Anna Thompson here this afternoon. Read a chapter in Romans. I have been dressing a doll for Tebbin today. Friday 16th A fair cool day. Col J. Billups called twice, Capt Jones & Mr D. Mitchell here since four oclock [sic], Rec'd a letter from Ed, Read in second Thessalonians; Received a note from Miss M. Biggers answered it; Saturday 17th A fair cool day. Several called at the gate. No one I think came in the house. Read one chapter in Acts. Sunday 18th A cloudy cool day. Mr B. Smith called this morng. Read in Matthew. I have been in bed nearly all day with headache feel better tonight; Monday 19th A cloudy day. Some little rain. Stump, Miss P., & myself spent the morning in Athens. Mr Dubose & Mr Carlton spent the afternoon here. Miss E. & A. Thompson, Mr L. Thompson & Mr J. Fesler came soon after supper & set [sic] till after ten o clock. Read a chapter in Luke. Tuesday 20th A dark cloudy day, indeed we have had several light rains. Several called at the gate. Mr Smith came in for water. Read a chapter in Romans. Tebbin has been sick all day. I never saw such children in my life so often sick. Wednesday 21st Another dark rainy day. Several called, & while at the supper table, Mr E. H. Pottle came, have not seen him for several years, feel pleased to meet him once more. Read a chapter in John. Thursday 22nd A fair cool day, think we will have frost tonight. Mr E. H. Pottle, & his two daughters left this morning. They have been sick all the time therefore have not enjoyed their visit a great deal. Mr Lester dined here. Read a chapter in John. Friday 23rd A fair cold day, had a pretty frost this morng. Col J. Billups called this morng, W. H. Dean this afternoon. Read a chapter in Hebrews. Bless us O my Father & teach us thy laws. Teach us to thank thee for every good we enjoy & every evil we escape; "O for a heart submissive, meek, thy dear Redeemer's cause, Where only Christ is heard to speak. And Jesus Reigns alone."